Never Go Back

I wake up and my phone is ringing. I quickly look at the time of the clock. It says it's 2:30 AM. Nobody ever calls me this late, it must be an emergency. I quickly answer the phone and I find out that it is the hospital at my hometown, Crystal Bay. They told me that my mother was very sick and there was nothing they could do and she passed about an hour ago. It takes me a moment to respond but I tell them that I will come and make the arrangements for her funeral. I will be there sometime tomorrow. I hang up the call and quickly go online to buy transportation. I buy a bus ticket for first thing in the morning well, later this morning as it is now 2:50 AM. I know I won't be able to go back asleep now so I start packing my things. I only pack enough for about a week. I want to get this over with as fast as possible. I never had a close relationship with my mother. Especially, Not after she expected me to forgive my ex-fiance after finding out he cheated on me. I haven't talked to either one of them in 5 years. It's not like my mother tried contacting me either. I am sad that she is gone not because she is gone but because she was my mother and we never had a good relationship like a mother and daughter should have. I have everything packed and i jump into the shower. For the next couple hours everything seems a daze. I remember going to the bus station around 5 AM like I needed to. I rememeber getting on the bus and finding my seat and putting away my belongings. It will take about 5 hours to get back to my hometown and with nothing to keep me busy, my mind goes back to the last night that I was back there. Flashback: I got off of work around 5 PM. I normally get off at 6 PM but I wanted to surprise my fiance, Daniel King. I know he has been working so hard lately and having to work long hours so I want to make him a nice dinner and give him a night full of love making. But when I got home, I didn't expect for his truck to be in the drive. I thought that was weird. He usually doesn't come home until 7 PM or later. I wanted enough time to prepare a nice dinner. I unlock the front door and go in. I look around and his clothes are thrown around as well as another woman's. I hear moaning and groaning and the woman says, "Yes, Daniel! Just like that!" My shaky hand opens the door and there on our bed is Daniel thrusting into this strange woman. He is giving her so much passion. Passion that I haven't seen in about a year. He blamed it on work saying he was always tired. Realizing that this must have been going on for the last year since he started acting strange and a little distant. I stand there for a moment and neither one of them notice me. I suddenly think I have to go. I have to get out of here. I rush in the closet and grab a overnight bag and throw some things in it. I hear silence going on in the other room and I know they have figured out that I am here. I rush out of the closet and they are both trying to get dressed as fast as possible. I look over at Daniel and say, "How could you? I don't want to know. I am done. I am out of here. Never contact me again!" He stands up and chases after me. He tries to apologize but I just ignore him and head out to my car. I hop in and drive as fast as possible away. I head towards my mothers. I get there and knock on her door. She opens and allows me to come inside. I sat down with tears pouring out my eyes. It takes me a moment to get myself together enough to even talk. But before I could say anything, she tells me, "Amanda, Daniel called me and told me what happened. It was a misunderstanding. A one time transgression. He promised he wouldn't do it again and I believe he is truly sorry. Now stop crying and get your but back home and fix this!" I cannot believe my own mother would side with him. I try to argue but soon realize that she will never be on my side and since the moment I had started dating Daniel King, the heir to the king empire that owns most of town and surrounding towns, that I was too luckhy and how could a man like that be interested in a nobody like me. He pays all her bills and gets her anything she wants. I thought he was so generous but now looking back, it was a way of control. I stand tall and try to give a determined look and say, "He cheated on me. I saw him having s*x with another woman. He has lost my trust. I cannot be with him ever again!" My mothern walks over and slaps me! I bring my hand up to the stinging pain of my cheek. I look at her and she says, "Amanda! He is the best you will ever get. He can take care of you. He helps take care of me. Don't be selfish and walk away. He needs you. He said he was sorry and I believe it. Go home or don't but you will not stay here a moment longer until you have fixed this and are back home with Daniel. Now Go!" I try to argue but my mother shoves me to the door. She pushes me through the door and I fall to my knees by the force she used. I look back to her slamming the door and locking it. At that moment, I made a decision. A decision that would take me far away from this town. Away from Daniel King, the one who broke my heart. Away from all these people that will call me crazy to not forgive him as he was the town's pride and joy. I grab my bag and I go back to my car and I drive to the bus station. I am gonna leave this life behind so I only have the cash thats in my wallet. I take the first bus out of town. It's to a place about 5 hours from here. It's called Worthington and nobody will know Daniel king or myself. Might as be a good of place as any to start over. I get on the bus and never look back. Flashback over Only about an hour has passed and I have four hours to go. I feel the fatigue and the rocking of the bus slowly put me to sleep. I will take a nap till I get there. This will pass by the time and I am too tired to think. I drift off with the thoughts of worry.