Killed by myself

It's nothing but just an ordinary day in my room. I'm looking through my window. So many beautiful and bright colors,yet so dark. I was overwhelmed to see a beautiful butterfly flying over a pink Lily collecting out all the nector enjoying her life and out of nowhere a frog came and ate that just like all those past memories,my memories they were eating my soul. "Two seconds are enough to kill" I felt nauseous so went back to my bed, laid down,tried to sleep but those past memories are killing me again and again. Just like a horror movie where I was the main lead. A rainy day. The time my story came into life. A little cry of a little pretty baby. Brown hair,green eyes,white translucent skin...just like a little angel. 10 years later,there were three children me I'm Arosha Beren. I'm a middle child . I have an elder sister and a dumb little brother. The eldest one named Monessa Beren is the most loved child of family. well-rounded,best chef and a perfect material girl. Ronald Beren youngest ,most spoiled and very sensitive child but everyone's favorite one. Me middle one most stubborn and everything worst...... My first day at school was very strange I didn't cried that's even strange. I didn't liked to talk to people because I was shy. But found someone named Emilia.Emilia Alif. She was my first best friend. The one I loved the most. But one day my every feeling shattered into pieces. It was and ordinary day I came in class but I didn't see Emilia but her bag was there, we were in 5th grade.i was very happy that day ,but I saw her with a bunch of some bad girls because they were rude I hated them. I went there tried to talk but nothing happened....so I wanted to c***k a joke but ....she stopped me, Emilia insulted me Infront of everyone. I thought that it was a joke but it wasn't. That was all my fault to trust someone like this for too long she was now showing her true self. I was almost shattered into pieces but then she pointed my insecurity. I was not fluent in talking I used to stop after a word or two and she said "Have you ever seen a mirror? Have you ever thought that you deserved me? How do you think that I'm your friend? You are nothing but just a failure!" And that was the time I was killed by someone for the first time.... *They killed me. She killed me. They killed me* The only thing that was running through My head was this. I wanted to stop but it was not stopping and at last I started crying. After a couple of weeks a group of teacher from china came to our school to teach us karate. It was very fascinating.