My Mystry Man

It's a new morning like always, the pink cherry blossoms outside show that it's the beginning of spring, the flowers and plants bloom in green and every colour you can think of. My alarm clock rings and wakes me up at 6 in the morning even though school doesn't start at 9 but I need to do some things before it starts. I groan softly as I get up, its not that I have a problem with it , no, but yesterday I studied all night just for toad as I have an exam today. I jump in the shower to have a quick wash then I change in fresh new clothes and brush my teeth, after that I leave my room quietly as to not wake my mom up. She works hard for both of us everyday 8am to 10pm, it hurts me to see her like this everyday when she comes home from a long, rough day and looks so tired and exhausted. Since my father left us she needs to work more so we can have a roof over our heads and food to eat but its very hard because sometimes the money doesn't fit at all. So this is the reason I have a part time job as well, after school I work at a café but only for a few hours. After my job I go home to do my homework and some housework so that when my mom gets back she can come home to a tidy home since its just the two of us in our small house. I have a brother that's one year younger than me named Taehyung but he lives far away and only visits sometimes but it became less. the last time was months ago and to be honest I don't really miss him much because he gives our mom the fault why our father left us. I walk to the kitchen and begin with some work, the house needs to be cleaned too and yesterday I didn't have much time cause of the exam and my job got a bit stressful, its not that my mom forces me to do this, of course not. She always says ' My beloved Chimmy, you know you don't have to do this. You're my sweet and strong son. I'm so proud of you and I can't believe you're just 17 but I wish you didn't have to do it'. I believe her words, she looks at me with this sad but still lovely eyes so I want to do it. She does so much for me so I can at least do this for her. I clean the living, then the bathroom then the kitchen but not all of it, the sun shines through the kitchen window so I open it to feel the cool breeze, we have purple and white flowers standing on the surface and I smile by the beautiful colours. the melody of the birds that echo in the wind and makes the morning better than usual. My mom will be waking soon and my stomach growls for some food so I decide to cook breakfast for us, scrambled eggs on toast I also make some coffee for my mom and for me I have a glass of orange juice. While cooking I hum a song I listened to on the radio yesterday and hear sudden footsteps. 'Morning mom' I say as I turn to the 1.68m high woman with long blonde hair. I am 1.73m but I guess its puberty and I honestly don't mind my height. I have other things to worry about. 'Good morning Chimmy' she smiles and looks to the delicious smelling scrambled eggs in the pot, ' since when where you awake' she raises an eyebrow worriedly and I guess she noticed that I cleaned. 'Not to long ago mom...I....just couldn't sleep and so I thought I could do this. You seemed so tired yesterday'. I lie the first part cause I know she feels bad. She breathes in deeply and tries not to say more. 'You made coffee too? God Jimin. I truly don't deserve you' she smiles softly but I shake my head. 'You do mom' I smile and put the scrambled eggs and toast on a plate and serve them to her on our small table which is perfect for the two of us....Its been 3 years since my father left but my anger grows each day for him. I can't forgive him and won't. never. 'Mmmmmh this is delicious Chimmy' she says while her eyes sparkle. 'Thanks mom I did learn from the best' I giggle but to be honest the internet did teach me a few things to. 'I saw you reading a book yesterday, do you have an exam?' she asks and I nod in response whilst taking a bite of my toast. 'Good luck'  she smiles then takes a bite out of her toast and then I give her one in response. Even when she works almost the whole day she still looks after me. 'Jimin tonight I will come home a bit later toady since a colleague of Donghyun is sick' she tells me and my eyes widen in sorrow. 'B...but' 'No buts Jimin! I have to and you know that. We need the money and it doesn't fall from trees' she explains and I know she is right. I don't earn much in the café but its still something so I can buy some things for us like groceries. 'Jimin I don't like to ask this but we are running out of groceries...c..could you go and buy some'. I know that she doesn't like to ask me this question.. but I saw it as I grabbed the eggs out of the fridge. 'Don't worry mom I will go shopping when I finish at the café', I smile and watch as a relieved but stressful look appears on her face. 'And you're really just 17?' she laughs and finishes her breakfast. 'Thank you for the breakfast it was lovely' she looks at the sink and then at the plates but before she can say something I do it instead. 'I'll do the dishes mom, just go take a shower and then go to work. I'll make you some launch with what we have left in the fridge'. I say and then carry the dishes to the sink, she gives me a quick peck on the cheek. 