Hate me, love me, kiss me

Insoluble

I drink the hot chocolate stetson found in my cupboards. I've really only met Alan, the others don't talk that much. I look to the right of me, Alan is concerned that I am not freaking out over the fact he is a werewolf. But, I always hoped this world wasn't what it was meant to be, I look over at him, 

"Are vampires real?" I ask. 

"Very." He replies. I fidget with the cup handle, I guess now is my time to ask questions, but I wouldn't know the first place to start. 

"The guy that came in tonight, did he- do anything to you?" Alan asks. I look at him, 

"No, well, actually. He did do something." His eyebrow peaks. 

"Well, I was sleeping when they came in, and I knew that they were robbing us, probably to get the really expensive ring my Dad always talks about- only because my mother loves it so much and he hates it so much. I'm pretty sure that ring Is destroying my parent's marriage, anyway. I grabbed my Dad's shotgun and confronted them. But I was too chickenshit to pull the trigger. He looked me in the eyes and all I felt was pure fear. He told me to run, run into the woods. I did, and I didn't want to stop." Alan looks at me, then at stetson, 

"I want the entire pack guarding her and this house. They've been here once, they are bound to come back. Get someone to reestablish the barrier." I look at Alan,

"What's going on?" 

"A very bad man is after you tonight. And he Impelled you." 

"Impelled me?" 

"A werewolf's version of what vampires do. It's a sort of glamouring or compelling we call it 'impel' or 'gaze'. Only potential Alpha's of a pack can acquire it. For him, his impel power is fear."  

Impel? Fear? You mean, I wasn't actually terrified of him, he just made me feel that so he can ransack my parent's bedroom to find that damned ring!? But it made me think, have I been impelled this whole time by werewolves. If there is three of them in my house and four of them that were in my house, there is bound to be more. Are there more at my high school? How does it work? I want to go back to the poison as well, how can a werewolves poison affect me, I thought it only killed vampires, like in the movies. I wish I could ask these questions because panic is starting to rise in me. Don't get me wrong I love Alan- I mean really like him. I'm glad we're friends, how did we become friends? The thing I remember is- introducing myself, then they just started following me around. I bring my legs to my chest and latch my hands around them, 

"Have you impelled me before?" He was shocked I asked that, but his silence spoke many words. His phone starts going off, he looks at me and brings his hand to my face, his eyes meet mine.

"Why don't we talk more over dinner tomorrow night." He states. I smile,

"okay."

Alan reassures me that this house is under his protection, no one can get in except for the people who belong in it. But I still don't feel safe, I still feel that fear lingering in my head. How would I know If I'm being impelled, compelled, glamoured, or even gazed? I look at my book I'm reading, the cover is yellow with a ring on the front attached to a rose. This isn't the ring everyone is looking for but it has a sort of significance. I can't fret anymore about tonight's occasion, I need to rest. I pick up my phone and call my brother. His phone is going straight to voicemail? He must have it turned off- I wonder how long her appointment is this time. The last time she went there it lasted 23 hours, it's meant for her paranoia, now she won't be the only one experiencing it. We are definitely going to be watched and I am not sure for how long. 

...

T H E T R U T H Y O U S E E K 

I grab my books from my desk and walk up to Mr. Yemen. I hand him my senior essay,

"You're done already?" I nod my head. I was finishing it when he was talking, I'm three weeks ahead of everyone else in this class so I just finish whatever work he has and turn it in after class. He laughs, 

"You know, I should never expect any less from you." he places my essay on the desk and I nod my head. I exit the classroom. Alan never showed up to history today, matter of fact, stetson and carter aren't here either. Could they be 'taking' care of the 'fear' guy. I pull my books closer to my chest, I'm nervous to go out to dinner with him tonight. What does a werewolf eat? I look up from the floor to everyone walking around me, staring at me. Any one of these students could be a werewolf looking for that damned ring, they could be here for me- or worse.

Emily comes walking by and 'accidentally' runs half her body into mine. I end up dropping my books.

"Would you mind?!" She says then walking away. That girl is going to get a face full of volleyball during practice tonight. 

later that night 

I can not stop laughing, I never knew Alan had a humorous side to him. probably because i have only known him for three days, that's beside the point though.

"So tell me, you know, the things humans don't know about Werewolves." I said. He picks at his potatoes. 

"We hate potatoes." we laugh, why am I laughing so much? I wipe tears from my eyes. 

"uhm, well, silver doesn't actually kill or hurt us. Just like you hear often in movies and books, this isn't like the movies. In fact, instead of werewolves being deadly to vampires, vampires are deadly for us."

"Really?" 

