Money Can't Buy Everything

Chapter 26 Left Alone

---Missy's POV---

I have never felt more alone than what I do right now.. but why? I have been alone for a long time, so why now does it hurt so much worse? Is it because of the relief that consumed me when I saw Derek just hoping for the comfort he brings with him, just to have to push it away, making him leave because he wouldn't stop with Drake? It hurt to have to send them away because I know they both meant well, but I was stressed out just hearing them go back and forth, let alone watching their built-up testosterone being aggressively thrown out at each other.. But I did love the defensiveness that Derek already has for me, that was comforting in it's own way and a complete turn on.. but that is not what's important right now.. hence why I sent them away.

Maybe the reason I feel so alone in this moment, is not only the fact that I'm now literally standing here alone, but also because of the fact that I feel so... naked.. so empty.. vulnerably exposed. Everything I have ever worked night and day for, from my TV, to my wardrobe, to my moving money stash for my brother and I.. to the only pictures I had left of our mother, that I made into a collage photo album.. everything I loved or put effort into is now gone in such a short span of time. As if it never existed, let alone meant anything.

It's all just a pile of wet ash now. I continue to observe them hosing down my place while the heartbreak gets worse as the time goes on.. what am I actually going to do? How am I going to tell Chris? Ugh.. I can't work tonight either because I have to take care of all of this, which is going to be a hard call as well.. Ugh I have so much to worry about that I feel my stresses coming in ten fold and the shitty part is that I have no weed to help me deal with all of this. So I know I won't be eating or even getting a wink of sleep tonight.. Maybe I can spend the whole night at the hospital with Chris and then figure out what I'm doing tomorrow.. I don't know.. I'm so confused.

"Miss Richards?" I hear from behind me as I suck in a sharp breath, wiping away my tears before answering. "Yes officer?" I turn around as he gets closer. "So the fire seems to be out, but it will be a while before we get anymore information on how this even started.. We will call you when you can come back and discuss things with us.. So.. do you have somewhere to go? Do you need a ride somewhere? We can make sure to set you up with a ride to wherever you need." He says so nicely to me as I shake my head. "I have friends I can call thank you." I say to him as he nods but still looking at me as if he doesn't believe me.

"Well, if that changes at all, we can help you whenever you need.. Here is my card just in case and I know we have your number from talking with you just a little bit ago, right?" He says almost as a question, as I nod at him, taking his card from him. "Thank you officer... Michaels." I said to him, looking at his card as he quickly replies with so much pity in his words. "I'm so sorry for your loss of everything.. If you need me, then you can call anytime."

I nod at him as I wipe away the tears and turned around to walk away. I take my phone out once I was far enough away to have some privacy. I dial Sarah's number before putting the phone to my ear as I hear it ringing. "Hey.. what's going on?" She asks me as I swallow the lump in my throat. "Can you please give me a ride to pick up my bike at Derek's house?" I ask quickly, just jumping right to the point because I'm not playing around. "Derek's house? Where is he? I sent him there to help you out?" She asks me as I groan out before the tears start. "He did come here and it was sweet because he was so protective and sensitive to me.. but him and Drake were going at it the whole time.. not even giving me a chance to decide what I wanted. They were arguing over where I was going and what I was doing without even asking me what I wanted and I really got tired of it when they started fighting.. I made them go home right then because they were stressing me out more than I already was." I explain to her as she groans out louder than I ever have. "Of course sweetheart, let me get my things together and I'll be there in about 10 maybe 15 minutes." she says as I say a quick. "Thanks Sarah." before hanging up the call as I suck in a sharp breathe. before letting it out as a wavering one.

I don't understand this.. why me.. Everything in my life has changed in one single moment and I don't know how to pick up the pieces to even try to figure out how to get through the damage exuded on my heart. The hurt hits my chest stronger than I ever even imagined as I try to hold in all my emotions until I'm alone. I hate showing my feelings at all, so I'll wait until I can do it by myself without any judgment. I continue to pace around, watching the families leave together just consoling with their love for each other.. but for me that's not possible because I don't have that. What do I do to feel better? I can't go to Chris like this, because I'm still freaking out and he has enough to worry about at the moment. Maybe I will just go get my motorcycle and then head to my spot to help me calm down before heading to the hospital to see Chris.. But s**t, I still have to call my boss.. he is not going to like this.. He is not a tolerant man, he only has enough patience in his whole body to store in his little pinky.. So running very low on the patience scale for sure.. I have seen some awful things he has done to anyone around him when they piss him off, so I couldn't be happier about the fact that I'm not right next to him to feel his wrath. So to say I'm nervous about calling in, is a complete understatement.. I have never done this yet.. especially since it will take a toll on not only my money, but his money. What I have learned over the years of knowing him, is that you don't mess with Papi's money.. ever.

