So They Say

In my world, I am a Nothing. We get treated just like that, nothing. We don't have the privilege to turn invisible or fly or even change shapes. We're just... nothing. My mother treats me just like that too. I'm not her priority. She's always out of town, meeting with high end clients who want her to go on crazy goose hunts for some rare books. I don't blame her; I love books too. Books have become a safe haven for me ever since my first panic attack. I don't have any friends except Abagail, who is extremely popular and beautiful and has the ability to shift her face. She's the only person I trust, and we've been friends since preschool. But she's beautiful enough to be a supermodel, and I'm the OCD, socially anxious troll that is dumb and the only fun I have is reading the books in the library me and my mother owns. I never go out, and sometimes I get so into myself that I forget to eat. There's nothing special about me. I'm ugly. I'm weird. Everyone in school picks on me. I'm underweight and I'm a Nothing. For a long time, I have never done anything exciting. My version of excitement was to go to the lake near the library and watch the ripples in the lake and read. That's been my only source of entertainment for years. My mother never let me hang out with anyone. She hates Abagail, but that's because Abagail hates her and often stands up to her. I don't want to be pitied. I just want to be different. I want to be someone who isn't myself. I hate myself and everyone knows that. Especially the mind readers; they make it their business to go around school and tell. They know that I won't do anything about it because I'm weak and the only thing I do well is worry, clean, and organize. I feel bad that Mom puts up with me. I'm sorry that Abagail feels that she has to stick to me. I don't want to be the reason people can't enjoy their lives. If I only knew that all of this was about to change... I don't know what I would have done if I knew. But it certainly would not be letting it happen. I would have definitely listened to the warnings, because if I only knew that the consequences would be what they were... My world is different. We're divided but equal. We all do our own things. I live in the west, on the Arcade land. I'm the only Nothing here. The other Nothings live in the East, with the land of the Dead and Hell. That's just how it is. I can't change it. I don't know how. All I know is that no one wants me and Abagail is beautiful and I'm not. That's just how it is and ought to be. Until it changed, or better yet, when I began changing.