Chapter 33Toby
I let out a shaky sigh, the knot in my stomach tightening as I think about what I’m about to do. Will Kai hate me? Will he be angry that I kept this from him? I don’t know. All I know is that I can’t lose him now—not when I’ve only just gotten him back. It’s like I uncorked a bottle, and now there’s no stopping it: I want a relationship.
Arjun was my first boyfriend and the first person I made plans for a future with, even though we were only twenty-two. We were both miles deep in the closet when we met, but we often talked about coming out to our loved ones and, once we started dating, telling them about our relationship. The future seemed so bright then, and I couldn’t wait to spend it with him. I was living on a pink cloud, so to speak, and I was in love for the first t
