Rebirth: My stepdad is mine

Mine alone!

Lily Pov

My mind exploded when his cold voice sounded. My brain went blank and my eyes slowly opened to look at him and when I met those cool and collected eyes of his, I felt my heart skip a beat.

I looked at him blankly and every time he had always yelled like this in the past to save me from my mother's clutch appeared in my mind, and just recalling it all made my lips curl in a genuine smile since I came back for days.

He is still the same, he never changed. My man, the one I fell in love with, is still here, and nothing has changed.

“Lily?”

My mind snapped back from its daze, and I looked up to meet his dark eyes. I stood straight, and my clenched fist tightened as I waited for him to continue.

My heart beat so fast, but my face remained stubborn as I stared at him. “Will he ask me to accept him as my stepdad? Will he scold me?” So many thoughts swirled in my mind, but none could stop my determination not to let Bianca have him.

“Have we met before..?” He tilted his head and a confused expression appeared on his face.

My body went stiff, and my eyes glowed, but then, they dimmed again. I looked at the oblivious Berlin, parted my lips to say something, but I felt speechless.

What should I say? That I knew him from our past lives? That even if he had never met me, I knew about all his habits and likes and dislikes? That I had just been reborn two days ago?!

Hell no! He’d look at me like I was crazy and I might even end up in the mental health centre, so I sighed, and did what I could, I didn't respond to his earlier question, and didn't look at them both anymore, instead, I turned around and began to walk towards the front door.

“I don't care what you two have with each other, but just know my words are firm, I don't have a step-father!” I spat, then opened the door to leave.

“As long as you step out of that door, then don't bother to come back, Lily!”

The loud shrill voice sounded again and I felt tempted to do something dangerous, but then, I clenched my fist and regulated my breathing. “This was a new life, a new beginning, I can't destroy this chance!!” And with the pep talks, I said nothing to her and walked out of the house like she was farts.

The moment I walked out, I heard the sound of her loud curses, but who cares about that?!

***

The evening glow set on me as I walked on the road. I didn't know where to go as I had never had the chance to explore since Bianca made me live like a caged bird.

I hadn't been able to go to college or make friends like people my age do. But with this new chance of life…

My eyes glowed with determination, “I’ll change my story and make life worth living!”

I walked for minutes, then suddenly heard the loud sound of music. I stood there and turned towards where the sound was coming from and saw a bar just across the street, my lips pulsed and I just didn't know what pushed me, but I found myself walking toward the bar.

The moment I stepped into the bar, my eyes closed from the bright light and my brows furrowed from the loud blasting music. I looked around the room and took note of the view inside, then I began to walk to where the drinks were served.

As someone who had once worked as a cleaner in a bar for a week, I knew my way around there. I walked directly to the barman, sat at the table in front of him and then ordered some low-priced alcohol.

The second I drowned one cup, my eyes closed and my throat rolled from the spiciness, it hit my throat and pierced my heart which jolted me up. Without stopping, I continued to drink it all up, one glass after another, no stopping to think, no tears falling from my eyes, no thinking of him or the past, it's just me drinking away as if I wanted to numb something.

In no time, my eyes were rolling from drunkenness, my mind was chaotic and blurred, and the urge to use the washroom attacked. I stood up, stumbling as I moved around the dancing bodies, trying to find the washroom, but my head just kept getting heavier, and it wouldn't just stop.

My eyes twitched and I decided to rest on the wall after getting to a corner, suddenly, I felt a strong arm hug me from the back which startled me.

“Hey, young lady…” The man breathed in my ear.

My eyes widened and my body tensed up.

“You—Let's go! Who are you?!” I cried out then struggled, but my drunken self was so weak and I just couldn't disentangle myself from the person’s grip.

“Oh! A sassy one?” He laughed disgustingly making my skin grow some goosebumps, “How about you play with daddy?”

And that did it!

The words he said made my breathing wild. My eyes widened and my body went stiff, it was like I could see a picture in front of me, voices rang in my head and they made me tremble so hard.

I didn't struggle anymore, or it should be—I couldn't struggle.

My mind went blank, my eyes dulled as so many pictures appeared in my head, my fingers clenched so hard and my nails dug into my palm drawing out blood.

All I could see and hear was the repeated words the man had just said and they mixed with that voice that still haunts me even when I had spent so many years locked in prison.

That man… The one who had ruined me, the one who had killed Berlin. He had said the same words…He had said this too…

My eyes turned bloodshot, my body shook hard and my eyes blurred and turned dizzy. I could feel nothing, say anything, or hear nothing, except the loud beating of my heart and the disgusting images and voices of my past. I tried to make it disappear, but they haunted my head…

“Ahhh!!”

As if possessed, my body moved, I turned around and captured that disgusting hand that had begun to move on my body, and in a second, I bent over and threw the owner of the arm over my shoulder.

I didn't stop, tears dripped from my eyes, I went lower, sat on him, but I couldn't see his face as all I saw was the face of that evil gang boss.

“You—What are you doing?! Ahh!! Stop…”

I didn't listen, my fist went down, one blow after another! I hit him hard.

“I hate you! I hate you so much! You disgusting pieces of s**t!” I cried out as I continued to hit him.

“Ahhh!!! My lady! Please…” He cried and groaned from pain, but I didn't listen, and all I could see was pain, my agony, and disgust.

“You killed—”

“Lily..?!!”

The fist I had raised froze, and the air turned silent at the call of my name. The familiar voice drilled into my mind and hit my heart hard but…

“How could he be here?” I muttered, “He should be with her, right? Showing love and playing his role as Bianca’s husband!” I shook my head, “No…It's just an allusion!” I mumbled with shaky breath, then raised my hand to continue hitting the man below me who had become silent, but then, I suddenly felt a strong hold on my wrist.

“Enough, Young woman!”

My body stiffened as the voice which was now closer to me reached my ears. My body trembled and I raised my head sharply only to be met with a cold handsome face that stared at me with complicated eyes.

My mind went blank from shock.

“Berlin…?” I muttered, my eyes still dizzy from the alcohol.

“Stand up!” he ordered and I did immediately. But, as I looked at him, my heart which had been chaotic earlier turned silent and weak and before I could control my body, it had rushed into the arms of the person I craved so much.

“Berlin…Berlin…Can you not be with her? You should be mine! Mine alone!”