At my worst

chapter 7

Months had passed. My relationship with Yibo, I must say, has improved.

Like naging open na siya. Kahit saan siya pumunta nagpapaalam with kiss yarn. Nag vcall. Lahat ng mga ginagawa niya pinapaalam niya sa akin.

Kinikilig ako sa mga galawan niyang ganun. Para bang totoo talaga kami. Gusto ko man linawin ang tungkol sa ex niya. Bumabaluktot kaagad ang dila ko kapag tinangka kong magtanong. Hanggang sa malilimutan ko na lang o wala ng chance na itanong pa.

Ganun pa rin ang set-up. Sasama ako sa kanya sa opisona niya habang nagtatrabaho siya ako naman nag-aaral. Photography ang curse na pinag-enrop ni lan zhan sa akin. Hindi ko alam kung paano niya nalaman na ganun ang gusto ko. Ayaw ko ng alamin kung paano. Nilalanggam na ako sa kaswetan niya palagi. Heart attack ang aabutin ko.

Daddy Lo is calling..... rightone ng phone ni Lan zhan ang cute noh?.hehehe..

Yes, daddy Lo how was your vacation in italy?.

Its good we're having fun. The place is nice, you can truly relax your mind. If you have free time you must visit this place.

Soon daddy Lo. Where's Mommy La?.

She was talking with Jiang Cheng.

Lsn Zhan was stunned. Hearing the name of his ex lover he was pissed. Oh.. then tell my regards to Mommy La. I will end the call.

Apo, wala kaming alam sa nangyari sa plano mo. Jiang Cheng told us everything. I hope you will choose the best choice if you will know the truth why he left without saying anything.

This was our own problem Daddy Lo. I don't want you to worry about this. Continue to have fun with your vacation. He coldly said.

We will but we can't leave Jiang cheng like this. He was alone with no one on his side. His parents didn't know it either. His parents were mad at him and didn't care about him. His sister can't come, also afraid to be scolded by their parents.

Can you visit him and stay at his side for a while?. Katatapos lang ng operation niya. Nagpapagaling pa siya. He needs someone to care for him.

Operation?.

Yes, lung cancer.

What?. But why?.

Asked him why, neither me nor your mommy la doesn't know why he hides it. Especially to you.

Yibo heavily sighed. Nasasaktan siya. Naapakan ang ego niya. Bakit sa lahat ng pwedeng paglihiman siya pa?. Saan ba siya nagkulang?. He does his best for their relationship. He offer a marriage to him cuz he know he was the one for him. He was sure to himself that Jiang cheng was his other half for the rest of his life. He never doubted it. Never in his entire existence.

Can you come over to look over him apo?. If not i understand i need to inform his parents about this. But as he had pleaded he didn't want to bother his family about this small matter.

Fuck small matters he called it small matters?. Who could he....

Yibo didn't know what to feel or how to feel something. Samot saring emotion ang nararamdaman niya. Hindi na rin niya nakikita ang presensya no Zhan.

Tajot na nakatingin si Zhan sa kanya ifagdag pa ang malakad nitong sampal sa mesa.

Gusto man niyang tanungin ngunit nakakatakot ang mukhang meron ito ngayon Tinikom na lang niya ang bibig at pinagmasdan ang asawa.

Tell him to wait for me. Pagod nitong sabi. I will book my ticket now.

I will inform him. And please tell it to Zhan. Daddy Lo last sentence Lan zhan didn't hear it. Zhan is a good child dont hurt him and make him cry.

Ok. Then he off the call.

Book me a ticket to Italy now. He said frim the intercom.

Boss naman sa dami ng trabaho ngayon ka pa aalis?.

Fuck do whay i said.

Ok ok.. i book i book. Don't get angry. Don't shout. Natataranta na sagot ni Ydnyl sa bossniya. Kapag ganitong galit ang boss Ydnyl hindi niya ito mabwebwesit baka masuntok siya ng wala sa oras.

Zhan was scared. Ito ang unang pagkakataon na nakita niya kung paano magalit si Yibo. Ni hindi niya ito magawang lapitan at kausapin. Kung palagi itong malambot sa kanya minsan nakakatakot ang mga tingin pero para sa kanya normal lang iyon sa isang Yibo na iceberg. Ibang usapan kapag nagsalita ito at galit ang expression.

It felt dejavu. He saw his stepfather's face lying hands to his mother. Those furious face make him shiver with fear.

Wala namang ibang makikita si Yibo. He don't know what to feel anymore. Naguguluhan nagagalit. But f**k we has more worried.

