Griffin's Salvation

Chapter 17:Kian

Was it a d**k move to empty my head and cope a feel, while pretending to be asleep? yes, yes it was! but she was forcing my hand with her reluctance based on nothing! I was in a constant state of arousal around her, but so far I had been curating my thoughts, so there was no reason for salacious thought to go through her head since she had compartmentalized the f**k out of our liaison, she had me firmly in the sexless lover's box and wasn't going to move me from it if I continued to keep things PG13 around her, I was never going to get out of that cursed box. I could just see myself five hundred years old and still a damn virgin.

She didn't sleep well or at all really and neither did I, but I faked it. I kept my mind empty, except for all the dirty thoughts that habited my head any given day, and my eyes closed until my alarm went off. I kept them going in a loop for the whole night since neither of us was going to get any sleep anyway, might as well torture us with s*x we couldn't have. was this dishonest? f**k yes! Did I find a way past this without doing some underhanded s**t? f**k no. As of last night, the gloves were officially off.

We had gotten used to sleeping together, and the one night in the last three months she insisted on sleeping separately neither of us got a wink of sleep, until I had enough and zapped in her bed. If she really thought about it she would have noticed it was weird that I slept soundly while she tossed and turned the whole night.

I was walking to my twelve o'clock class when I recognized Kyle's dreadful head, I rummaged through my bag for something soft enough to not cause severe damage if thrown from this distance but hard enough to hurt still. And Eureka, there under my books was an erasor the size of my fist that Kyle gave me as a gift for no reason. I hurled it at the back of his head and was quite pleased by the twak it made when it connected with his skull!

he wiped around, feet planted ready for a fight, then grinned when he noticed me.

-That was not nice! he said when I reached him

-kind of like spilling my secrets in a room full of my family members and future in-laws?

-A bit less than that but still up there, that hurt by the way.

-I sure as f**k hope so, I put my back into it! I snapped, we were both heading for the same class, Kyle and I were business majors and we always took one or two classes together this semester wasn't any different.

Me and Kyle made up after I concked him in the head a few more times with my closed fist, it made him feel bad, as he should, and it made me feel good, so wins all around! here a winn there a win everywhere a win!

I went about my day as usual while dreading my six o'clock Microeconomics class with that vamp professor. he kept giving me the creeps for some reason, and it's not like he was doing something that was glaringly creepy. But sometimes I would catch him glaring at me, and not the you-re-disturbing-my-class class glare, it was a you-ve-butchered-my-entire-family-gruesomly-and-I-will-have-my-revenge type of glare. and surely it couldn't be directed at me cause I've just met the man and except for sitting on my ass and handing assignments over when they were due. surely the death glares couldn't be aimed at me! once I even asked him what was wrong and his answer was that he was daydreaming, it was more of an awake nightmare if you ask me but okay.

he was in a particularly bad move today because he wouldn't stop glaring at me so much so that some of my classmates noticed so instead of ignoring him like I usually did, all the pent-up desire and anger merged into this ball of confrontational bullshitery and I stared down vampire Vladimir with a c****d eyebrow. a stare-down challenge right in the middle of class! I needed this man to like me enough so he could fairly grade my papers and what do I do? I antagonized him in the middle of class. well done Kian! he looked like he was about to fault over his desk and scratch my eyes out when a movement from one of my classmates at the other side of the room caught his eyes, he snapped out of our staring contest with a smile that never reached his eyes apologizing for the weirdness.

If I failed this class it would be all Ju-ri and Kyle's fault, the irritated the common sense right out of me. he didn't look in my direction for the rest of the class, and when he was done he hurried out like there was a giant fire nipping at his heels.

My room was empty when I got there, she was running again. I should send a multitude of dirty thoughts her way just for this freak-out, but I didn't sleep yesterday and I was tired. so today was going to be a detente because we still had to survive this fight.

when I had dinner ready, and I had everything ready I called her over

"I think, I'm just going to sleep here tonight"

"no you won't stop running for a second, and come over I have dinner ready"

'I'm not hungry!"

"You haven't eaten yet for the whole day"

"I'm a griffin, I don't need to eat every day"

"Ju-ri, stop being stubborn and come eat this delicious burger with me"

"I'm fine right where I am, goodnight!"

"I want a good night's sleep, I won't have it if you sleep at your place, you know this"

"you slept just fine yesterday"

"not the whole night was peaceful so how about we can whatever this is and just relax for tonight"

"I..."

"I can come to you if you want?"

" no, I'll be right there"

she showed up in this nightgown that was so heavy and oversized that she disappeared in all the folds of clothing. She was showing no skin whatsoever and even her neck was covered by a scarf. I burst out laughing when I saw that, she must be sweltering under that caftan of a nightgown. She pined me with an offended glare and sat down in a huff draping her scarf more securely on her shoulders.

I didn't comment on her attire, if she wanted to barricade herself under a ridiculous amount of clothes then I was definitely doing something right. It meant she'd stopped seeing me as an asexual child and that was a step in the right direction.

we ate our dinner without speaking much except basic How was your day followed by pleasantries at some point we talked about the weather! Amazing, but I wanted her to feel comfortable so I played along.

she was still in her get-up when it came time to sleep, again without commenting I got under the covers and patted the bed next to me. she thrust herself to the furthest edge of the bed and looked at me defiantly daring me to say something. I would but again the point of today was to sleep, there will be no arguing for me. I must have been really tired because the minute I closed my eyes I fell asleep.