Not So Far Apart

Everyday I think of love and boyfriends and when I will have that. I tried to figure out my plans for my life. They kept going on and on. I tell my self every day what if I mess it all up. What if I cant find my true love. I was so cold and heartless when my father left and he couldn't protect me. He always said love can lead to great futures, and big problems. But hey, thats what I get right. Im only 17 and it's called puppy love for a reason right. I mean I get it I understand. But life lives to the fullest. Hi my names Gigi Spencer I sing as I go and do fun stuff in the meantime. As I'm going through the details I will tell you I met my first boyfriend at a wedding. It was my dad's wedding. But after my dad left, Me and my boyfriend been together for a while. I fear we would have broken up by now. But we haven't. His name is Jax Pelni. He's 18 and he loves me very much. As much as my family loves each other but way way more. I love him because he takes my breath away. Like sun, Like moon, The air moving in the small shadow of the streets, When cars go by. I feel the courage to go by and not make a single sound to see if someone will actually help me and not walk away. My small hands are pulled farther across the street and my eyes are closed shut. I dont know what happened and the second I look up and open my eyes there he was. My prince charming. Jax Pelni.. He whispers in my ear. and tells me.. You take this breath that i breathe and make me the happiest man in the world. What i say is most weird but most confusing.. oh uh really. I tell myself thta if he keeps falling so hard for me a big plan is going to happen and i will not know what to do with myself at all. My words were so empty.... The thoughts in my head were melted into a hard mold that i cant seem to break. He came up to me once again and held me tighter than he ever could. And I stood there.