Being Enamored By Him

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Sometimes words are not enough to describe how you are feeling at a moment, your eyes say everything... talking through eyes is itself an amusing thing but lovers know how to do this better than anybody...

NAINA's POV

Finally, my mind and heart were both at rest. Finally, everything was fine and we were back to where we both were. I know there were still certain things which we should discuss but I think being in Kabir's arms is much better than those dreadful things which will do nothing but botch our wonderful morning come afternoon.

I cannot even put this into words how grateful I was feeling to have him back in my life, just when I was about to lose my hope there he was standing right there where I needed him to be. My knight in the shinning armour. I snuggled more into Kabir's chest making him tighten his hold on my waist. We both were lost in each other we didn't care what time it was or for how long we two were holding each other what mattered the most was it's been a long time since we both were this close....

We both brought back to earth because of the constant ringing of the door bell. I groaned from inside cursing that person who disturbed our moment. Kabir just chuckled seeing me annoyed and huffing I went to answer the door.

The moment I opened the door I was greeted by smiling Kiara who was now grinning from ear to ear seeing me. I scowled seeing her to which she just rolled her eyes and gave me a bone crushing hug.

"Naina, Naina I am soo happy for you" she chirped happily.

I was amused seeing her this happy but what could I say she is like this only. One thing which I am wondering is how come she knows everything is fine? I was confused but left that baffled state so that I can also enjoy this moment. I have already cried a lot now I just want to be happy....

We both hugged each other like we were meeting God knows after how much time. Kia broke the hug when we both heard someone clearing their throat and you can guess who they were. Kabir still looked serious but Vedh was looking amusingly at Kia. I know vedh adore her and the way he was looking towards her I know that look. He is too much in love with her.. I guess love Is in the air....

"Naina you are coming with me. We need to do shopping and you know that we are getting married in just one month and guess what I am freaking out. " She rambled once Kabir and Vedh left to get something to eat for lunch.

"Relax Kia everything will be fine," I said nonchalantly to which she hit me playfully on my arms.

"Nothing is going to be fine Naina. I am feeling scared and I seriously I have to talk to you since now everything is right in your life I can tell you everything" she said pouting like a child.

"Okay. We will talk while shopping but first let me go and change" I said munching the potato chips and left to change my clothes. When I came downstairs I saw Kabir and Vedh arrived with food and were both talking to Kia .

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After having our lunch Kia wanted to leave right after so I went to my room to get my purse and to say goodbye to Kabir.

The moment I entered I saw Kabir was standing beside the window with his back towards me.

Taking myself by surprise I hugged Kabir from the back. He relaxed under my touch and face me with a worried look on his face. I was about to ask him what was it that was worrying him but before I could ask Kia yelled at me to be fast.

"I need to go," I said sadly to Kabir. He frowned but didn't say anything. I took my bag and was about to leave When Kabir's hand on mine stopped me.

Kabir hugged me from the back. His hands on my stomach. He rested his chin on my shoulders. My whole body heated up knowing what we both want. Kabir slowly steadily seductively whispered in my ears,"come back soon. I love you"

I shivered feeling his breath on my neck. Even if I wanted to I wasn't able to move but the friend in me had to leave. My friend needed me right now and I cannot ditch her.

"Okay. I love you" I said slowly and then left Kabir with a heavy heart. Whatever it is we have to talk today before it is too late.

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It was almost eleven in the night when I returned from shopping. Kia is seriously crazy as she is having second thoughts about marriage I never get that chance of getting those second thoughts or even if I had I couldn't back off. But she is freaking out for no reason. Until now everything was fine so everything will be fine in the future too. I ended up giving her some Gyan (ken) and she just made faces at me. We both purchased dozens of clothes which includes something for Kabir too. After keeping every single shopping bag in the closet I was about to call Kabir but then I noticed that our bedroom balcony door was ajar.

Kabir was there standing looking at the moon. He was so lost in his thought that he didn't even notice my presence or this is what I thought.

"How was your day?" He asked me still his eyes were glued towards the sky. I was stunned realizing that he indeed sensed I was here. He extended his hand and I immediately placed mine in his.

