You're Not My Mate

Aurelia POV I throw myself onto my back on the grass. I can feel the sun shining down on me, and the heat coming from it hitting my face. I know I have about 2 minutes before someone runs out here to bug me, and I just really wanted to enjoy the peace of being outside in the sun without anyone bothering me. “Hey Aurelia! How are you?” I lift my sunglasses down slightly to see my very best girl friend Lucia. I force a smile. “I’m good, how are you?” She rolls her eyes at me. “Girl, don’t disrespect me. I’ve been your friend since we were babies. What’s up?”  When I try and ignore her, she sits in front of me blocking the sunlight and lifts my sunglasses off my face. I groan and try to shoo her away. “Want me to get Junus?” She asks. I growl, the sound vibrating through my chest. “There’s that Alpha gene in you.” She laughs. Lucia is the only daughter of the Beta and Beta Female in our pack. And that had caused a lot of issues recently, because it means that there’s nobody to take over from our current Beta when the time comes. My oldest brother, Caesar, is next in line to be Alpha. And he’s going to have to choose a new Beta. Right now, this looks set to be my other brother, Felix, who’s just over a year older than me.  It made me sad because Lucia is amazing. She’s a kick-ass girl. Serious, yet one of the most loyal and trustworthy people I know. My father, the Alpha, along with her father, the Beta, even tried to look into our old readings, and talk to the Elders about Lucia taking over, but it was a resounding no. And I know it hurt. But, she did mate with the Gamma’s oldest son, Dominik on her 18th birthday. Which means she’ll be staying with the pack and she’ll still hold a ranking. Ugh. Mates. Just the thought of it makes me want to vomit or rip something up. I look Lucia up and down. She’s around 6 feet tall, slim and has the most perfect chestnut brown hair. I honestly don’t know how she does it. She can wake up every morning and look like a Goddess. So, of course I was glad she found her mate straight away. That was over a year ago now, and they still go at it like rabbits. Everywhere. There’s no escaping from them. And I’m definitely jealous. I sigh and sit up next to her. “Is this still because you both ended up not being mates?” She asks, the concern on her face. I turn to face her. “I was sure it was him. So sure. I’ve felt it all these years. But.. nothing. No pull. Not my mate. And now I’m going to be 19 and I’m the only one around here with no mate!” I huff, throwing my hands in the air. Lucia laughs. “You are not the only one. Junus hasn’t found anyone! And your brother Felix!” Just as she says his name, he comes bounding over. “You had to, didn’t you?” I glare at her. She chuckles. Felix is my second oldest brother, and although he’s 20, he still hasn’t met his mate. Everyone keeps using this as a comfort. But if anything, it makes me feel even more nervous. Felix is one of the most attractive men in our pack. He’s not quite 6 foot tall, but he has a huge build. He has black short curly hair, just like my father. His skin is slightly tanned from all the time he spends outdoors training. And he has these blue eyes that are like whirlpools. And he still hasn’t found his mate.  I turn just in time to see him run over and jump over me, knocking me backwards. “Hey little pup. How we doing?” His foot is on my shoulder and I knock it off. “Seriously? How am I supposed to find a mate when I have you ruining my reputation?” I ask, giving him a kick in the ribs. “OW! You brat!” He shouts at me, bringing a light growl to the surface. “FELIX!” I hear my mother scream. He pretends to pout and then sticks his tongue out at me. “Good one, brat.” And his eyes cloud over, obviously mind-linking with our mother. I can just imagine the screams he’s hearing right now as his eyes wince. His eyes come back to look at us, he rolls them briefly and then heads off to wherever my mother is calling him from. “Come on, we still have to finish plans for your birthday, why don’t we do that?” Lucia asks. I lay down on my front and I grab my phone, scrolling through f*******:. “What’s the point? I’ve met every wolf possible. Why is this birthday going to be any different?” She rolls her eyes. “Girl, stop your whining. You’re only going to be 19. Goddess give me strength.” Before she can carry on, her eyes cloud over again. “Gotta go. Apparently I’m being requested by my father.” She shrugs at me, patting me shoulder gently before heading off. I sigh and lay back down to take advantage of the peace again and that’s when I can smell him. I try and avoid smiling - I’m supposed to be in a bad mood. I can hear him lay down next to me. This is one of the things I love and hate about being a werewolf. Those heightened senses. “Hey Boo, how you doing?” Junus. My Juno. My best friend. Although I always tell Lucia he’s my best guy friend, honestly, he’s my best friend. And I