I groan out as I picked up my phone and looking at the name Papi. I quickly push for it to call before I lose all nerve. It rings once before I hear him groaning out as he asks. "What's going on Misty, my star babygirl?" I let out a deep breathe before replying. "I can't come into work tonight Papi." I tell him as he groans out even louder in irritation. I can feel the tension building through the line. "Why the f*#k not? You know you make me more money with your performances than any other b***h tonight.. why the f*#k are you not coming in?!" he yells at me making me flinch even knowing he is not right here.

"My house is burning down right now.. I have no where to go and I have to talk with the police and figure out what I'm doing right now and what they need from me." I quickly reply not wanting to waste anytime. "Ugh... fine! You better not be lying, because there will be hell to pay if so.. But you better be here tomorrow and you owe me for switching s**t around for you tonight. but just know Misty you can always come stay with me.. You will have to do something for me but I promise there would be no rent to pay as long as I'm taken care of." He states to me as I shake my head in disgust, knowing exactly what he is talking about. "Um.. I swear on my life that I'm not lying and I know you can quickly find that out.. But thanks for the help and the offer.. but I think I just need to talk with the police and maybe get a hotel room because I need to get myself in order and I will be back tomorrow.. I promise." I say to him nervously before he groans out. "Fine. call me if you want me babygirl." He hangs up the call without a second thought. I let out the deep breath I never even knew I was holding in, just trying to calm my heart that's beating out of my chest.. but that went way better than I thought it would.. so that's good.

I see Sarah pulling up as I wipe the tears away that seem to keep straying down my cheeks on their own agenda. I get into her passenger seat as I see the devastation apparent on her features as she takes in the scene before her. "I'm so sorry all this is happening Missy." She says to me as I nod at her not knowing what else to say. I hear my phone ringing, noticing it's Drake trying to call me.. again.. so I just send it straight to voicemail. "Is it Derek?" she asks me seeing I'm silencing the phone call. "No it's Drake again.. he won't stop calling me.. But Derek is being so respectful and giving me a moment to think, which is all I asked of him.. So I can't get mad at all." I say to her as she lets out a deep breath. "I was worried he had hurt you." she claims, causing my head to automatically shake. "No, he was just being protective over me and, of course, Drake was pushing buttons with him." I say as I feel my phone vibrating so I look at the screen and see it's Drake again. "Unlike Drake who won't listen to a word I say, let alone respect what I have asked of him. Which is a moment to think." as I present my phone to her showing it's him calling again, as I silence the phone call.

"Well I do have to admit, I just called Derek and chewed him out for adding to your stress instead of easing it like I hoped he would." she says in a shy tone as if she is worried that I'm going to yell at her for being nice to me. "I understand but I swear he wanted to stay I had to force him to go before Drake and him started throwing fists.. it was on the brink of that." I explain to her as she nods and states. "So do you want to stay with me? I don't have an extra room at all, but I have a couch." She offers to me as I send a small smile her way before replying. "I'm not sure what I want to do yet.. all I know is that I need my bike and sometime to think at my spot.. I even called into work so there is no rush." I explain to her as she nods at me. "Ok well if you decide you want to stay with me just call.. it's fine, anytime." She exclaims to me before I notice the car slowing down at Derek's house. We got here faster than I ever expected. "Thanks for the help Sarah.. I'll let you know either way what I'm doing." I say to her as she leans across the middle console to give me a hug. I meet her half way as I hold her for a moment just enjoying this comforting contact, even if it's not by the one person I wanted. I finally let her go as I open the door to get out, walking to my bike. I secured my backpack on my back before pulling on my helmet and turning on my motorcycle to head out.

I take off pretty quickly and notice that she is trying to follow me, but I'm sorry, but I don't want anyone with me right now. I need a moment to myself. So I speed up and taking off down the street as I weave around cars and taking a quick turn, that is almost impossible route for her to keep following me. I turn, taking the back road to my spot as I decide to park behind it because of the construction going on at the front of it.. That will help me hide more anyways. I just need to be left alone.. even if it's just for a moment.