Seconds had turned to minutes, minutes to hours, hours to days, days to weeks and weeks to months. I didn’t know how long it has been since I miscarried; it’d probably been a couple of weeks or months? I just didn’t know. I was numb to everything, nothing helped not even talking. After we came from the hospital I didn’t leave my room up until now. The room was always dark like my heart because I didn’t want any light to penetrate in. No one came in except Chris, Matt, my parents and Eva. Everyone else I didn’t want to see and they didn’t want to see me, I was too gloomy for them. I was like a dark cloud about to bring a storm; everyone was afraid I would ruin them, darken their hearts and souls like mine which was already dark and shattered.
My safe haven was underneath my blankets. It’
