MY STORY

This is the story about my life. I born in 1985. I have many experience in my life. I have been in love, broken heart, even trying think of going to death. I live with a simple family. My family not a rich family. I have two elder brothers and a younger sister. When I'm 13 years old I'm in love with one guy. He also my cousin friend. We going with a same church. I frist meet him was at my cousin house. It's like love in the first side. But I know maybe my first and the last seen him and I never think will see it again. I and my brother are active in the church. One day we have a activity at the church, and I never thought that I will meet him again. I thought I will never seen him again. From that moment we being a friend. I know I'm still Young don't know what is love about. One day he ask me to be her girlfriend. I'm so happy to hear about it and I never think it's a good time or not having a relationship with my age 13. We been a friend only for 3 months. We been in a relationship almost a year and one day I saw him with other girl. The girl is my senior. I know he want to make me jealous but I never show him. What I do is just keep inside my heart and cry alone. I don't know why I'm still love him even though he doing me cry. I try to say to myself that I will make him release that I'm truly love him. We never celebrate a birthday or anniversary in our relationship. But when it's come his birthday I just send him a present. The most painful is I never get anything from even my birthday. But for me is ok as long he love me it's enough for me. Until I'm 17 he 19 I make a decision for asking for a brake up. It's take me 5 years in a relationship and finally I make a discussion. Many people say I'm so stupid and many people say I'm to kind but the guy that I love never see it. What I say is love him is more is enough. For the first time it's really hard for me to forget him. We still meet at the church. I try to make nothing happens but I can't. One day I received a call from him that he want to be with me again and I don't know what to do or should I give him a a second chance. I say to me that he really feel regret what he doing to me. I say to him we been 5 years in relationship now you say you regret? He stop calling me and even he send me a song but I say to myself it's over. I don't want my heart painful again. We broke up not even 3 months he already have a new one and the girl that she couple also a friend. After that I say to myself I do a good discussion. After that I can't love someone else it's because the pain inside my heart still there. Even though I still love him... I always say to people if you feel want to cry just cry it out. Don't keep inside the heart. It's because it will make you more painful. Believe me because I feel it.