Virus in my Head

Piled thoughts #2

SELF-ISH

I can't count the times that I think of you.

But I know for sure that my heart aches every time I do.

I miss you, but at the same time, I don't.

I hate you for having someone new.

I know that life must go on for everybody else. But I don't want that for us.

Selfish as it sounds, I want 'us' to be just us.

No one else.

Please don't tell me stories about them.

As I am already jealous the fact that they are by your side, while me?

Still stuck at the corner of my room writing you a message.

Please also don't post her on your story.

Or even tag her to a meme. You didn't even did that for me.

I was there first before her, remember?

Or did you already forgot about that too?

I hate all of you for going forward without me.

I hate seeing you laugh so genuinely when I still can't even be with someone without comparing them to you.

I hate how you posts about her.

I hate how you tag her on your posts.

I hate you with her.

Why can't it just be me?