The Unwanted But Inevitable Choice

Chapter 12

"STOP!" I hear a female voice scream in my ears.

"Ahhh!" I scream and jump. I feel myself hit the floor as I fall off of my bed. I look up and see Austin looking at me like I'm crazy.

"What's wrong?"

"I just heard someone!" I'm looking under my bed and in my closet.

"What did they say?" Austin sits up still looking at me like I've lost my mind.

"I heard a girl's voice in my ear and she said stop really loud. It was like she was right beside me, screaming.

"Lanie!" Austin jumps up with realization in his eyes. "That is your wolf! What else is she saying?" I listen but I don't hear anything.

"I don't hear anything? What should I do?"

"It was really hard for me to talk to Issac at first. Your dad helped me."

"I thought dad met you when you shifted for the first time?"

"He did.. Issac was trying to reach out to me for weeks before I shifted. I thought I was going crazy when I heard him talk to me. I kept pushing him away. Well the pain was so bad one day I decided to take a walk. I was walking to the lake when I felt like I was having a heart attack. I looked up and saw a full moon in the sky. That was Isaac's last straw and he fought me and took control over my body. Because I was fighting for control of my body, every bone and muscle in my body felt like they were on fire. I felt my blood was boiling. I screamed as I started to shift. I collapsed from the pain and when I looked up I saw a huge grey wolf. That must have shocked Issac because he stopped fighting me. I got up and started running from the grey wolf. I ran into the woods, I just kept running until I was lost. I was so fatigued and honestly, terrified. I knew what was happening because Issac had been saying I was a werewolf for weeks but I was in denial. I felt the same way you did at first. I thought I would know if I was a werewolf." He looks down..

"Keep going, that must have been so confusing for you…" I say as I do my best to comfort him. I rub his back and he gives me a small smile.

"I was confused. But at the same time I understood, deep down I knew it was all true When I broke from my thoughts I looked up and saw your dad. I realized as soon as I saw him that he was the grey wolf that was chasing me. He was no longer in wolf form as he stood before me.. I felt like I could trust him if that makes sense. He helped me up and brought me here… We sat in the garage and he answered all of my questions. He told me I needed to let my wolf shift so he wouldn't keep trying to break through. He said we needed to build a bond between us. Oskar brought a mirror into the garage and explained to me how to shift. He said it may be easier to connect with him if I watch myself shift and meet my wolf.."

"So your first shift hurt? Did you talk to Issac before you shifted?" Thinking about shifting terrifies me. Every time I've asked Dad, or Austin, or even Will, they have just told me it gets easier the more you shift.

"It gets easier the more you shift," I roll my eyes because he is trying to get around answering me. "Okay… it hurts Lanie. It hurts a lot. Every bone in your body changes to become a wolf. You can feel every piece of hair growl. You can feel your senses changing. It's going to be hard Lanie…" he looks at me with tears in his eyes… "but yeah Issac talked me the whole way through and took over as soon as he could." I gulp. Austin is like 6ft 4 and incredibly well built for his age.. How am I going to change into a wolf? What if I die? Can you die shifting? The thought sends a wave of shocks through my spine. I don't want to ask Austin though because I don't want to upset him. Also he may not even know.

"Can you help me talk to her?"

"I can try, but wouldn't you rather have your dad help you?"

"No… I mean not really…" I haven't let myself think about it much. My dad freaking out on me about Will being in my room made me feel awful. He made me feel like I was acting like a w***e when he was the one who told me Will was my mate. My dad has never raised his voice at me. He is literally the easiest person to get along with. I don't understand how he even knows what it feels like for a mate to cheat or whatever. What little he has told me about her, has been positive and that she was this amazing person. When he yelled at me in front of Will and Austin. I felt...betrayed. Austin brings me from my thoughts by pulling me to the middle of my room where there are two kitchen chairs. I didn't even notice he went to the kitchen.

"Okay, me and you will sit face to face.. This is my first time so let's just be patient and let her talk to us. Try not to be scared. She isn't a part of you to hurt you." I nod my head and sit down on the chair. Austin looks into my eyes and shoots me a full toothy smile.

"Thank you for helping me," I say shyly. "I'm lucky to have you here with me.." He kisses my forehead which makes me weak.. But I sigh and prepare myself.

"You're welcome, I'm happy you are putting your trust in me to help you… I'm new to this myself.." I know he is thinking what I'm thinking. Will is so much more experienced with being a werewolf and could probably help me with this. But I trust Austin, and Will thinking he has some ownership over me really sits wrong with my heart. But also when I was kissing Austin my wolf wanted me to stop. Maybe she can help me decide what I should do.. Maybe I should do this alone?

"Austin…" I look up at him. I don't want to hurt him but I also know that the best thing for me and my wolf would be to talk alone without pressure.

"Do you want me to leave Lanie?" He looks at me sad but also with understanding. This is why I care about Austin because I don't need to be fake with him.

"Yes, I think it's best if we do talk, that we talk alone. I'm sorry," I hate this… I don't really want him to leave. I just feel like he is distracting me.

"I understand Lanie, you really don't have to explain yourself to me." I smile and walk Austin out and watch him walk down the street toward his house.

"Finally!" I hear the girl's voice from early

"Hello?" I say out loud.

"Hi, I'm your wolf! My name is Thalia. I've been waiting for him to leave. We really have so much to talk about."

A/N I will typically update Saturday night. But sometimes inspiration spikes or I have free time to write. I don't save chapters so anytime I finish a chapter it will be posted. thank you for reading my book(s.) If this book is too PG-13 for you I have a very steamy book I am working on as well called A Light In The Darkness. Feel free to check it out, but be warned, it is very sexually graphic. thank you again