Chapter 15
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I can't keep my hands off her, I keep brushing her hair, caressing her cheeks and holding tightly to her hand not letting go. I can't help place my hand on her belly.
"I can't believe this" Jeff says next to me. Literally everyone is here. I know my family would do anything for each other, but this right here, I'm grateful for. That I can't even help myself but sher a tear that I wiped just as quickly.
"me too, me too Jeff, I never thought I would be this lucky"
The rest of the day continues with me still by her side, a part of me feels like I should go and check on Lucas but I can't bring myself to. Jeff is with him, monitoring him, apparently he called to say things were looking good with him, we panicked for nothing, plus the police are trying hard to find out what exactly happened, something I too would like to know.
But then, I'm glad this happened, how else would I have known that the most beautiful woman in the entire planet is carrying a part of me in her?.
I get a text from River telling me that he's at the basement. I stand up, kiss her forehead and whisper I love you then head outside.
I find him leaning by his car smoking, if he doesnt quite this s**t, he will die young, not that I care though.
"how is she?" He puffs and blows it, straight to my face, on a normal day I would turn and head back inside, even though we don't get along quite well, I must tolerate him for now.
"she's okay" I say, putting my hands inside the pockets of my sweatpants.
"what was the problem"
I sigh and shift in my feet, standing next to him next to the car.
"she was dehydrated and streesed, plus I kind of said something about Lucas and she... Lost it for want of a better word."
He takes one last smoke and stomp it.
"that's good, that's good" he says Puffing the smoke out.
"she's pregnant" I find myself saying, I can't help the smile I have on.
He looks at me, examining my face, I pay him no mind and continue to smile, thinking about how lucky I am.
"congrats I guess"
"thanks" I say "uncle" I add.
If he didn't want to look excited, he failed because he started smiling.
"so you fuker knocked my niece up"he says shaking his head smiling.
" I did " I can't help feel proud.
" how many months? "
" two "I say.
He looks at me, shakes his head and smiles.
" now you know what this means "
I look at him and sigh.
Now my happiness is short lived because apparently, I'm not allowed to be happy. Everything must always go wrong.
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" good morning Mrs de Luca" my eyes flutter open, I feel a little bit light headed.
"how are you feeling" it's April.
"my head is heavy" I say. She looks at me and nods her head.
"we'll, good news is you doing okay, you will be discharge tomorrow, we still need to keep you one more day for observation and see how you and the little fellow are doing"
I nod my head and turn around.
"wait what?" she looks at me, her smile breaking even more.
"congratulations, I'm going to be an aunt"
She squeels.
"I'm... I... I'm pregnant?"
She looks at me and nods.
"two months" she beams and gives me a hug, of which I'm unable to return.
How did this happen? Travis is going to kill me, April leaves and immediately the door closes, the tears drop from my eyes.
He can never find out, he should never.
He said he does want a child and I went and got myself knocked up. He will definitely Leave me.
And how the hell did I get myself pregnant same time as Valery.
I'm pretty sure Travis would rather father her child than mine, but one thing I know I'm never going to do is kill it, I would never be at peace.
I need to get out of here, as soon as possible.
He doesn't care about me enough to have a child with me, and he said it once before, he doesn't want a child. I... I can't, I honestly cannot.
I let the tears run out until darkness consumes me and I find my happy place.
**I'm with my mother. Trying to catch fireflies.
"mommy, mommy look" an eight year old toothless me runs, I have it it my hands, I caught one.
"did you catch it love?" I grin and nod yes.
"oooh miamor. Let me see" she picks me up and place me on her hip.
"let me peak" she covers my hand with her one hand and peaks.
"ooh" she says, her mouth forming a big O.
I have never felt so excited before. It felt like a big accomplishment.
"let's set if free okay?"
"but why mommy"
She tugs my hair behind my ear.
"because Isa, it's meant to be let loose, let if free, if you keep it like this, it's going to die, it's meant to be out there in the world and be adored from afar."
"but it's mine mommy"
She looks at me and smiles.
"just because you have something it doesn't make you yours, whatever is yours will come to you, you don't have to go get it"
I don't understand her, but I nod my head yes still.
"let's set it free okay?"
"okay" I rest my head on her shoulder and she opens my arm and the firefly flutters first, struggling a little until it flies away, going to join the other, we stand like this admiring the view.
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