'You're wonderful Chimmy you know that' she says but I just nod. I don't like when she talks like this, when I'm this wonderful why did father leave us? I try to distract myself by the cruel thoughts and look for something with what I can make for launch for my mom... Okay, we really need groceries ! I take the bread, cheese and butter and make her two sandwiches. We still have a few veggies left so I put a few on her sandwiches then I fill her to go cup with coffee. I replay the song in my mind and relax as the sun hits the kitchen counter, I check the time and its just 7:52.. I didn't need as much time as I thought. I could have slept a bit longer nut hey it's okay and besides I'm glad. I did what I wanted to do... The days are like this since my father left us 3 years ago and half a year later, Taehyung left too... Sometimes I wish someone would come, someone who could help me and my mom to have a better life, it breaks my heart to see her suffering and this exhausted but I cant do anything against it. My father doesn't even give us money and he knows our situation... I hate him.... I hate him so much.. I look up to see my mom entering the kitchen. She wears her nurse clothes because that's her job. 'This is for you' I tell her and then give her, her lunch. 'Could you buy me some tooth paste?' she asks and I nod. 'I'll go no. Have a great day and good luck with your exam'. she smiles and then pecks my cheek softly and then leaves and now  I'm alone, like always. Today I'm more thinking about my dad or our situation, my life. I hate moments like this so much.. it makes me feel lonely and so alone. Its unfair that we live in a small house whilst my father lives god knows where.. I don't even know where but he doesn't send us money.. that's just so unfair. I do the dishes and grab my school bag, I still have an hour left but nothing needs me here and I already do the work so I leave as well. I grab my phone which is already a bit old but I can call someone and listen to music and this is what I need now, it makes me and my mind calm. I arrive at school and walk in to wait in my classroom, I see my friends haven't arrived yet. I'm sure they still sleep like the others and so I sit here alone in the classroom, listening to a sad but also happy melody and hope that someone some day will come and help.. someone who will make me feel better... loved. I place my head on the table and slowly start to drift off.  'Chim! Jimin..' I groan while opening my eyes and pull my headphones out of my ears, I get greeted with my friend Jung Hoseok. 'Hey' I greet him shyly as he sits beside me. 'What's with you? You look tired, didn't you get enough sleep?' he asks. 'Its okay. I'm fine' I say and hope he wont ask more. He and Jin (he works at the café I work to) are the only ones I would call friends... maybe Min Yoongi, Hoseok boyfriend too. I talk to them, ask about their lives and such but nothing about me. I don't and wont tell them about my problems because I don't like it. They cant help me so why should I tell them, I also don't want their pitiful eyes on me. Hoseok looks at me and nods but seems deep in thoughts... He knows I work after school and he once asked me how I can do that and still be so good at school, I just blushed and shrugged my shoulders. I cant explain it but its nothing special. 'Good luck with the exam' he says 'Thanks, you to hyung' I smile and then the teacher enters the room ---2:00pm-school's end--- 'Bye hyung!' I wave at Hoseok who holds hands with suga, his boyfriend. He smiles and waves back. 'Don't overwork yourself' he calls after me, I chuckle and then rush to the café. I'm glad the teachers were lazy today so this gave me the chance to do my homework after the regular exercises. I take the bus and then walk to the café. 'Hi Jimin! nice to see you' Jin greets me. 'You to hyung' I smile and then grab an apron. And like everyday I bring coffee and food to the guests... I like this job. Its nice and I really like Jin. He was the one who gave me this job after all, most people don't really like 17 year old males or females working but Jin saw more... Maybe he had pity but the most important is that I have one, he's just 27 and owns his own café. I lean against the counter and look at the clock, watching as time goes by very slowly. My shift ends in two hours and then I can go buy groceries.... I catch a voice of a costumer and look up to meet Jin's eyes on me, my whole insides scream in nervousness. How can I be so dumb and watch the clock? Now he probably thinks I'm pathetic. I gulp down, look away in shame and rush to the counter. 'One coffee latte sir!' I say and give it to the man. He looks older than me, maybe 45? He looks up and down on me but I cant read his facial expression. I'm sure he thinks the same like the others, that I'm to young, I bow down and then collect the empty cups and plates of the costumers and rush to the sink. I'm glad my shift ends in an hour so I can  finally go shopping and them go home. ---1 hour later--- I take off my apron and breathe in relief, I can now go shopping, maybe I can buy some cake mix... my insides scream for something sweet. As I'm about to leave the café Jin calls after me, he has a plastic tub in his hands and smiles softly. 'Here.... you've worked hard today so this is my treat for you' he says and my mouth waters by the heaven looking cupcake. 'Thank you hyung' I smile as I take the cupcake. 'No problem, have a nice evening' He smiles and I leave after telling him the same, I make my way to the supermarket while I eat the cupcake, its so fluffy and creamy.... its been a while since I last ate anything sweet and the idea of baking something hits me.... I don't know what to do? my stomach flips by the feeling of baked cake or cookies. ---1 hour later---  it's 5:30pm as I walk home while carrying 3 full bags of groceries... they are a bit heavy and I cant wait to get home. A family catches my eye.. A father who plays with a little girl while a women smiles at them. I guess its the mother. The ache in my heart comes back but this time its stronger and tears well up in my eyes, I blink them away and tighten my grip on the bags, turning my head I start to walk again. I breathe in relief as I catch our apartment just 8 meters away. Slowing down my pace I notice that the sky starts to get darker,