Money Can't Buy Everything

Chapter 17 What To Do

---Derek's POV---

My eyes flutter open after the best sleep of my life on my uncomfortable couch, surprisingly enough. I never expected to think that ever in my life. I heard the door shutting before I really opened my eyes. I reached around realizing I was alone lying on the couch. I jumped up to alert, searching around the room and no signs of her, as if it was all just a wonderful dream, but I knew it wasn't. I looked around and noticed a note that had my name on it, laying upon the coffee table.

I flip it open just to read;

Derek,

You are a one-of-a-kind of man and everything an amazing woman needs.. The woman that ends up with you will be the luckiest woman out there.. but I still don't want to hurt you and if you knew who I was through and through, you would realize, like I do, how I'm not good enough for you, even on my best day. You deserve the absolute best and I'm not that.. I'm broken and in a bad spot. But I do know this.. hence why I'm taking myself out of your life now, before I get more attached to you than I already am. I wish you all the happiness in the world. I just hope you won't hate me after this. There is a lot I could take, but hatred from you is not one of them. Just know my feelings for you are true and I will never forget all the times you made me smile.. It gives me something to hold onto. Thank you for that.

XOXO Missy

I shut the letter, still holding it as I ran across my house to the front door and whipping it open to look out. I watched Missy look back at the door before blowing me a sad kiss, then driving away from me on that motorcycle once again. Dammit, I was so close to having her, or at least I thought so.. why does she just keep fighting this? If only I knew who she really was, just to prove that I still like her.. I think at least. I honestly don't know what could be so bad that she would think I would hate her for it.. What is she a serial killer? What could she possibly be doing that I would say, nope I'm done... nothing I could think of.. especially since she is so sweet and genuine.. Dammit I can't let her just go like that.. how could she ever expect that out of me after an amazing night like that? That was the best night with a woman I have ever experienced and it had nothing to do with sex.. I never thought I would ever say that either.. That's crazy for me to even think. I need that every day.. I need her. I can't and won't let her go.

I ran back inside to grab my phone and tried to call her but, of course, she sent my call to voicemail. I called again and got the same response. I huff as I storm around my house, running my hand through my hair as I try to figure out what to do. I have no idea. I pace back and forth trying to come up with a plan to get her back with me, until I hear my alarm going off. I turn it off as I groan out, knowing I have to go to work whether I want to get her back or not.. dammit. Life always has to get in the way.. but maybe I can come up with ideas by talking with Josh.. He works with me today.

I jump in the shower, washing every inch, thinking about Missy and how sexy she is all around in so many ways.. thinking about our fun night that was enticing, the whole time.. to her amazing scent I can't seem to get out of my nostrils no matter how much I wash myself.. It gets to the point that I have to take care of myself in the shower thinking of her, just so I can put my urges to the side, to try to concentrate on my work and coming up with a plan to try to get her.

I get dressed and ready to try to call her again and she sends me straight to voice-mail.. Dammit.. this is hard. I know she likes me but she won't let herself be happy when she thinks I deserve better. Acting as if she is some sort of plague bringing me down, but she doesn't realize she is already making me feel better. But I don't care what she thinks about what I need, because I think I deserve her. I'm damned and determined to get her.. because she still hasn't asked me to leave her alone at all... so I'm not leaving.

I headed straight to the hospital trying to get to Josh to tell him everything that happened like some gossip girl. I see him with the biggest smile on his face, looking as if he is just glowing in a happiness bubble. This guy looks as if he is in love. "Josh?!' I say, getting his attention as he looks over, but his face quickly turns concerned for me. "Derek? Is everything ok?" he asks me as I nod but shake my head, then shrug my shoulders, not knowing what to say.

"Missy came over late last night to talk with me and we just talked, having the best night, all night." I said to him as he smiles and pats my arms before I continue. "But she left this morning before I woke up and left me a note saying how much she likes me but she thinks I deserve better than her because I won't like to know who she is.. but I do I really do.. and she won't answer my calls now.. I don't know what to do." I explained to him as he lets out a deep breath before saying, "I think that she is giving you an easy way out.. She knows you won't like whatever this is going on with her and maybe you should take that out before you get stuck with her." He states to me as I scoff at that answer. "maybe I want to be stuck with her!" I spat at him before he scoffed back at me. "you don't know that, because you don't know her dirty secret..' He exclaims to me.

"So if Sarah said right now to stop seeing her now because there is something you wouldn't like about her.. would you?" I inquire before he shakes his head and scoffs. "No way I want to be with her." He replies as I throw my hands in the air. "That's how I feel." I say to him as he rolls his eyes, "But this is different than what Sarah and I have."

"Why is this any different than what you're doing with Sarah right now?" I asked him before he said. "Because , no offense, But I have had more of a physical and emotional relationship with Sarah and you haven't had that, will Missy.. I'm sorry but you haven't.. she keeps saying she wants you but runs every chance she gets.. if she really wanted you, wouldn't she stick around? I don't know.. I want you to be happy and to find a lady, but not at the idea of you chasing a girl as she runs from you, keeping you hanging on by a thread. It's just not fair to you.. how about this.. how about you and I go out tonight to take your mind off of things? We will have some drinks and hang out to just give you a moment to fully think things through and if you want to still pursue things with her by tomorrow, then I'll help you out.. But you need a moment to let your mind process all this.. and it's not like she is seeing you anyways.. has she picked up on your calls yet? Because I'm sure you have tried already, right?" He asks me as I nod, feeling sad about his comment, but maybe he is right about all of this.. But I feel like if she would just tell me what's bothering her, that I could have a chance to get it through my head and accept her like she thinks I won't.. But Josh is right. I don't know what it is yet and maybe she is right and I won't be able to accept it.. but I can't think of anything she could say that would turn me off from her that much.. But anything can happen, I guess.

"Yes, I have tried calling her and she sends it straight to voice-mail." I replied sadly before he stated, "See she doesn't want to talk right now anyways, so give yourself and her some time and then we will discuss what to do about this tomorrow.. ok? But this means you have to actually go out with me tonight after work if you agree." he says to me, as I let out a deep breath and nodding at him. He pulls out his phone and sends a message.

"Sorry I'm making sure Sarah knows I'll be out tonight with you." He explained to me as I smiled and asked. "So speaking of you two.. are you officially together now or something?" I watched him get a nervous look on his face before saying to me. "I have a date planned out tomorrow to take her out and ask her to be my lady.. officially." I smile and pat his back liking the fact that he has a good lady he is trying to have a relationship with.. it's so good to see that for anyone.. even if it's not me.

A tinge of jealousy runs through my body as I say. "I'm happy for you man, you deserve this.. and thanks for tonight in advance.. I'm sure this is just what I need, thanks man.. what are the plans?' I asked him curiously as he shrugs his shoulders.. "I have an idea of something fun to do, but if I tell you now, you will chicken out and I don't want that.. So I'll wait until you can't leave my car." He playfully states as I punch his arm playfully, making him laugh.. I feel a little better starting this shift off like this.. but I still can't take my mind from her just yet.. Maybe by the end of the day, I'll feel better with whatever he has planned for us.