He left at his office without glancing at Zhan who was still trembling. Kung hindi pa pumasok si Ydnyl sa loob wala sanang nakakaalam na may tao pala doon. Walang malay.

Zhan felt stifled after the flashback memories. Sumikip ang dibdib niya hanggang sa mawalan siya ng malay.

Jusko, sir... sir.. gising anong nangyari sayo?. Bakit basta ka na lang iniwan ng lokong boss ko na iyun?. 911, 911. Kung natataranta man si ydnyl sa sigaw ni Yibo double ang tarantang nararamdaman niya ngayon.

Wala ng ibang tao sa company maliban sa kanya at sa nightshift guards. Tinawagan niya ang dalawang guard at pinabuhat si Weiying sa mga ito. Sa lobby na lang nila hihintayin ang ambulansya.

Tinatawagan din niya si Yibo pero naka off ang phone. Wala ding sumasagot sa bodyguards nito. Busy ang mga phone. Punyawa. Kukutusan talaga niya ang mga ito kapag nakita niya.

Meanwhile. Nakangiting naghihintay si Jiangcheng sa pagdating ni Yibo. He plan this and thanks it got successful. I didn't know that those two oldies still had a soft side on me.

Well i was the one who was in Lan zhan side on his dark days. Ako ang nagpabago sa apo nila. They must be grateful for it. Kung hindi dahil sa akin Yibo was already dead by now.

Should i congratulate you?. Ganda ng ngiti natin ah!. May magandang nangyari ba?. Share mo naman.

Nalimutan pala niya na ka vcall niya ang kapatid. Masyado lang siyang excited sa pagkikita nila ulit ni Yibo. He missed him so much. Half year na hindi sila nagkita at magkasama. It feel like hell.

Well, as I planned , Yibo will come and accompany me. He will stay until i got discharged. Magandang balita diba?

What?. That's easy?. How come?.

By the help of his grandparents of course. And thanks to you for giving me their number.

Oh... not a big deal. So tell me what did you do? I have lots of time to hear how your acting was.

Tsskk... hindi ko kailangan mag acting pa. From the background, sa suot kung hospital gown. Sa tingin mo hindi nila malalaman kung nasaan ako.

Hindi pa rin iyun basehan para mapapayag mo si Yibo samahan ka. Don't tell me, you tell them your relationship with him.

Why not. They need to know it. Iyun ang alas ko. I also ang kasal niya sa Zhan na iyun was fake. Pinakasalan lang siya ni Zhan for my sake. Nang hindi sila maghinala at walang issue na lalabas.

So proud of you my brother, keep it up. Hold Yibo a little longer there. Ako ang bahala sa Zhan dito. I already contacted his step father and we had a deal.

Tell me if you need money.

Ok. As of now let's celebrate your success. Can't wait for you to come home.

I will soon. Take care and keep it low. Don't be reckless. I don't want to destroy and make no sense of this plan. I put my effort here. I want this to end with success and together with our happiness.i want to gain Yibo trust again.

Copied that dont worry i was careful.

Good. (Grin).

Why did you hide it from me?. Just why?.

Dahil ayaw kong problemahin mo ang problrma ko. Youve been hurt so much nong mamatay ang mga magulang mo. Ayaw kong madaktan ka kapag hinfi naging succesful a g operation ko.

Your selfush Jiang cheng. Anong akala mo sa akin mababaw na tao?. Sa ginawa mo mas lalo mo akong sinaktan.

I'm sorry. Hagulhol ni Cheng. Akala ko iyun ang tama. Akala ko iyun ang dapat. Im sorry im really sorry.

Pina-kalma ni Yibo ang sarili at niyakap si cheng. I'm sorry kung sinigawan kita. Hush now you have to rest don't worry sasamahan kita.

Niyakap ni Chemg ng mahigpit si Yibo. It feels paradise. Bumalik lahat ng memories nila sa utak niya. Kung gaano sila kasaya nung hindi pa niya nalaman na may cancer siya. Nasa ganoong dilang ayos hanggang sa makatulog siya. Hinahaplos haplos ni Yibo ang buhok niya kaya nakatulog kaagad siya.

Gusto man niyang gisahin ito ng mga tanong pero hindi ito ang tamang oras. Kakadating pa lang niya pero pinagalitan niya ito kaagad. Hindi man lang niya tinanong kung ok ba ito hindi. Kamusta ang operasyon nito. May masakit ba o wala?. Nadala lang siya ng damdamin niya. Kung paano nito inapakan ang p*********i niya. Paano siya nito minaliit at pinag mukhang tanga.