My father is dead. Not sure what to feel. The memories I have of childhood are few, and the times we talk on the phone too. Since I got to the pack, he has done nothing to make me feel loved, and when he approached me it was because he went crazy and saw my mother in me. I can't get any feelings about his death. I imagine he's been a good beta all these years, but… I don't want to think about it anymore right now. Now I have to think about myself. That man violated me so violently that my body is still not healed. He continues to inject me with wolfsbane, but I feel myself gaining strength. I don't stay unconscious that long and my vision improves faster too. I can't let him see this or he'll inject more wolfsbane into me . Also, I need to look weaker than I am, or he still gives me away t