Within moments I was back in his arms. He was holding securely in his arms with one hand on my waist. I felt so relieved that I don't have words to say what I felt. It was as if my all worries were now gone. I feel relaxed and complete. This bond that we share is so strange yet so beautiful.

"It was fine. Kia is freaking out" I said with a smile and he hummed then we don't exchange any words just stood there gazing at the sky to find answers of some questions.....

"Penny for your thoughts," I asked him breaking the silence.

"Just thinking about how everything change. One minute we are fine and the next moment we are too far that we aren't even able to express our feelings towards each other" he said thoughtfully.

I know what I did was wrong but for the first time, I felt guilty for doing this to him. He has suffered a lot just because of my insecurities and fears.

"I am really sorry Kabir. I never meant to hurt you intentionally. I know..." I trailed off with eyes full of tears as Kabir kept his finger on my lips. And then he kissed both my eyes slowly and kisses my forehead.

"You don't have to be sorry. Everything is fine between us" he said and I got a little tense. I have to confront him right now.

"Kabir, before saying anything just hear me out okay?" I said avoiding his scorching gaze and he nodded by entwining our hands together.

I took a long breath and closed my eyes to reminisce every single beautiful moment that we both spent together. I smiled thinking about everything. When I opened my eyes Kabir was looking at me confused.

"Kabir, I have to be here for at least two years. I cannot leave my job and they will not transfer me to Delhi as we are here working on a project. I have signed a bond" I said sadly and Kabir gave me a blank look.

"I am not leaving you Naina. If you have to be here for two years then it's okay I will be with you" He said as if he is totally free and doesn't have any responsibilities of his own.

"Kabir are you out of your mind? What about your company? Just four months back Arav bhai gave you the position that you wanted and you are screwing up all that for me? Are you even listening to yourself? Kabir, you have to go back to Delhi and resume your work! I don't want you to leave everything for me... look honey everything is fine between us now right. Even if you will resume your work over there then also things will not change. I will be here but the differences that we had previously are now gone, right? Please, Kabir, don't lose everything that you yearned for just for me." I said with a heavy heart.

Listening to this Kabir left me with an angry face he stormed out of the balcony. I have never seen Kabir this much furious but We need to be practical Kabir, you have to understand this I thought to myself...

When I entered our room he was there pacing around as if controlling himself. I tried to stop him but he ignored all my protest and in fact yelled at me.

"What do you think of yourself Naina? Only You know what is right or what is wrong? You did what you felt was right one month back too by leaving me. What do you want me to do to leave you again here all alone? I can't do this Naina. Is this all a game for you? Why don't you get this that I love you more than anything and you are important for me more than my work! Those days were like hell for me when you weren't there. I cannot imagine my life without you. You are my breath Naina and one cannot live without one's breath. Whenever I open my eyes I just want to see your face Naina. I can't leave you again and please don't let me do that because you know I cannot do that" I Kabir said with tears in his eyes.

I was overwhelmed knowing how much he loves me. His love for me is unconditional that he has just proved me but it hurts me to see him soo fragile and vulnerable. But what kills me is knowing that he is to see him like this...

I did the most right thing at that moment was I tiptoed and sucked his tears and then I kissed him, slowly pouring all my emotions and heart. It was slow but passionate and It was the love that we had for each other. My hands were in his hair and his hands were pulling me close that our bodies were pressed together completely. Both of us were hurt because of one another but now we both were expressing our love through this kiss that we both longed for. Kabir sucked nibbled on my bottom lips making me gasp and this gave him a chance to slid his tongue inside my mouth. It was as if we both were telling each other how much we both love each other and this time we both will never leave each other's side no matter what.

After kissing my lips he started kissing my neck giving me love bites all over... I couldn't help but moan his name again and again as the pleasure that he was giving me was not something I can put in words. Within moments he scooped me in his arms and lowered me on the bed hovering above me. He again captured my lips and his hands roamed all over my body.... we made love that whole night. We both were tired but not full of each other. I was in his arms my back towards his front and his hands were on my belly. We both were fully awake but weren't saying any words as there weren't enough words to describe what we feel towards each other......

I never thought I will be blessed with a husband like Kabir who is so thoughtful and so janoable( loveable).....

"I love you Naina" I heard Kabir say and then I drifted to sleep.....