The forgotten one

Aria... My mind has done it again... This is so f*****g stupid you mean to tell me after 15 years of living on this horrific life I how not only have to get job but also look for my mate who would what some how save me from this cruel lifestyle that I have been living... Well isn't that fun f*****g tastic... Nope I hate this pattern of what women should be doing and we can serve our mate be dutiful and all this bullshit that we are told we should do... I refuse to be part of this system that degrades us.. I choose to be different.. But I been dammed if I didn't want to be loved or cherished like a proper human to crave another's gentle and yet tender embrace why is it that so.. Why can't I catch a break it's not like someone is going to choose me of all people to be there on and only to love me unconditional for God sake even my parents have left me so why would a complete strange be any different but then again why lose faith in evwrything when there is so much more to come there is so much more pain and promises to be broken but we will see...