AMANDA
I lay on the bed, still processing what had happened earlier.
We really did it. I finally surrendered my virginity to Lance. This little girl, Amanda has finally turned into a woman.
It might sound a little too dense if I say that I really valued my virginity, saving it until marriage. But I already decided to give it to Lance, even before agreeing to be a surrogate. I have prepared myself long enough for this, even practicing myself to tempt him in any possible way I can. I also swore to myself not have any regrets if ever that I will do it.
But if I don't have any regrets about giving it to Lance, why am I not happy at all?
Why are tears flowing from my eyes?
Why does it pain me so much?
Yes, there is a pain in between my thighs, I cannot deny that.
But the wrenching pain
