Amberly poems

WHY ME I always ask why I have to hide behind a mask. When I was a kid i felt unwanted, but time comes and goes but all I do now is get high. The pain is coming and going I just don't know Where I'm going but I do know God has been making me glow And I know for sure I won't let go, The pain is finally gone. I'm back to being strong. but I don't know for how long. The pain is hard to release I barely even know the real me. I'm done trying.People are lying. Give people my heart now I'm dying. I'm starting to cry and wonder why I'm still alive people say just keep trying I feel like they are lying. My heart is broke I feel like I am going to choke. when pain comes and goes in life sometimes you really just don't know what to do. I'm trying to rise up and forget the past but I don't know how much longer I can last. Sometimes we see things that arent meant to be seen I have dreams of people doing better and moving on in life and I'm still stuck in my past and now I am going to relapse trying not to do drugs is hard like when you are looking for something important and you are drunk at the bar that one of my addictions drinking. I finna act like a teacher and give you a lesson I drink because of my depression it clears my mind to where I will feel fine now there's a few more drugs, I do that's weed it helps with my anxiety, and then there's c***k takes me way back when I was off track getting in trouble at school I didn't want to follow the rules.