INEFFABLE SORROW

CHAPTER 2

ANGELIKA

When I open my eyes, there's no one beside me anymore. I still tried to look around, but I really could not see Xavier anymore. He's not around anymore. The only thing left inside the room is my clothes, which are still lying on the floor, while there's a bloodstain below the bedsheet on which I am lying right now.

I took a deep breath and tried to reach my phone, which was lying on the small desk beside the bed. I opened my phone and read some messages that were sent to me. I searched and tried to know if there was even one message sent to me by Xavier, but the only messages I saw were from my twin sister. She's just asking me my location right now.

Tss. After what happened yesterday, he didn't wait for me to wake up or even just give me a message. He just left me alone, like we're not even friends.

I took a deep breath in and out just so I could calm down and relieve my emotions even a little.

I don't know the reasons, but every time I have negative emotions, I feel stress and anxiety eating my system to the point that I cannot breathe properly anymore.

Several minutes have passed before I finally feel that I am fine. I decided to stand up and wear the clothes that were lying on the floor. After fixing myself, I finally left the hotel and called my twin sister.

I am already outside the room and waiting for my twin sister to arrive, but she is not answering her phone. She's the only one I could call right now beside our friend, Xavier, so I could go home and fix myself. I guess my twin sister is too busy to go partying again, even in the middle of the day.

I have no choice but to call a taxi in order to go home. I didn't bring my own car since I was with my sister yesterday. Several hours passed before I could finally go home.

Tsk. My thing below is still hurting as hell, and I tried so hard to act normal while walking earlier. I just had my first time. Xavier took my virginity, and he just left me alone after the deed.

I didn't want to think any negative thoughts when I tried to think about what happened yesterday. We are both drunk. I mean, Xavier was drunk, and I'm sure that he was just surprised to see me naked. That's probably the reason why he left me alone, and maybe that's also the reason why he still didn't message me.

Xavier is still in a state of shock, and I honestly understand him. After all, I was the one who willingly came with him. I am even the one who checked the hotel that we stayed in. I'm sure Xavier will call me once he makes up his mind. After all, we are friends.

After arriving at our house, I sat on the couch while lying my head on it. There were three maids cleaning around the house, so I didn't bother to ask them the location of my twin sister.

I close my eyes and feel the heavyness of my breath. I could still feel every touch made by Xavier in my body. His heavy breath while driving inside my body His back had slick black hair that I could still see inside the room that has no lights, and his eyes, which almost look like wolves, were full of desires and pleasure while staring at my body. His sweaty body feels exhausted because of all the deeds that we both did together.

I know I scratched his back without realizing it yesterday. I scratched it while crossing my arms around his neck and back. I could not defy his pleasure. I could not push him away. How could I if I'm the reason we're stuck in that place?

Because of so many thoughts, I'm having negative emotions all of a sudden. What if Xavier left me because he was mad at me? What if he left because he didn't like what happened?

I think I am being hesterical now that Xavier still hasn't tried to contact me at all. In order to be sure, I dialed his number and called him without even giving it a second thought.

I've waited for a minute. However, it just kept ringing and didn't answer me even once. I tried to call him a lot, but to my disappointment, he didn't even try to message me at all.

I don't know what to do anymore. I don't think I could relax and think right if I just stayed inside the house, so I got up and went outside so I could go to Xavier's house. While walking to our gate, I suddenly bumped into one of our housemaids.

"I'm sorry, ma'am." The maid vowed down in front of me.

I force a smile even if she can't see me right now in order to calm her down. I touched her shoulders in a gentle way. She's scared to get fired, and I could feel it. She maybe thinks that I am Monica, my twin sister, and maybe that's the reason why she's acting like this.

"Gade, you don't have to be scared." I tried to be calm as much as possible.

I am in a hurry right now, but I tried to calm down our maid. She looks up with confusion written all over her face.

"Ma'am Angelika?" She confusedly asked, and I just nodded to her in response.

"I'm in a hurry. I will go now. Don't think too much. Bye!" I smiled again before leaving her behind and finally getting out of our house.

I tried to call my twin sister again, but I stopped walking when I heard a phone ringing from nearby where I am standing right now.

I looked around, and I finally found my sister looking serious while talking to Xavier.

What? They were together all along?