The Alpha's Curvy Mate

Chapter 14

Nick

As her stare bore circles in my eyes, I reached out to her and when she flinched, my heart broke. Never did I imagined her to look at me like this. Her eyes were filled with sadness and venom, I can’t comprehend if she was sadder or angrier at me. We are only one foot apart but she felt like she was a thousand miles away from me. Her stares are cold, sharp like daggers, all are aimed at me.

“Get out. I don’t want to see you right now” she spat.

I sighed. “Clar, I’m so sorry.”

She briefly closed her eyes and when she opened them, I can barely recognize her. It’s like her love for me was drained out of them. “We’ll talk later. I need to sleep” she said as she rolled over, her back was now facing me.

I got out of bed and walked to the door. I glanced at her figure once again before opening the door and shutting it softly as I continued my way towards my room. I never noticed how long I stayed in her room like a creep but the clock now reads 4:45 am. Since I know I’ll not be going to sleep now, I decided to change into workout clothes and go for a run in the forest to clear my head and contemplate.

The ground is still wet due to the morning dew and the air is chilly and crisp. The grass gave a soft crunch as I walked to the forest clearing. Danton needed this run as much as I do so when I walked into the big pine tree where a secret hole is dug on its roots for storage, I quickly undressed and stored my clothes in there and shifted into my brown wolf with black paws.

As we zoomed through the forest, I let Danton control us and I retreated to the autopilot mode and contemplated about this mess that I made. I need to think of something that I can do to earn Clar’s trust in me again, I knew I f****d up royally and I knew there is no getting out of this.

What if she rejects me? Would I accept it? I know I should put her happiness first and she will be happy in another--- f**k. I can’t even think about it. I might lose my mind. Thinking about how another man can kiss her, make love to her, hear her laugh, and see her smile sends me into a frenzy.

No. She belongs to me. I should be the one kissing her. Damn it. Reaching the end of the forest, Danton took a turn that leads into the waterfalls. There we stopped to get a drink of water. We then decided to lay by the banks of the river, the soft sounds of the water running lulled me to sleep.

The harsh sting of the sun woke me up. Jolting on all fours, I peeked at the sky, it looks like I have been asleep for a while now. I raced back to the tree where I’ve hidden my clothes, I shifted back, got dressed, and took a peek at the wristwatch I’m wearing. 8 am. Half-jogging back to the packhouse, I halted in my steps as my ears perk up with the sound of Clar’s laughter.

Clar

When I heard the soft click of my door is closed, I let out a huge sigh and straightened myself on the bed. I stare blankly at the ceiling, the familiar prick of fresh tears tingling at the back of my eyes.

I couldn’t erase Nick’s broken face from my memory, but then again my body shakes at the thought that he kissed someone else, they were naked together, probably calling out each other’s name. I cannot fathom the thought that it’s not my hands that first caressed his face, it’s not my lips that first made an impression on his or the thought that he can compare me to somebody else that is sexier or prettier. He made me feel like no one can compare to me, that I was the only one, but I guess I was wrong.

Forcing myself out of bed before I wallow again, I went to the bathroom to take a shower. I stopped walking realizing that I have nothing to change into since my clothes are still in Nick’s room. f**k.

After pacing for what it seems like forever outside Nick’s room, I lightly knocked on the door. No one answered, good, he must be still sleeping. I twisted the knob and quietly slipped inside. I felt a frown etching on my face when I realized he was not here. Where did he go? It’s still so early.

Did he sleep with her?

Did he give up on us?

Did he...

I shook my head furiously as I stormed into the bathroom and angrily scrubbed myself and all of my insecurities away. I didn’t stop, not until every inch of me is red and plump and clear of any insecurity. After the brutal shower, I went to the closet to get dressed. I chose denim ripped short, an army green halter top with a military jacket to match, I also wore my fishnet socks because I know Nick liked them and he can go to hell, my trusty low-cut black chucks are the last to go.

Half expecting Nick to be here by now, I felt myself frown when I was greeted again by the empty bedroom. f**k where is his stubborn ass? I grumpily marched towards the vanity mirror, donning huge hoop earrings, layered bracelets, and I left my makeup to a minimal, just mascara, blush, and lip tint.

As if on cue, my stomach grumbled. After making finishing touches to my outfit I made my way down to the kitchen after stopping by the guestroom to grab my phone which I forgot. I was hit with the smell of waffles and chicken fingers and my mouth watered. Luna Belle is there cooking and when she spotted me, she beckoned me over with a smile on her face.

“Hi sweetie, did you sleep well?” she softly said. I nodded my head as I shamelessly ogled at the stack of waffles sitting across me. Belle chuckled. “Your mom called earlier to teach me your favorite breakfast to cheer you up” I felt my heart swell.

“Thank you,” I said sheepishly as she handed me a heaping plate.

“Eat up, dear” she chuckled. She then excused herself to serve the Alpha breakfast in bed. Awww so sweet. My face dropped at the thought that I may never have a love pure as them.

“Ummmm hi... can I join you?” a deep voice spoke beside me. I sharply craned my head and saw a tall man, his dark skin tight around his muscles. I double drooled.

Turns out he is the head trainer there. His name is Jace and he is delicious, well, not as delicious as Ni--- Dammit Clar, stop thinking about him. Jace is telling me about a time when he was training the pack and the newbies are always falling flat on their faces. He was very nice. I was a bit conscious about my figure next to him, I was waiting for his snarky comment about my weight and never once did it came. It felt easy to be with him, talking and laughing.

I was rolling on the floor laughing at one of his anecdotes on training when I heard a loud growl coming from the kitchen doors. I slowly turned and my breath hitched as I saw Nick fuming, ready to pounce on Jace.