He Who Made Me Crazier

Lonely. Miserable. Melancholy. These are the description that suits me right now. Alone on the four corners of these white walls and doesn't have the audacity to talk for about half a year now and categorized as a mentally-illed person. Yes I am mute and ?? was the reason. The guy who left me speechless, literally speechless. Remembering the painful events that happened to me way back when I was still crazy in love with him, I wanna scream my heart out but I can't. I am mute. I'm a f*****g useless. As I am pondering on things, narinig ko na bumukas ang pinto at yapak ng mga tao ang nagbigay-ingay sa tahimik na kwartong aking kinalalagyan. Seconds later, sound of cries enveloped my ears that made me look on the other side and there I saw a baby, my child. "Anak", Tita Ana said as she go near me carrying my baby. Tita Ana was the one who helped me. "Pwede ka ng makalabas dito anak. Sa bahay ka na magpapagaling. Araw-araw mo ng makikita itong anak mo.", she said while sobbing but my focus was not on her but on the child she was holding. I reached out my hand on her small face and she smiled na tila nakilala ako. Just then I realized na umiiyak na pala ako. Nakapawalang kwenta kong ina. Ni hindi ko kayang alagaan ang sarili kong anak. Ultimo padedehin sya hindi ko magawa. While looking intently on my child, I heard the door opened and without thinking I instinctively look at the person that came to my room. A man in his white shirt, black pants and white shoes is looking through me with his eyes pooling with tears and with that, after months of being mute I finally said my first word. "E-ed-ward"