His substitute Bride

Ignoring

Guilt is the worst. Absolutely the worst. The feeling is paralysing, and we often push it down so deep inside of us we're not even aware it's there. But the thoughts keep floating through our mind.

Jeanne M. House, Peak Vitality

Humna p.o.v

Analysing how guilt and regret stick with one forever not to mention the constant weight of pain, regret, and pain in hopes to relieve themselves from the burdens. I roam from one place to another outside the Humza room waiting for the doctor to come out .

Ya Allah please help , please make Humza Alright …. I promise I won't do this again…

I weep silently praying .

I didn't expect his health to worsen this bad .

Granny was so angry at my stunt that she was avoiding my eyes .

I have so many things that combine feelings of shame, anxiety, frustration, and humiliation.

I halt …. " Doctor " I called out as soon as I saw him coming outside of Hamza's room .

" How is he ??? Is he all right ??? Can I see him ??" I bombarded him with so many questions at once .

" He is resting and needs to stay on a proper food diet or else , his health might worsen " he said then walked away leaving me with more burden on my shoulder .

Slowly peeping inside I opened the door quietly watching him sleep peacefully on bed .

With quiet footsteps , she walked toward his bed feeling her throat closing up. Kneeling down , She sighed heavily, letting her head drop on the edge of the bed .

" You were right Humza " I whispered shakily .

" I am nothing but an immature kid " I sniffled between words .

" I couldn't accept rejection again and making you pay for something wasn't your fault '' I took my hand through his hair softly admiring .

" You are nothing but good to me " I lean to plant a soft kiss on his forehead.

" I promise ….. I promise Humza from now on , I won't let this stupid crush ruin our unsaid friendship . I promise I won't fall for you or have any feelings " I said determinedly .

" You will be my friend just like I am yours " I said standing up wiping my cheeks .

Few days later……

HUMZA P.O.V

After what happened that night , I realised Humna has started maintaining distance from me , I have no idea why ….

I seriously don't remember what happened that night… All I remember was eating my food and next thing my throat was burning .

" Sir …" I look up as my P.A knocks , we have a meeting with an investor in an hour .

I nodded then back to typing furiously ..

Have I done something wrong??? What wrong with this idiot

After sitting in a Barbecue restaurant, one of the famous restaurants in London . We started our meeting ….after a while a waitress came and I ordered without glancing but something clicked on my mind .

Humna.… She loves this special cushion of this place .

" Packed this " I ordered .

" For someone special " Mr Anderson who must be in his 70s teased .

I smirk " for a kid '' I chuckled thinking of Human hearing she would throw a rock at my face .

My eyes found my P.A who was giving me weird stares and that's when I realised I am smiling like a fool .

What the hell

I cleared my throat sitting straight .

Get a grip Humza …

" Humna ! Humna !" I called out as soon as I entered the house .

But no response …

Handing the bags to Granny I ran upstairs to find that i***t . I walk toward her room , her door wide open with her sitting in the centre with all her books and copies scattered around .

It looks like a war just happened.

" HOW CAN YOU BE SO SO SO i***t HUMAN " she pulled her hair then proceeded to tear the page and try one more time .

An amusing smile appeared on my face , leaning on the doorway I watched her questioning her life with maths sums .

" You know what…" she stood up talking to the maths worksheets " a single paper can't decide my future " I made a face to a non living thing please note .

I watch her amusingly " I think it's time to take you to mental asylum "

Humna p.o.v

"I think it's time to take you to a mental asylum " I jumped at my place for a second hearing his deep chuckle coming from the doorway .

" Ya Allah , you scared me " I put my hand on my chest waiting for my heartbeat to normalise .

" Having trouble " he asks, coming near and my eyes widen in panic .

" No … no don't come here " I turn away .

It's just been 14 days….I need to avoid him more 7 days days .

" Why what's wrong? " he stopped.

Well I promised myself to stop my crush growing on you so I did a little research and now I know to get over a crush you need to avoid them for 21 days….at least that's what the internet said …

" I am busy " I sat down on the floor pretending to be busy .

" Yeah I can see that " his deep husky voice… does something really horrible yet overwhelming to my heart .

No

No

No

" Let me see " he tried to take the paper but I moved it away .

" For your kind information , this . Is . Maths " I pointed at the book .

" Not your business deal that you can c***k. '' Despite the insistence of my words, my voice was toneless, a straight line on a graph.

But all he did was look deep into my eyes and that's when I realised we are too close to my liking of poor heart .

I turn my face " Don't disturb me , I have school tomorrow "

" What are yo-" suddenly the paper was snatched away cruelly and this man who think himself I am Mr. Einstein started writing something .

I scoff, pretty sure he cannot do it .

" Done " he flipped it on my face proudly and my jaw dropped .

He smirked arrogantly while I just stared at him in awe….

" You . Are . Genuine " I utter surprise .

He smiles unsure… " thanks … it's not a big deal "

Is he thinking I am kidding ….

" You are a genius! " I squeal happily .

" Please tutor me maths please " I beg and his eyes widen .

" What ?" He gave a panic expression like I just ask his two kidneys to buy an iPhone.