SCARS OR NOT I LOVE HER

"Master please, I would do anything you want"  The young lady who was now in tears, was been hit by her teacher. All her plea fell on deaf ears, seeing her devastated, an evil smirk escaped his lips. Thud! He pushed her to the bed,ripped off her dress then she started struggling again... 'Diana..Diana.. the voice seems familiar but faraway,' she thought. And as she was still struggling, she woke up and found out she was in her room where her roommate was trying to wake her up. 'You are late for class..Diana open the door', the voice outside the door called out. Those words and thuds were enough to bring her to reality,then it dawned on her that she just had another nightmare and she's probably late for class. In a jiffy, she jumped out of the bed and shouted at the door, 'I will be out in some minutes please'. With those words, the one at the door could only leave to the sitting room and wait for her (Her roommate also knows about the nightmares). Within few minutes, Diana was seen in the kitchen trying to eat breakfast and poof she went out of the house trying to escape Tia's interrogation (her roommate). After a short drive which seemed ever ending to Diana, she found herself in front of the University's main campus. Quickly, she took a corner straight ahead to her lecture hall, fortunately, she was lucky the Lecturer just started teaching. After what seems to be a long day of hard work, Diana went to see the Dean of Students concerning her studies. After all the academic parade, time wasn't on her side as she got home few minutes to 6pm, hopefully Tia (her roommate) will not be at the hostel, she thought as she opened the door... She was greeted by a savouring aroma, her stomach grumbled that was when she knew she had not taken anything aside breakfast. Putting behind her today's ordeal, She found Nanny cooking and her little daughter Michelle in the kitchen. Hullo, Nanny How are you, she said. The woman whose name was Nanny answered, oh you are back,am fine. Smiling she carried the little one and thanked nanny for taking care of her while she was away. Feeling guilty for not checking up on her daughter, she could not take her eyes off the cute little one smiling in her hands, she started feeding her. Seeing the look on Diana's face, Nanny could not help but say something. She misses you too and she knows you love her, she said breaking into Diana's thoughts. Thank you, Nanny was all she could say. Am preparing your favourite for dinner, Nanny replied so go and have your bath so you would get to eat dinner on time..After feeding Michelle (daughter) , she gave her to Nanny Maria so she could go shower and come back for dinner. Back in the shower Diana could not help but remember how she met Nanny (Nanny an old lady whose name was Maria came into the house after Diana started having prenatal issues and needed someone to take care of her. She met her at the shop where the latter collapsed due to the migraine she had then, she took her to the hospital and since then she treated Diana like her own daughter. After having her shower,she quickly went downstairs to eat her dinner.  Immediately after the dinner, Diana went to her mini study ( the only place she feels safe and secured by writing down everything that has happened to her in her journal. Why? Her motherly instinct made her think it might be needed by her daughter when the day comes...The Power of Written Goals. "I brought you tea', said Nanny interrupting her thoughts. 'Nanny thanks for everything', she said. 'You should not thank me dear,I love her', nanny said lovingly as she knew she was thanking her for taking care of Michelle '..but one thing dear' Nanny continued, looking straight at Diana's eyeball...do not hate her please. Shocked by Nanny's words, she could not help but cry. She had been there for her when nobody stood by her and now she is asking her not to hate her own flesh and blood. 'I will not hate her.. I know I have been a bad mother lately,I will always love here' Diana promised Nanny, but in her wild thoughts ( I will help her to grow stronger than me and get her revenge) an evil smile escapes her lips. After telling each other goodnight, Nanny retired to her room while Diana started pouring out her daily encounter... -Coughs- 'Tia, you are back', Diana said as she tried not to look at her directly. 'Yes, I got back some minutes ago, wanted to check on you before I go to bed' Tia replied. 'Oh am fine,thanks though if you did not wake me up this morning, I would have missed today's class' Diana said thankfully. 'What are roomies for' Tia said smiling, 'anyway am glad you did not miss it' she concluded. There was a brief silence between the two ladies, Diana could feel Tia's gaze piercing through her skin. She knew Tia wanted to talk about the reason why she woke up late (her nightmares), she has been avoiding the topic for a long time and she bet she wouldn't escape Tia's interrogation tonight. 'You know you could trust me right, we may not be best friends But we have shared a lot together' Tia broke the silence..'you should not be hiding anything from me, it will not help you heal' she concluded. The atmosphere in the room became tensed as Diana could not help but to think about it. How will she tell Tia her own teacher r***d her severely and disappeared with no trace after she told him she was pregnant with his child, and she's afraid he might come back and do his worse and that alone is enough to cause her nightmares. Truly Tia cared for her and the baby but she never told her the truth behind it. Now she cannot tell her the Truth, it will make her look bad. "Diana"...Hearing her name, she realised Tia's gaze was on her and it seemed like she pitied her. 'You do not have to answer it, I guess you are not ready yet' she said. Upon hearing those words Diana felt relieved, but a part of her knew she would still eventually have to tell Tia one day, so in order to avoid future interrogation, she broke the silence 'Tia trust me, I do not want to hide anything from you but, I also do not want you to feel burdened with me' Diana said. Tia with her mind set on listening to her since she also wants to know about the nightmares so she decided not to interrupt her (she was thinking if she's ready to talk while interrupt her, she might change her mind if I do that) ....she signalled Diana to continue. Since I got pregnant with the child I've always been sick and due to the prenatal stress, a childhood memory that I hate to remember keeps coming back, she said with tears in her eyes. Seeing this Tia could not help but embrace her, 'its fine Diana,am so sorry for opening your wounds okay' she said with sympathy. -Sighs- she continued, 'I never meant to but, please do not let it get the best of you okay. You got Michelle,I and Nanny with you, be strong okay' she concluded. She nodded in affirmation and muffled a thank you. Still in Tia's embrace she could not help but wonder how she came up with the lies she told Tia. However, Diana was happy when she noticed the undoubting look on Tia's face, it means she believed her. In a way, she was not lying but not telling the truth either. After the girls talk, Tia headed to her own room and Diana continued writing. '-Sighs- My nightmares can only be mine' she thought as she wrote..