NOAH'S LOVE

NOAH FLYNN

As we are lying there and I am trying to grasp what has just happened.  I feel myself shaking.  Noah runs his hands along my body and smiles.  "Baby we are going to be married in a few months.  With everything, Harvard offers I don't see why we can't start our family now."  I swallow "Yeah, but hum couldn't you talk to me about this first."  "I was planning on it, but I couldn't help myself after what happened at Duncan's I kept imagining us as a family and well when we got here I figured why not."  "Noah, our parents are going to kill us.  You know they wanted us to wait until at least one of us were done with college."  "Yeah, but the idea of you carrying my baby I find very sexy."  "Damn it, Noah, you do realize that if I get pregnant, I will lose my scholarship because I can't play."  "s**t, I didn't think about that."  "Yeah, I guess you didn't.  What are we going to do if I get pregnant."  "I guess we will have to wait and see.  Since this is the first time, we have done this so maybe you won't be pregnant."  "Baby, it is not that I don't want to have your child it is that I can't afford to lose the scholarship."  "Ok, I promise from now on if you are not pregnant I will be responsible, and before we try to build a family, we will talk about it."  "Ok"  As we cuddle closer together holding each other close, I think what am I going to do if I am pregnant and why would he think it is okay to try deliberately getting me pregnant.

The next morning we wake up holding each other, and I can tell he feels terrible for not taking precautions last night.  I try my best to ignore him, so I don't say something I will regret.  "Shelly come on I know you are mad at me, but we don't know if you're pregnant or not.  I promise I won't do it again."  I look at him "you do realize I have to wait for at least two weeks before we can find out?"  "Yeah, babe but I didn't think this through all I thought about was that by the time you started showing we would be in Boston and on our own."  "Well, the good thing is I did start taking birth control four months ago."  "What?  Why didn't you tell me?"  "I did tell you when we were planning the honeymoon back in January.  I said I was going to get on the pill so we wouldn't have to stress about making sure we had condoms."  "Oops, I forgot." After getting dressed he pulls me close "you're not mad at me anymore are you?"  "No, just disappointed you didn't think to discuss this with me."  "I guess this is going back to me deciding for us without talking to you about it."  "Yes."  

As we walk down to his motorcycle, I can tell Noah is not happy.  He keeps rubbing the back of his neck and glancing at my hands which I have had stuffed in my pockets for a while now.  It didn't dawn on me what was bothering him until we climbed on to the bike until I wrapped my arms around him and he picked up my left hand and let out a sigh of relief kissing my hand.   He started the bike, and we headed home.  I walked straight to my house without saying goodbye to him because I needed to think about what had happened the night before and how are we going to handle things if we are expecting.  I guess either Lee saw me leave or Noah sent him, but I was only home for ten minutes before Lee walks into my room.  "So, Noah told me what he did."  "Yeah, can you believe that twin.  Why would he do that we had talked about waiting until after he graduated at least?"  "Look, I am not saying what he did was right but I did hear him out.  To be honest, the idea has been floating around in his head for a while, but he wanted to wait till it was closer to the wedding to discuss starting a family.  It turns out he will be graduating sooner than anticipated.  He received credits for all his AP exams he took.  Also that first summer he was taking classes as well online.  When he started this fall instead of being and entering Freshman he had enough credits to be a Junior.  He plans on taking classes this summer session and is hoping to be a Senior by the time you all get to Boston."  "Yeah, Lee but this is a decision that affects both of us."  "Yeah, like you going on birth control.  I was there that day you didn't ask him what he thought about it.  You told him you were going to do it."  "OK, your right."  

After talking to Lee, I headed to the Flynn's house and went straight to Noah's room.  "Baby, I am sorry I should have talked to you about starting the pill instead of telling you."  He wrapped his arms around me "It's ok, babe I did it too, I am sorry and honestly the idea that you started taking birth control with the intention being for not use condoms during our honeymoon means a lot to me."  We held each other close and talked about what would we do if I was pregnant.

The two weeks flew by only because between finals planning the wedding, the graduation party, mine and Lee's birthday party and graduation I had no time to stress.  It wasn't until Noah came back home and asked me when we were alone if I knew the results.  When I told him why I had not taken a test he nodded and left to go and get one himself.  When he came back from the pharmacy, I went upstairs and took the test. Waiting for the results had my stomach in knots and had me pacing back and forth.  The timer dings and I look down and there on the test strip is...