Money Can't Buy Everything

Chapter 19 Talking It Out

---Missy's POV---

I got pushed into the private room by Papi as I quickly ran back, bursting into the door knocking quickly, but they don't open it for me, I think they were expecting this response from me. So I talked through the door to the security guard. "Gus Gus.. please.. please don't do this." I begged him as he stated. " I'm sorry Misty, I have no choice in the matter. I need this job." I groaned out, staring at the door, not wanting to do this.. I flattened my hand on the door, slapping it a couple more times, but I didn't get the door to open with that action, so I groaned out in dismay.. hating this already.. I can feel the customer's eyes on my back as I state outloud for him to hear without even looking over to him just yet.

"I don't know what my manager told you about me, but I DON'T sleep with customers and I won't start today. I don't care how much you paid for me. That won't change my opinion.. I'm a dancer and only a dancer.. But I will give you all your money you paid for me back, as long as you say we slept together to my boss please.." I begged of him before turning around. I held my head down, doing a type of walk-of-shame, walking to him across the room since I only noticed his feet because he is sitting on the couch.

I finally get the guts to look up at him as my mouth drops open in confusion and shock. It's an all too familiar face staring right back at me. "Josh?? NO NO NO.. what are you doing here? There is no way I'm dancing, let alone sleeping with you.. Sarah likes you so much and would kill the both of us and I can't lose her as a friend.. and not to mention that you know how much I like Derek.. So why on earth are you here and paying for me?!" I asked with so much panic in my voice before he shook his head at me, putting his hands up in surrender. "I didn't pay for you Missy.. he did." He stated to me and I watched his eyes pan to the side of me as his head tilts in the same direction. I looked over to see Derek standing to the side leaning against the wall watching the scene take place in front of him with a stoic look across his face, not showing me at all what he could be feeling about this, or me.

The moment my eyes connect with his, I feel my heart sink deep into my stomach, making me feel like I'm going to throw up. No, I can't believe he saw me like that.. How long has he been here? How much has he seen? I knew this day was going to come eventually, but I never thought it would be this soon. I can't come up with anything to say as my mouth opens and shuts.. but I'm feeling the tears building up in my eyes as the emotions hit me like a brick wall, making me shake my head.

"Dammit Derek, I wanted to tell you, but I don't ever want you to look at me disgusted or ashamed like I already do for myself.. I just have so many bills to pay for my brother and, being a young girl with not much of an education or money at all being on my own, it was the only option I had to still do what I loved during the day, while making enough money for everything at night.. I'm so sorry.. I knew you would hate me for this.. but I swear I haven't slept with anyone ever here.. but because of your amazing offer for this room and me, my boss has demanded that I sleep with you or I lose my job.. But this has never happened before.. the men don't even touch me because I'm on the stage all the time." I'm babbling, just letting everything spill out of my mouth like the worst kind of word vomit.

"Shhh.. it's ok Missy.. Josh, please give us a minute." He says to me before looking past me as I hear Josh say something about getting a drink, but I don't know what. I shake my head at Derek, hating all of this so far feeling so embarrassed. I hear Josh knocking on the door behind me saying something through it as Gus lets him out, leaving us alone in here. I feel myself inching forward closer to Derek's tall muscular frame instinctively because he makes me feel so safe even in bad situations.

"This isn't OK Derek.. I'm trying my best in this life and it just doesn't seem good enough for anyone.. but I don't know what else to do.. this has just been so hard and sometimes you just have to do what you can to get by when you love someone and just want the best for them.. I told you I was not good enough for you and now you see I'm right.. I just wish it wouldn't have ended like this." I said, feeling the tears hit my eyes again, building up about ready to fall at any moment. I see him step forward before feeling his strong hand cupping my cheek gently, with his thumb lightly running over the top of my soft skin.. So I can't help but lean into his comforting touch.

"I understand why your doing what you're doing.. it's OK.. We have all, done things that we are not proud of to get where we are today, but believe me, you have done so much for your brother that I completely understand why you do it and respect it.. You're amazing for doing all this for him. I'm pretty sure that makes you one of the best sisters I have ever heard of.. Just don't tell my sisters that.. But.. Missy.. I have to confess too." he says to me as I feel my heart sink.. what is he going to say? That he is proud but still can't be with me? How disgusting he thinks I am, or disappointed.. Or just wants me for my body, and with this job he thinks that's a possibility.

"I saw you at the hospital the other day and followed you to your brother's room.. I read his report and I understand what you're saying when you said you had so much to pay for him to get the help he needs.. He is a very complicated case and I bet the monthly bills are unbelieveable.. I can't believe you have been doing this for so long to help him.." He states to me as my heart starts to rapidly beat again but for a different reason this time. "You followed me in there? Did you follow me in here? You know about my brother and read his file?" I exclaimed, questioning everything he had just said in complete and utter shock, trying to process all of this.

