Thoughts Of A Dying Soul

After my breakup with the woman I loved the most. My world came to crumbling broken pieces whereby I suffered failure, self torture, heartbreak & lost my soul. I had to decide whether I carry on with life or I continue to live with the grief of " what we could have been. I found myself in a position whereby fate could be decided by my feelings not by the universe & reflecting on it now. I find it very absurd. As time went on. I was on a road to redemption to atone for my sadness that I had endured. I had to find myself & acknowledge my worth as an individual, but that didnt stop me from not thinking about her. My classmates looked at me an opprobrium manner that I had dumped by the person I showed love , dedicated myself to. I had to keep my head up high and pretend as if I wasnt a loner because I used to spend time with her. Such is life hey. We live & learn. Feel and endure. Cherish & Value momentos cause you to realize how much a moment truly is worth once it's gone. I had fallen from grace from love given to love lost. Part of my soul had been killed. Along that break up came a sudden death of Sivuyile that everyone including I knew. Indefatigable I felt when I was with her till my world came falling below my feet when she said "I hate you & your gender " I had felt disgruntled on how did it come to this.