shall it be

that one wish

I still sit on my bean bag and think about that one thing aunt halley told me to do back in the days but this time this time is different a shooting star came across that window like a bolt of lightning and surely enough I made that wish shall it be is what I call it cause if I tell you

my wish it won't come true surely you know that already not a new thing some one made up always been that way for many years

5 years past I'm now 21 year old moving out of the house into my own home a little run down I say but nothing I can't handle on my own I'm not always this positive I tell you you're lucky to see me this way I tell you

as I start to unpacked my thing I came across an old composition note book from when I was in middle school about 12 year old I don't remember anything I wrote in that note book but their gotta be a reason I kept it for this long I read the front of my composition note. book that read don't read tell your the age flip back ward and surely this is the time I open my note book to read what lies beneath each page bit not right now.

the home is finally in order but something don't feel right something inside of me doesn't fit into my heart properly maybe the right type of key is missing. I'm missing my sisters more and more each and everyday so let me tell you you growing up is hard but staying young is is the hardest part of it all

shall it be is my wish and little did I know fate took a turn. the next morning I heard a knock at my door a silent one I tell you but I didn't answer it to do to fear I knew they seem scared to knock on a door it reminded me of Catherine she was always Like this growing up afraid to knock afraid to ask question do to getting yelled at back in the days living with out bio parents who would abuse us for the littlest mistake we made until one day they took it to far

way to far

I once had a brother too his name was Oscar he was a wild boy but a good boy, for the most part

one day his wild side took him too far and broke his own TV surely it was an accident a little rough play on his part but mom hated noises especially noises of something breaking like something shattering dad always took mom side and never defending us for just making mistakes

that night they put Oscar on the toy chest and lock it up and told him if he stay quite they will let him out by morning but sure enough morning came and dad forgot Oscar was in the chest he put it by the road with a free sign and tape the keys to the top of it

Oscar lay there all day and all night hoping and praying someone would take him into custody and give him a happy life I didn't find out about Oscar until I got home from a friend house I happen to look in his room and notice he was missing the house was only silent for once to silent

mom. dad where's Oscar? I ask

oh we put him in the toy chest he should still be there said mom and where that chest now?

I left it on the road side for someone to pick it up

said dad. you kidding me right? you locked Oscar up in a toy chest for breaking something of his on accident how cruel can you be.?

I quickly ran out side to see if that chest was still there but nope surly someone picked it up and brought it home with them I miss Oscar very much bit I know deep inside he's happier

ot wt least i pray to God he is I normally don't pray but this time I do especially if I'm missing someone especially