And the story begins

Selen  "Selen?" "Yep" "dinner is ready" "Yeah coming" *Ughh what am I forgetting what am I forgetting* I looked through my stuff, everytime I pack I forget to keep something. My mother says it is impossible for me to pack without forgetting. Books, I thought turning towards my mini bookshelf. I have some eighteen books at present and what I won't give to take them all with me, but I can't father would never allow me. He already hates books *precisely my obsession with books*, he would surely throw them all in bin if he find out I am making my luggage heavy not with some essential items but with book. Plus I am already out of his good books, don't want to piss him off even more. So I decided to keep few of my favorites, ones that I knew I would never get bored of reading. My father had almost finished his dinner by the time I joined my parents. I didn't miss how he clenched his jaw looking at my baby bump that is now slightly visible *just like everytime he do whenever he see me* gulping I sat down and my mother served me caprese pasta salad which made me smile and I mouthed thank you to her. In return she gave me a watery smile and bit her lips to stop herself from crying. My nineteenth birthday is next week, but I won't be here to celebrate, my mother won't be able to bake a cake for me this year, we would be states apart. She hates it, she tried to talk to my father and change his mind three day ago but it was all in vain. Once my father decide something, nothing could change his mind. And this, this is the matter of our reputation in this town, his reputation in church. My staying here would sabotage our family's reputation and so I have to leave. "Have you packed everything?" My father asked putting his spoon down in now empty plate. "Yes" I replied. "Hmm, we'll leave at four in morning don't get late" he said before getting up and leaving. Once he was out for earshot my mom grabbed my hand on table and said "I would miss you so much" a lone tear escaped her eyes. "I will miss you too mom, but it's only a matter of months" it's my third month of pregnancy which means I have to stay away only for six months. Once this baby is out of my tummy I will be free, I will be able to return home. "I know, I know it's just.....this is the first time you'll be away from home, you'll be far from me" "Mom just thing I am leaving for my college that will make you feel better" I grimaced and regretted bringing college. My mother too copied my expressions. College is something we don't talk about anymore "that would have been different this....this is different you need someone to love you, cherish you during these months. That's best for not only you but for baby too." "Mom" I sighed looking up at her "that doesn't matter I am not going to keep it anyway." "Selen" there was hurt in her eyes "it doesn't matter if you give him or her up for adoption, it's still your baby and you should think the best for it" "Mom I am sure uncle and aunt are not some monsters. I mean yeah they are not exactly very friendly, but I am sure they will atleast take care of me and make sure this baby is born healthy" "I don't know. Sarah and Mark have changed since Adam's death they don't really give a crap about anyone or anything anymore. I am shocked they even allowed you to stay with them." mom said more to herself. Adam was just seven when he was hit by a car and died on spot, mom says that changed uncle and aunt before Adam's death they used to be optimistic and friendly towards everyone. After his death well they became those grandmas you find in your neighbor who gets annoyed literally by everything. "Don't think much about it mom, after all stressing over it will not change father's decision. Just cross your fingers" I said gently squeezing her hand that is holding mine with my other hand. "I know" she said sighing. After dinner I kissed my mom goodnight and came back to my room. Brushed my teeth, changed into black tank top and white pjs. Plopping down on my bed I picked up my mobile to check messages. There were twelve messages two from Maya my bestfriend and only friend who knew about my pregnancy although my father have no idea about this. He specifically told me not to tell my friends as he thinks young ladies loves gossips and my pregnancy would be an interesting subject, but Maya has been my bestfriend since like forever so she deserved to know. Plus she is excellent in keeping secrets.  *"Goodnight and safe travels" "Also don't forget to call me once you reach your aunt and uncle's"* Said two of her voice messages. I replied and checked other messages. Everyone thinks that I am going for short vacations, can't blame them my uncle and aunt live in Victoria Sand's a big luxurious town in California, tourists' favorite destination for summer breaks and christmas holidays. little do they know this is my punishment. After replying everyone, I kept my mobile back on side table and stared blankly at ceiling. If only I wasn't being stupid on that unfortunate night. *ughh I can't wait for the day I am free of it* I thought keeping my hand on my stomach. *If only you could have actually loved me Kyle* tears brimmed my eyes blurring my vision.