BLESSED

Chapter 3

I don't know how I’ll tell Tyler about this, Amy left the room and said that she would give me a moment alone to think about everything.

Maybe I should call Tyler and tell him now, the sooner the better right?

I grab my phone and open Tyler’s contact is saved as ‘babeFriday night *

I’ve been vomiting and feeling dizzy all the time, since I discovered I was pregnant, does the fact that I know what is happening, makes me feel worse?

The anxiety and nerves that I’m feeling are surely making me worse.

Because I know that Tyler will notice that something is wrong, he doesn't notice a lot of things when it comes to our relationship but he's not blind.

Amy said they’re coming in about an hour or two, they will supposedly spend here the weekend and then go back to the campus when the week begins.

I have two days to tell him.

Two days to tell him that a baby is growing inside of me.

Our baby.

My hands are sweaty and my heart is a beating mess, I’m nervous even if I’ve already concluded that he won't have a good reaction.

“ Is going to be okay,” Amy speaks, I didn't notice that she was in the room. 

“ No is not…” I whisper. She knows how Tyler is, we all know. He runs from his responsibilities when he thinks that is too hard to try to make something about it. She knows that how he will react, but she doesn't want me to feel scared.

I appreciate the fact that you’re trying to help, but I would prefer if you’re honest with me…

“ Cami-”

“ Don’t ‘Camilla’ me, you know how Tyler is!” I stand up, a tear falls down my cheek. I'm scared.

“ I know but-” I cut her off again.

“ Please don't say that everything is going to be fine, because you know it won’t.” She sighs and hugs me. 

I like having someone around, is relieving. Knowing that I have someone who I can talk to makes me feel better, but this would last forever. It never does.

The good things always have a short period before something bad happens and ruin everything.

Between me and Tyler, it was good and fun. But now we’re going to have a baby.

And I’m sure that something will happen between me and Amy too.

A door is unlocked from downstairs and I lift my head from Amy’s shoulder, making eye contact with her.

They’re here.

I wipe my tears off of my face and check the mirror to see if my eyes are puffy, they’re not but the circles underneath them can tell how much I haven't slept these days.

“ Let’s go downstairs,” Amy says and I nod, taking a deep breath before opening the door and directing myself to the stairs.

My heart starts beating even faster than it was and I feel like I could just pass out, right here and right now.

Tyler and Matt had their backs turned to us when I saw them, Matt was locking the door and Tyler was saying something.

They turn their heads to us and smile.

I’m going to miss Tyler’s smile, and maybe I’m overreacting by being already saying goodbye, but I have a feeling that this will be the last time.

He comes to me and gives me a tight and long hug, something is wrong. Usually, his hugs are fast and then he slaps me in the ass. But none of those are happening today.

We all head to the living room and we sit on the sofa, we talk about what the guys gave been doing and they tell us how they’ve been busy these days. 

I should probably tell him now and make the change now that we’re all together here in the living room.

Amy gives me a look and then nods, she knows what I’m about to do.

Now thinking positively, he might be happy, Tyler has always loved kids and I’ve seen him helping and playing with some on the charity center every time her cans. We’ve already spent there a whole day, just helping to take care of those kids.

But being on a charity center and having a kid of your own is something completely different, and it gives a lot more work…

At the charity center, all you gotta do is go there and say you’re going to help, they already know us so we can go in whenever we want to. 

But having a kid of our own means having to educate a child every day for the rest of our lives, make the little human grow up and become someone in this world. And is a lot of pressure.

We’re so young, too young.

This shouldn't have happened, we should've been more careful. 

But now is too late, and a kid is coming on its way.

I take a deep breath and prepare myself for what’s about to come.