Being Enamored By Him

I am fine

It's not easy to live without that one person whom you loved so much. But nevertheless, we have to live and lead our life in the best possible way.

Naina's POV

It's been twelve days without Kabir. To say I am not fine was an understatement. In fact, my sadness reflected in my face. But today since I was feeling much better I decided to join my office. Knowing I cannot live with Kia forever I had to search for a new apartment as well. Gathering some courage I gathered myself and went to the washroom to do my morning business. After that, I decided to put on a black knee-length tight skirt and burgundy color blouse. Seeing my reflection in the mirror did nothing good in fact I felt a little more depressed than I was actually feeling. My whole face was red, my eyes looked puffed and swollen; not only that instead of sleeping so much I had dark circles which means I cannot go out without make-up. Urghh I have to apply make-up! With a sad face I called Kia and in an instant, she was in my room.

"Someone is looking hot," she said raising her eyebrows.

"Uhuhh really?" I said with a scowl.

"Where are you going by the way. It is too cold outside and you still don't look good Naina. You seriously need to rest! Also, your migraine problem is doing nothing good to you" she said coming towards me and checked my temperature.

"Kia I cannot stay at home forever. Also, I have to join my office today, I told you about it yesterday, I cannot possibly miss my first day. And If I will not feel good then I will come back. Don't worry too much" I said to her rolling my eyes. She seriously behaves like she is my mom, but the way she cares for me means too much to me.

"You better call me if there is any problem. And you have to wear a jacket over this. And..." I cut her off. I know what she was going to say.

"I will call you the moment I will reach there. I will definitely eat something and will not starve myself to death. Please, Kia, help me with make-up. Look at my face." I said firstly mimicking her and then in a pleading manner.

"Don't worry I will fix it up!" she said and immediately started working on my face. Within twenty minutes I was ready with everything. When I looked at my face I gasped. My dark circles were gone my face looked very good. Nothing was too much but just what I needed.

"Thank you so much. You are a lifesaver Kia" I said and hugged her.

"Okay okay now you should go Otherwise you will be late. And call me when you get there" she said shooing me.

"Okay, mom and Kia congratulations. I am beyond happy that you are marrying Vedh" I said rolling my eyes and hugged her.

Yesterday when she told me this I was not able to express my happiness but today I was feeling good from within and I have to put my baggage to one side! After hugging for minutes what felt like hours I left.

But before going to the office I need to check out some apartments which were nearby this area. I haven't told Kia about me moving out as I know she will never allow me to do this. But since I don't know for how much time I am here and don't want her to compromise her personal life just because of me I have to do this for her and Vedh. Things are pretty awkward between me and Vedh. And knowing he is Kabir's friend I don't know why but I don't feel comfortable around him. Also, I need to figure out something in my life and for all this, I have to move out from there.

I took me around two hours but I finalized my one apartment which is a 2 bhk. Well enough for me. It's not too huge but it's neither small. It's perfect for me just what I needed. In fact, this Apartment is just two blocks away from Kia's apartment. It's nothing compared to Kia's. Her apartment is lavish with everything up to date. Sometimes I do wonder how great it would be if I and Kabir both live in this beautiful state.

I winced thinking about this and cursed myself for even bringing him in all this. From the past two days, I have been seriously craving his touch, his voice the way my name rolled from his lips. Or the way his smart mouth captures mine in a luscious way. Even after everything that he did to me and to us how can I be so weak but a part of me was screaming at me for what I did and I had to silent that part of me to breathe without thinking further.

Finally, after half an hour drive I am finally standing in front of the brand new building of Arora Enterprises. The moment I saw the building my jaw dropped! It is so cool and modern and definitely screamed of money. Trust me for the first time in these last five years of working here today I am a little nervous and the worst part was Kabir was not here with me!

Urghh why my every thought eventually includes him? Why can't I just live a moment, not including him? Urghh I am so fed up with all this!

