Used to love you

Chapter 8

Then I came in to take a bath.

He must be shocked by my shirt...

Cause it has a blood..

My nose was bleeding...

While I was taking a bath alex come in.

"What were you doing outside the door?"

He asked while my shirt is in his hands

"My nose was bleeding." I said

"Why didn't you knock?

Did you really think that I wouldn't let you into the house?" He said.

Then he suddenly strip and kissed me..

He doesn't even going to ask me if I was sick..?

"You better not be out there doing drugs, you're losing so much weight." He said.

hah? drugs?

Instead of asking me if I was sick,

He suspect me of using drugs?

Just what the actual f**k are you?

"Let go, I don't want to do it, I'm tired." I said.

"You're really not willing to be touched by me?" He said with a frustrated face

"Think of it however you like." I said

The he suddenly grab my face

"I got it." He said while smirking at me..

Then he throw me to the bed.

"I will have you today.

Let's see if you still think about that man you met this afternoon." He said.

I began to start crying..

No, I don't want this.....

It's painful...

It's humiliating--

I want to die.

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After he's done he sleep and I was just looking at he's sleeping face.

"I will be gone soon,

Why won't you treat me better...?"

"When I'm gone find someone who is kind and is able to stay longer with you....

Idiot... Don't you know you are about to lose me!" I said at his sleeping face.

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"Jeanne...." I woke up when alex suddenly say my name.

"It's terrifying....

I dreamt that you left me." He said

"Where did I go to?" I asked

"I don't know.

But you are not allowed to go anywhere else, Don't leave me." He said

Then I fell back to sleep again.

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When I woke up alex is not beside me.

Then I see him in the dinning

"Oh you're awake, I'm just done making breakfast.

Come over and eat." He said

I'm surprised how long has it been since he last cooked for me?

I just sit and did not say a thing

"Jeanne, last night.... I'm sorry

I must have hurt you..." He said

And I did not say anything

After taking the medicine...

I don't really have the appetite to eat...

"I'm full." I said

"Your appetite's so poor,

No wonder you lose so much weight....

If you keep getting skinner, I will really panic whenever I hold you.."

Hah?

As if I care.

I just leave him there and go the living room and I texted hannah to ask her if she's doing fine.

We talked a lot.

She's on her business trip.

I'm glad she still has a time to talk to me.