Love failed me

I hear footstep sounds heading towards my room and i already know its my mom. Yep guess what?, holidays are over and we are going back to school am so not ready. I hate waking up at 5am like how is this even legal but then i remember its a new year and a new grade,yes am one step closer to my senior year in high school. “Polly wake up its 5am and your already late”. “Mom am already awake no need to shout,okay?” “And don’t forget to wear your school uniform that i bought for you, am tired of seeing that short skirt of yours it draws unnecessary attention”. I want to answer my mom and tell her that no am not wearing that long new skirt that she bought for me but I remember i DO NOT want to go to school with a blue eye. “Its fine mom I’ll wear it”. “Don’t forget your schoolbooks and eat before you go to school Polly”. “Mom you know i don’t eat before school, i better get going before i miss the taxi.” I grab my schoolbag and my school shoes because my mom has this crazy rule that says we cannot wear school shoes inside the house because it leaves polish stains on the tile. I open the door and i wear my shoes. Standing by the gate i cant see my best friend. I cannot believe this girl is late for our first day of school. “Polly” “Andrea” as i give her a hug. “Can you believe it we are going to grade 11 ,we are like one step closer to our senior year”. As i whisper in her ear. “I cant believe it we so grown i can already imagine us doing grade 12 next year”. “I know there’s a lot of catching up to do but we need to get going before we miss the taxi”. I complain “There’s the taxi let’s hurry up i want that front seat”. We got into the taxi and my favourite seat was not occupied so lucky me. As i look outside the window i think about the things i want to achieve this year and the most important one is good grades. I want my dreams of become a chartered account to become a reality and in order to that i need good grades, university is so expensive here in South Africa so i really need a bursary for that. I just pray my marks are excellent this year i want them to be better than the 72% average i got last year. I really need to impress my dad it’s about time i become enough for that man. “Polly Molly” “Mpho you know very well that i hate that name” i roll my eyes as i respond back to him “Are you ready for the new grade smarty pants” he teases me “ yeah kinda of” “Well i cant wait to copy homework from you, i can’t wait to see you in class bye.” “See me in class, what the f**ck is he talking about Andrea!” I exclaimed “Yeah that’s what he said i think maybe he’s in the same class with us or you,maybe he has already seen the list lets check it out” “ i think the list might be in front of all grade 11 classes “ “ yeah i think so”. No the list is by the school gate i hear a voice next to us saying that. “We should go check it out”i tell Andrea “Let’s go”. I stand from a distant and watch as Andrea is going through the list, i wanted to look myself but it’s overcrowded so it was better if either one of us looked. I see Andrea approaching me and i pray me and her are in the same class i cant imagine the two of us in different classes, who will console me when things don’t go my way in class. “ guess who’s in the same class, me and you babes”. “YES” i shout “And oh Mpho is in the same class with us”. Oh my god i cannot believe this, having Mpho in the same class as me it’s going to be a disaster that guy is my competitor. This is not going to go well i can already imagine the teachers turning to Mpho when i fail to give answers or them comparing our scripts in front of the whole class. It won’t work and i just remembered i had some sort of fling with this guy this is going to be a disaster i can already feel it. “I’ll be alright,right?” I ask Andrea “You’ll be fine, lets go to the assembly point before the school bell rings.” We get to the assembly point and i see some of my friends and i greet them it’s always nice seeing my friends and everyone there’s something about school that you can never get from home. Whenever am in school i want a break or a school holiday but when am at home during school holidays i just want to go back to school. The principle takes the stand and welcomes all of us back to school, he needs to finish asap with his speech because its hot out here like we are standing in an open space in the middle of the sun. A few minutes later our principle is done with his speech. We all walk to our classes and thank god the helpers already organised the class and our desks because i cannot imagine running to class on the first day of school just to fight for a chair. We all choose our seats and yes i choose one right next to my best friend. The teacher walks in and this is the first time his going to be teaching us. I look at his at i shrug a bit he has this serious face going on and top of that I’ve heard rumours that he is very strict and he doesn’t joke around with kids. I look at my best friend and she’s also nervous. The whole class is quiet and we all listened attentively while He is busy telling us about himself and the class rules. “I hope everyone understood what i said, i am going to be teaching you guys Accounting, and i want to asking you guys something” “Yes…” the whole class responded “Who is the number one learner or let me say the top learner in your grade?” He asked Two answers came from the class majority said Polly and some said Mpho “I hear two answers from you guys, can the two people stand up please if they are in our classroom” he said I look at Mpho and he’s looking at me we have a small eye contact chat and we both stood up. He looked at the two of us and asked the class if its really us and the class responded yet he then told us to sit down and we both sat down. “Its nice to see that a girl and a boy are competing for the position since its normally girls that we see but let me tell you something a girl’s smartness and dedication ends in Grade 10 don’t say I didn’t tell you so, anyway let’s get down to today’s business”. He said I take out my school book and i open the page he told us about as he is busy teaching i start to think about what he said, i don’t understand it in fact I don’t get it was he referring to me when he said that what is he saying actually. Does that mean i won’t take position one anymore. Instead of listening to what he’s teaching about i look at my textbook and try to figure out his statement.