The Torn She-wolf

Best Friend

My wolf's temptations and needs were over powering my morals. I was still standing in the hall with Drew only inches from me. I needed to leave. I needed to find the will to leave, to walk away. Finally, something came over me, I took a step back and looked down. I walked past him to Nick's room and shut the door behind me. I set Nick’s clothes that I was wearing on the desk chair. I grabbed the shirt and shook it out and put it over the towel. I let the towel fall to the floor. I grabbed his basketball shorts and slipped them on. I looked at Nick sleeping and all I could feel is shame and disappointment. I never wanted to hurt him. I shook my head trying to forget about the dirty thoughts of Drew I was thinking. I climbed into bed and shortly fell asleep.

I woke up to Nick kissing my head and saying good-bye. I looked at my phone after he left, 6am my first class was at 7. I had plenty of time. I got up and grabbed my soap from my bag and headed to the showers. I washed my hair and body then stepped out and brushed my teeth. I headed back to Nick's room and pulled out my clothes for the day. A pair of ripped jeans and a black shirt with a small blue butterfly on the left side of my chest. I brushed my hair and got ready for the day. I grabbed my backpack and walked out the door.

When I got outside the frat house I saw Drew leaning up against the stair rail with his hands in his pocket. When he noticed me he pushed off and waited for me to reach the bottom of the stairs. I stopped and I could feel my cheeks heat up. I felt embarrassed about almost losing control last night. I knew he was going to talk to me, our friendship is too important to us. I stood there in silence waiting for one of us to stop staring at the ground and say something.

He finally moved his stare from the ground to my eyes, "Let's go talk." He said nodding his head, prompting me to follow him. He started walking towards the forest. I walked behind him with blush still creeping all over my cheeks, feeling a little nervous. It was a long walk to where he was leading me. It was a cliff overlooking the town at the bottom of the mountain. I don't think anyone knew of this place except for me and Drew. I've never seen anyone else up there. When either one of us was having a hard time we would come up here to think and get away from everyone. I remember the first time I found this place.

Flashback

It was my first week of college freshman year and I had a bad day at the pack house with other she-wolves and a worse time navigating my classes and walking into the wrong classroom in the middle of the professor giving a lecture. I ran out of the building towards the woods trying not to let the tears fall down my face in front of schoolmates. As soon as I reached the tree line tears poured out of my eyes down my face. I kept walking up the mountain till I came to the edge and could see the whole town. It looked so small and I felt like all my problems disappeared.

I sat on a rock looking at the view when Drew came up behind me. "Are you okay?" He asked in a soft caring tone. I nodded my head. "Rough day?" He asked, sitting down on the ground next to me. I nodded my head yes and wiped my face on my sweater sleeve. "I heard what happened at the pack house this morning, I can take care of it if you want," he said, pulling his knees up and wrapping his arms around them loosely. "No, it…It's ok." I said back quietly. "Do you want to talk about it? Or look at this incredible view?" He asked, turning his attention from me to the town lights starting to come on slowly. "The view." I answered pointing to infront of us.

End Flashback

After that whenever one of us had a problem or life became too much, we would escape to our view.

We got to the edge and he sat down on the big rock. I stood there trying not to make eye contact knowing full well that my cheeks would blush of embarrassment but I knew we wouldn't be able to avoid talking about this. "Rose," he started, "We need to talk but are you going to stand there the whole time?" I looked up at him and shook my head. "Then come sit down." He said standing up and motioning to the rock. I walked over and sat down. He stared at me for a second then sat down on the ground.

It was silent for a while then realized if we don't talk soon I will miss my second class of the day. "Are you waiting for me to talk first?" I asked, staring down at my hands in my lap. "Yes, I want you to talk when you're comfortable."

"Ok, well as much as I want to be here all day, I can't, so let's get this started.” I paused and took a deep breath, then started “I'm sorry for tempting you in the hall last night. I didn't know you were there," I said looking at him feeling a little embarrassed.

"You're sorry?...I'm sorry. I almost lost control with you and you're the last one I want to lose control with." He said looking away from me with shame in his eyes.

"My wolf needs another wolf and when she saw you she lost control. It's hard being with a human,” I admitted.

"He doesn't please you?" he asked as his eye searched mine.

"I don't finish. It takes alot for a wolf to finish…but I don't have to tell you that." I answered lowering my head, feeling ashamed to admit it out loud.

"Rose, why are you with him?" He asked soft, curious voice. "I need normal. I needed to put as much distance between me and wolves as I could and beside what wolf would date me in our pack let alone mate me? I'm kind of labeled the Rouge." I pointed out. Silence started to creep in as I stared at him waiting for him to agree but he didn't.

"Me, I would date you…again." I shot him a look. He smiled and shrugged his shoulders. "You're a wolf...I need distance Drew. I can't live with wolves anymore and your future Beta..to Shane! I...I couldn't do it. I'm a rogue Drew, you need someone better." I said with tear starting to pool in my eyes. He reached up and took my hand and slowly pulled me down to the ground next to him.

He reached up and brushed a strand of hair out of my face. He cupped my face and stroked my cheek, "Rose, I've been in love with you since you were 15. I spent 2 years earning your forgiveness and trust. I've never worked so hard for something before. I understand you, not wanting to be around wolves but if i'm the only one you can stand and I would be so blessed to just be your friend, I can live with that. What I can't live with is you not in my life at all." Drew explained with such care in his voice. I nodded my head with tears running down my face. He pulled me into his arms and I started to feel better. I rested my head on his chest and let out a peaceful sigh and started to fall asleep.