"I'm sorry I wasn't trying to stalk you or anything. I just wanted to find out who the guy was to you since I saw you hugging and giving him kisses on the cheek and see if I could help you out.. but tonight was unplanned. It was just Josh trying to make me feel better since I was sad about you leaving this morning. He was trying to take my mind off of you because he thinks you don't really want me." He explains to me in the saddest tone.

I feel my heart drop again but for a completely different reason. I feel like I'm about to have a heart attack and it's overwhelming. I don't know if my heart can handle much more shock. I shook my head at him before trying to explain. "No.. I like you so much.. I didn't tell you about this because every guy who has found out about my job has broken up with me thinking I'm a w***e sleeping around and that is not the case. I'm just a dancer.. nothing more, I swear. I want you more than you could possibly know, but I know this is too much to ask for you to even accept.. and I understand that you wouldn't want that.. no matter how bad I do. " I explained to him as he quickly replied. "I still want you.. even more than before. This doesn't turn me away, it brings me in more because I can see the sacrifice you have made for your loved one, showing how loving and dedicated you are to anyone who means something to you.. So how could I ever be disappointed in you or even remotely disgusted, let alone not want you at all? It is not possible, you're more perfect and better than I ever expected.. How do you feel about that?"

My mouth dropped open in more of confusion than shock. "What? Are you serious? You don't think I'm dirty or disgusting?" I ask him as he shakes his head at me. "Not one ounce of me thinks you're disgusting but strong and determined.. Yes... I just want to be apart of your life.. there is no judgment here and I'm still here not leaving you.. now will you please give me a chance to be the man you need in your life?" He asks me with so much desperation in his voice. That sound escaping his lips gets my heart racing and taking away the breath from my lungs as I feel a yearning from inside of me at his affections that are shared with me, without hesitation. I nod at him as I quickly pulled him into me, pressing my lips to his with a desperation. He wraps up my hips with his huge hands, pulling me in to kiss me more. I feel one of his hands circle to the small of my back, securing me into his frame as his other hand wraps around the back of my head, making the kiss deeper than before. I moan into his lips, just loving his touch as I feel his tongue push between my lips and causing chaos inside my mouth.

He kisses me for a moment as we hear the door open once more, gaining our attention as we break our kiss, but Derek doesn't move his hands from me.. We both look forward to seeing it's Papi checking up on me, making sure I'm doing what he has commanded me. He checks out the embrace we are in as he smiles big and leaves, shutting the door behind him not knowing what was really happening in here. But assuming he knows, which helps me out. Derek leans in kissing me again until I break the kiss for just a moment. "I will make sure to give you your money back." I say into his lips as he shakes his head. "You will not.. I want you to have it." He states to me as I push him back by his chest.

"You're not expecting to get s*x from me because you paid for me, right?" i ask with a tinge of pain in my voice if that what he thinks is happening. "No, not at all.., I just knew that was the only way to get you alone and the guy kept trying to upsell the other ladies but I told him I only wanted you." He says to me as I smile up at him. "Are you crazy?" I ask him as she chuckles and asks. "No I don't think so, why would you think that?"

"Because what man would actually want me and not think bad of me?" I ask with confusion as he laughs, then replies. "A man that appreciates what he reads between the lines, because not everything is just about what you see on the outside.. it's about what's underneath as well. I see the amazing strong woman you are and all I can think is that I need someone like you in my life to help keep me strong and motivated to be the person I need to be every day.. You are so sweet and inspiring that you make me want to be a better person just by knowing you.. I don't like the fact that men are watching you strip down by any means.. I want to rip their eyes out, but I understand the situation and like the fact that they don't touch you at all.. But I just need to know if you're going to be faithful to me.. Is there anyway you think you can do that for me?" he asks me as I smile and nod. "If this is something you think you can endure with me, just know that you're the only man for me." I say to him as he leans in kissing me before saying. "You better not be messing with me to leave again, because this is all I have wanted with you.. Just the thought of you has been running circles in my mind and I can't think about anyone but you. I want you to be mine Missy and I'm completely serious." he states to me as I nod then whisper into his lips, "I'm all yours."

He presses his lips into mine before he breaks it to hug me tight, making me feel so loved. "I might not be the first to be with you but I want to make sure that I'm the last.. I just know that I can't let this good of a thing go." he says into my ear at his close proximity sending shivers across my body. I'm glad he won't let this go.. I know I'm rough around the edges, but I know I can still give the best that's in me to him.. and knowing he is willing to take that leap with me means more to me then he will ever know. So if he will dedicate himself to me, then you had better believe that I will commit myself to him too.