Gathering some courage I went inside and there I met Bella, my boss. She is a woman who is in her early forties and still she looked so beautiful and young. She was kind to me and told me about my work here. Then she showed me my cabin which I can decorate the way I want it but It already was equipped with the latest technologies so I don't have to add much. After talking for a while she left me to my work. There were a bunch of files which needed my attention, the moment I started working I didn't realize how much time it was until somebody knocked at my door twice.

"Come in," I said with pen in between my lips. I still didn't notice who it was as my all attention was on the file in my hand which included some important details of us acquiring another company. Since I have to give my ideas related to this I wanted to know what good this company does to us.

I was oblivious of this fact that somebody was there in my cabin until I heard somebody clearing his throat.

"Hey miss slowdown it's your first day," a foreign accent said and listening to this I finally lifted my head only to see that unknown guy staring into my eyes intently.

"Umm I am sorry," I said blinking my eyes, again and again, his eyes caught my attention, his eyes green like an emerald.

"It's fine. We haven't met yet" He smirked. You have got to be kidding me, man!

"Hi I am Naina," I said to him to which he frowned. How weird this guy is!

"Today from the moment I entered this office everybody is talking about you! Of course, I know who you are Naina" He said to which my eyes widened in surprise!

"Hi, I am Chris Evans. You have to present this presentation with me. Looking at your reaction I can easily guess you didn't know about all this. But don't worry it's fine. Whenever you are ready we will discuss this in detail. And yeah it's lunchtime since I am free and if you don't mind we can have it together" he asked me gentlemanly. Firstly I thought about rejecting his offer but I accepted it anyhow. Trust me throughout the ride towards the restaurant which according to him is famous for its vegetarian food, I wasn't able to say anything until he asked eyeing the ring in my left hand.

"You are married," he asked looking straight in my eyes for a moment.

I stared at my engagement ring, in the past 7-8 days I couldn't take it off even if I wanted to. I never wore anything that Kabir gave me, in fact, that locket he had given me I left it there itself. But this was the same ring we exchanged in the church too. A part of me can never do this to us.

"Hey, you alright," Chris asked me warily pulling me out of my thoughts.

"Yeah, I am," I said faking a forced smile.

"And yes I am married," I said without any emotion. He seemed to sense my mood And didn't ask any further questions for which I was truly grateful for.

"What about you?" I asked him studying his face.

"Well I am in a relationship but it is all messed up right now so I don't know what to say" he frowned.

"Give it some time Chris everything will be fine you just have to give it some time," I said without even thinking that he may not even want my advice.

"I am sorry I shouldn't have said that. It's none of my business" I added hurriedly to which he laughed.

"It's fine Naina. In fact, after having lunch you can go back and come tomorrow. Today was your half day" he said looking somewhat amused.....

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It was almost 4 in the evening when I reached Kia's apartment and to my surprise, she was already there. Now it was time for confrontation!

"Kia I need to tell you something and please don't overreact" I pleaded.

"Okay and I don't overreact! That's your department!" she said looking a little frustrated.

"So the thing is I have rented one apartment which is just two blocks away from here and I have already kept all my stuff there so I am moving out," I said looking towards the ground. I was feeling guilty for not telling her about this but I know her better she wouldn't have let me go if told her about this before.

"Okay," She said coldly. This was not what I had expected!

"What okay? Aren't you gonna say anything?" I asked her accusingly.

"Is there anything that I can say when you have already done everything Naina? It's your decision but if you really wanna know so fine I am beyond upset and for that, you have to make it up" she said giving me her half wicked smile. I don't like that look on her face!

"Umm, you have to come with us to the bar tonight. You, me and vedh" she said excitedly but there was something else that I was missing.

"What? You know I don't like going to the bars, Kia. You also know what happened last time when I went there with Avinash!" I said to her to which she just rolled her eyes.

"Come on Naina. It's your punishment and I am not taking no this time. We are going tonight and yes I am going to pick you up at 8 so you better be ready" she said pointing her finger at me.

"Arghh fine. I hate you! " I groaned in frustration to which she hugged me and said, "you love me Naina and you can never hate me. And tonight everything is gonna be fine" she murmured......