Behind the lies

Chapter 3. Well s**t!

dropping hard onto my feet my father furious pacing back and forward in the kitchen . my mother crying her eye's out standing behind him. claire just looked pale she looked like i was feeling confused. i was bent over still gasping for air coughing loudly my throat still had the feeling of my father's hands his grip chocking me.

i caught claire from the corner of my eye bowing her head it dawned on me someone new was present in the house

"Alpha Mcintosh" my mother said

my father bowed his head i could feel myself being nervous thought's streaming through my mind unsure what exactly had i got myself into.

"Jane" the alpha's voice was commanding

i looked at him expecting some sort of harsh punishment for what i was unsure of but after my father's reaction it was clear whatever it was, is bad.

he smiled a soft smile. i looked at him unsure forcing my eye's to look into his own something i normally wouldn't do with having anxiety

"go to your room" he commanded not harshly but enough for me to know i shouldn't question why.

as i walked by claire she quickly moved out my way her head still low her gaze still on the floor

i could feel the alpha and my parent's eye's burning me in the back. as i walked to the stairs. and then suddenly the kitchen door slammed shut.

"Alpha said to go to your room" a male voice said the guy sounded young but he was clearly older than me. standing in the doorway of the dinning room he had short brown hair and clean shaven.

"do you know whats going on?" i asked

his eye's widened "let's just say your lucky the girl's still alive"

i looked at him i guess he could see the confusion on my face as he raised his eyebrow

"the blondie you nearly killed"

"Roxanne" i gasped.

"turns out human's are just as vicious" he scoffed

"yet my little brother was sure you were a weakling" he smiled

it was if all the pieces had clicked inside my head.

"Wallace kerr i knew you looked familiar" i said shaking my head.

wallace was in fact duncan's big brother. not many knew he had a older brother he was known for being irresponsible and only came to town once or twice a year to check in on duncan or if his cash ran out this is the reason why Duncan tells people he's a only child.

i walked away upstairs to my room. i wasn't going to believe a word from Wallace clearly something went on but no way i had mental state to actually harm someone.

1 month later.

September

i wasn't allowed back in school. my sister claire has been handing me work in from the school to complete. i managed to find out the full story of what happened from my mother with the promise of not telling my dad that i know and now i have been put on Mirtazapine as i got made to see a doctor. apparently being bullied which made me have depression caused me to snap.

Roxanne still won't talk to me but at least she is expected to make a full recovery. i still don't remember anything from that day. But my mum said it was worse than a animal attack. It took 3 werewolf's to get me off roxanne the doctor has put that down to adrenaline rush that sudden surge of strength i had. i ripped half her hair out she also had nose surgery, but the worse was deep gouges all over about 27 they said it was with a knife but because they haven't found a weapon they can't prove i caused it and no witness can recall seeing me with a weapon.

sitting in the psychiatrist office listening to the sound of the Fan whirring around it was hot in here i could feel the sweat on my brow . my psychiatrist had popped out for a moment as he had the wrong file. this was the new man. Dr stone he was my second after psychiatrist Dr samantha Yates had declared i was a lost cause that even suggested i made myself be bullied she even implied i was in complete control of my actions of that day i attacked roxanne despite four other doctor's not in agreement. Dr yates has refused me to be her patient anymore she's on short term leave luckily she's a werewolf and can heal fast but that Pen she received jabbed into her right eye during our last session i'm forever happy knowing that it will leave a permanent scar and she will be partially blind still.

"what are you thinking" Dr stone his pleasant voice snapping me out of my thought's

"it's nice to see you smiling" he added

i looked at him nodding my head no way i was going to tell him i was thinking about the incident with Dr yates

"they cleaned the room really well" i said looking about the office no trace of blood on the walls or floor.

dr stone took in a shallow breath

"yes a new carpet has been put down and it took three coats of paint"

"i think my parents want to send me away dr stone" i said picking up the bottle of cold water from my bag on the floor.

"i think a break a long term break is what you need. away from werewolf's"

i looked at him i opened my bottle of water and took a sip quickly then screwing the lid back on.

"least my gran isn't a mutt" i said smiling

"your not fond of werewolf's?"

i scoffed "do you blame me?"

"no" he smiled his words struck me

"are you human" he nodded his head

"yes and like you i know how difficult it is to be born into a pack especially having to go to school as a human"

i looked at him feeling relieved that i actually could speak to someone like myself who knew the struggle

"But saying that you can't go round trying to intentionally wound everyone"

i looked at him "i told you i don't remember what happened with Dr yates" i lied this was a truth when it first happened but the memories flooded back during the same night as the incident. did i feel guilty? Never. she was a werewolf the lot of them were monster's in my eye's even those who associated with them like roxanne.

Dr stone started writing in my folder

"im going to increase the mirtrazpine dosage to 45mg from 20mg"

"i see your 16th birthday is in November" dr stone his voice was gruffy sounding

i nodded,

"have you got anything nice planned?"

i looked at him, looking for signs he was maybe joking with that question

"yes, big party with all my friends doing what other teenagers my age do cause i'm so popular" i said sarcastically

"very good" he grunted

"remember your not to drink whilst on medication"

he continued to scribble things down.

i looked at him the anger sweeping through me.