He goes on and tells me that vampires are dead humans that are almost immortal, the way to kill one is by removing it's head from it's shoulders. But, Vampires, are dead, werewolves are alive and the deadliest vampire is a true blood, they produce a toxin much stronger than a werewolf. It's like being bitten by a rattle snake or water moccasin. At first it will feel like you're on fire, on you are technically. Our blood cells begin to attack each other and cause you to have an internal fever, the blood boils and things. The only difference between a vampires poison and a werewolves poison is only one can kill a human. A werewolves venom is intended to protect themselves. Back in the 1300's a witch helped intensify a werewolves venom to protect themselves against hunters wanting the fur for rugs. So they used it to paralyze their pray and hopefully get a meal from them. I was disgusted by this information, but it was so telling that he cares and only uses it for enemies. I asked him if it could be used against other wolves, but he couldn't tell me that. I play with the meatball on my plate, 

"You never answered my question from last night." His smile slowly fades away. I have a feeling that I won't get the exact answer I want, but I know it. There is just something that would make me feel better if I heard it from him. 

"Yes." He said, blowing me out of the water. I felt an anger rising up but I quickly suppress it. I asked him this question there is no reason why I should be mad at him for answering. 

"Why?" I asked, sipping on my strawberry cheesecake milkshake. He coughs and adjusts himself in his seat. He folds his hands together and places them on the table. I place my hands on his,

"Alan, I have a lot of baggage, my parents are drunks, my Mom is a psychopath and my brother- well, my brother is a hoarder, I hate to admit it but I can. I have the world for patience, I don't believe anyone deserves the anger I've been dealt. Whatever it is you can tell me and I promise, cross my heart, I won't freak." He shakes his head, 

"I can't tell you." He stands up and places the money on the table. I stand up with him, I can feel the warmth in my blood rising. 

"That's bullshit." I quickly walk over to him and grab his face bringing it to mine. I smack my lips against his, he kisses me back. This is like a scene from a soap opera, I can't believe I did this but I can't stop. This is so enticing, the way his hands hold my back as he leans into it. My heart going a million miles a minute. He's a werewolf, one that is so mysterious, there is so much that hasn't been said, yet everything seems so right. I wasn't meant for him, everything has become so dull. He pulls away, his face still, I sink down to the floor,

"Serenity? Serenity?" I heard a voice. I open my eyes- no wonder I was so confused, it was all just a dream. I look over and see Carter standing in the corner, stetson was the one who woke me up. I look around but I don't see Alan, did they come to my house just to see if I was okay? Wait- What time is it? I look at my watch, midnight?! Did I miss dinner with Alan? 

"Alan sent us over to make sure you were okay," Stetson said. 

"Clearly. Although I think you need to get your snoring checked, it's quite loud." Carter blurted. I rolled my eyes, I sat up and my book falls of my chest.  Stetson picks it up for me, but he didn't hand it back. Instead, he looks through it, he seems fascinated by what is inside. He hands it back to me, 

"When you're finished, would you mind giving me this book so I can read it?" I nod my head. After they checked up on me they turned into there werewolf forms, leaving there clothes behind. I should probably get rid of those.  

...

F A L L W I T H M E

A few days later

*Car approaching* 

I race to the window and see my brothers red truck, I get excited and I know the werewolves watching this house are curious to know who it is. I run outside and yell that he is my brother, I probably look crazy. My Dad looks behind me, grabbing a hold of my shoulders. 

"A whole week of peace and quite, I'm not ready for that to end." My Dad states. I laugh, 

"You got rid of the alcohol right?"

"Two seconds after she left last week." I nod my head, good. 

This is unfortunate, my brother has ears like a bat, no one will step inside this house and I already know he doesn't like Alan. But, I've had him here keeping me company because I'm too scared those men will come back and my Dad works night shifts so I'd be all alone. And I think I'm in love with Alan. The only thing that prevents the ' I know' was that dream I had which has me questioning those feelings. What if he has impelled me to feel this? 

My brother helps my Mom out of the car, she is using a walker, was it really that bad at the rehab center? I walk down to her,

"Mom?" She cries and holds my face,

"it's me baby." Relief ways over me. I look at my brother, It actually worked this time. the rehab 24 hour rehab center knows my mother very well and they usually don't like keeping patients for more than one day. but they know my mom, one day won't get her to quit. And it's the only facility that doesn't cost a dime. 

I begin to prepare for dinner when I heard soft knocks on the back door, my heart leaps out of my chest. I open the door and Alan walks in, but I put my hands against his hard pecks and push him out the door, 

"My Mom and Brother are home." He towers over me, looking down. 

"that's good." I shake my head. 

"But I want to spend time with you." his eyebrow peaks, his inquisitive. He crosses his arms against his chest. I bite my lip. 

"Have you fallen?" He asks. Now my eyebrow peaks, I don't understand what he means. I'm standing aren't I? 

"Because I have. I've fallen for you, will you fall for me?" My heart sinks- is this another dream? 

"pinch me." I said. He shakes his head, but I insist. He does,

"OUCH!" He laughs but I am relieved. Should I? Should I kiss you? Can I? will I?