"are we done?" i blurted out

i shoved the water bottle back in my bag

"remember to pick up your medication at the front desk" he called out as i was leaving

i could see him picking up his office phone no doubt to let the reception know.

coming out the office i nearly made it to front entrance

"miss strachan" a female voice called out

it was the receptionist

"i need your signature for this prescription"

i smiled at the receptionist she was a small lady with a pale complexion her hair was ginger tied into a messy bun. she was always nice to me since I've been coming here even after the incident with Dr yates.

i signed the piece of paper and she handed me my new medication.

"have a great day hun, remember to take care of yourself"

she said i nodded to her and left the building putting the medication into my bag.

Arriving back home my mum was in the kitchen cooking one of my favorite meals Stir fry i could smell it from anywhere. my father was sitting in the living room reading a newspaper and Claire was upstairs with 2 of her friend's

"i'm home mum"

My mum came out of the kitchen

"im making your favorite" she smiled at me.

"i know i can smell it" i smiled back at her

i was delighted i love my mum's stir fry she hardly ever makes it saying she never has the right stuff in. so this was an actual treat.

my dad suddenly came out of the living room 

"Me and your mum have something to tell you Jane over dinner"

i looked at him then my mum whatever it was he wasn't giving anything away my mother on the other hand her eye's just filled to the brim with mixed emotion one which was clear to see Sadness. my father wrapped his arm around her waist it was a surprise to see her bat his arm away from her and she returned to the kitchen my father just staring at my mum's back i looked at him

"is everything okay?" i asked

"yes it's fine jane" he said giving me a quick forced smile as he returned his newspaper in the living room.

i removed my jacket and placed it on the banister along with my coat. i went into the kitchen and washed my hands. getting ready to help my mum with the cooking.

"the doctors increased my medication"

i said to my mum as she was standing over the cooker wearing a light blue apron

"maybe that's a good thing help you be you again jane"

she said.

"maybe" i mumbled opening the fridge

just then claire and her friends came thundering down the stair's and into the kitchen 

i closed my the fridge to see Kirsty the Alpha's daughter Claire's best friend and one person i didn't expect to be with them Maria Young i could feel my heart beat increase the feeling of anger at the fact this b***h was in my home.

"why are you here?" i hissed looking directly at maria.

"your a bit old to be hanging around my sister and her friends" i stated not taken my eye's off her as the look of hidden anger could be seen in her eye's along with shock.

"Jane?" my mother scolded

"be nice" she whispered

claire drew me daggers. "maria's cool" she said smiling to maria"

maria gave claire a innocent smile back.

i still refused to take my eye's off the scheming she wolf.

my mum was busy re-washing her hands

"be careful on stairs claire especially around that"

i whispered looking at maria like i wanted to murder her.

claire didn't know what to say or where to look she ushered kirsy and maria out the kitchen

"sorry about her" i could hear claire saying to her friend's

they were putting their coats on getting ready to go out by the looks of it.

""Vile b***h"" i heard the words i stopped what i was doing

"What did you say?" my voice increasing staring directly at maria she looked taken back

"i .. didn't say anything" she shook her head looking at me and claire.

"Jane you need to chill no one said anything" claire defended her

i turned back to head into the kitchen

"slit it's throat need's putting down" again this time i was even more enraged.

"What's your problem?" i screamed running into the hall.

i stopped claire and her mate's weren't in the hall

"they just left" my father said standing in the living room door way.

"have you been taken your medication?" he asked

"iv'e got a bigger dosage" i said to him

he lifted my bag from the banister taken out the paper bag with the medication in it

"best start now" he said handing me a tablet.

i took it walked to the kitchen sink filled a glass of water placing the tablet in my mouth and swallowed it with a gulp of water.

((Dinner time))

i sat in the dinning room which was odd we only usually eat in here for special occasions like birthdays or Christmas or new years the rest of the time we usually just sit in the living room gawping at the tv eating dinner. today was different. my mum had set out the table all nice and fancy with three plates. my own, my dad's, and my mums. she even had her best plates in use so i knew something was up.

as i sat down to dinner i couldn't wait to eat my mums chicken stir fry dinner i had begin to stuff my gob it was so delicious just as good as it smelled i noticed both my parent's were not eating instead just inspecting me watching. i hated people watching me eat due to my anxiety i put my fork down

"have i got something on my face?" i said

"no no don't be silly jane" my father said.

i took my eye's off my father and stared at my mum i could see a tears escaping from her eyes

"mum what's wrong?" i asked i hated seeing my mum upset it was a unusual sight for me.

"your mum's fine jane she's just sad we both are" my dad started explaining

"your going to stay at nana's" he looked at me watching for my reaction

"i'm getting kicked out to no ones land" i said staring down my father

he didn't break eye contact i wasn't going to give him the satisfaction of looking away.

"It's not like that, people are just talking just now" my dad said still staring at me.

my mother touched my arm causing me to jerk my arm away from her i quickly got up out my seat i didn't want to leave the food on my plate so i grabbed my plate and fork

"i'm going to my room" i declared scurrying off with my food no way i was going let my parent's spoil my dinner the only bit of happy i had to my day.

"jane think of it like a holiday" my mum called out to me as i climbed the stairs.

i didn't answer her back instead i made sure to open and slam my door shut twice to make sure they knew just how angry i was in case they thought me retreating to my room was a sign of acceptance because it was far from it. yes living with my nana wouldn't be bad but being treated like a freak and getting practically kicked out wasn't a delightful feeling.