honestly believed he was going to be my soulmate. He’s the youngest son of the Gamma and we’ve grown up together all our lives. He’s 6 foot 2 and has the most amazing sun-kissed skin. He has sandy blonde hair, that he lets grow and sweeps across his head. And then he has the most amazing blue eyes. I swear they sparkle in the sun. When I turned 18, I was waiting for the whole ‘mate’ thing that everyone talked about. I felt nothing. Well that’s not exactly true. I did feel all the things. But I didn’t feel a special pull to Junus. Just the bond we’ve always shared. My mother told me to wait until he turned 18 when he was old enough and then maybe the mating would happen. Our whole pack believed we were meant to be together. So when Junus turned 18, I went all out. Bought the most amazing dress. My mother did my hair and make-up. Without being big-headed, I looked a million dollars. I remember how excited I was, and I walked into the room to find Junus. He hunted me out and... Our faces dropped. There was no pull. He wasn’t my mate. I cried. Ugly cried. Why would the Moon Goddess not choose us to be mates? Thinking back to that moment hurt. I couldn’t be near him for the first few days after it. That was 3 weeks ago. While I was busy thinking, I forgot to even reply to him. When he grabbed my hand to squeeze it, it brought me back to reality. “I thought we were good now, Boo? You know I’m disappointed too.” And he squeezes my hand again. I sigh and roll over on my side to look at him next to me. “I’m fine. Just, you know.” I pull a pouting face and shrug. I had dreams of us spending the rest of our lives together. And now, everything just felt wrong. And scary. What do you do when the life you have had planned for the last 8 years goes belly shaped? Yep. 8 years. 8 years I’ve been dreaming of spending the rest of my life with Junus. Dreaming of him being my mate. “Do you remember your 11th birthday?” He asks interrupting my thoughts, laying down with his arm wrapped over his eyes. I knew what he was getting at. But I was going to make him work for it. “Hmm. Most of it.” He shakes his head, chuckling. “Boo, you know you do. You have the best memory out of this whole pack!” This is true. Werewolves in the Alpha bloodline are not only bigger, stronger, more powerful, we can also hold special abilities. Mine has always been my memory. It felt lame, but it was something, I guess. Apparently, when I find a mate, this will enhance. But I don’t really know how it can enhance. And I’ll probably never find out. I turn back to lay on my front and lean on my elbows. “Remember when I brought you those sweets, and I spent ages looking through them and pulled out a gummy ring? And I proposed?” I burst out laughing. “Of course I remember. You told me that when I turned 18 you were going to do lots of naughty things to me too!” And watching his usual perfect complexion turn red, I couldn’t contain myself. I laugh so much, I can feel tears streaming down my face. He reaches over and whacks my arm so that it gives way and I face plant the grass. “Juno!” I shout at him and sit back up. “You know, you are the ONLY person on this planet, who is allowed to call me that. That will always be our thing.” He warns me, and I grin back at him. Werewolves are known to be very s****l creatures. And it’s very apparent when you look around in our family home. My father always had certain rules about getting too s****l in front of kids. So when members of our pack used to get a little bit too carried away, they would say that they were going to do naughty things. And so when we were kids, me and Juno always said that we were going to do naughty things to each other. Honestly, we thought that naughty things were just kisses and tickles. How wrong we were. “You know, I’ve been thinking.. What if you find someone at your birthday?” He asks, turning to look at me. I shake my head, sighing. “I won’t. I’m destined to be alone. I think I did something wrong in a past life and the Moon Goddess punished me by dangling you in front of me and not giving you to me.” I sigh and try to avoid looking at him. He turns back to look at me. “I wish you were my mate too. Let’s make a deal. No matter what happens, we’ll always have each other.” He grabs my chin and pulls it close to him and kisses my cheek. I can feel the warmth radiating from his lips and sigh. Why? Why couldn’t he be my mate? He’s perfect for me. Junus lays back on the grass and I crawl over to lay on his outspread arm. He wraps his arm around me and I fall asleep, dreaming of a world where me and Junus could be together. I wake up quickly, and something catches my head before it hits the floor. I look up and Junus is up standing in a defence stance. I stand up and he grabs me, pulling me behind him. Junus never goes into this stance unless he feels like he’s being threatened. Just then I can hear my father mind-link us.  “JUNUS, GET HER IN HERE NOW!”  Before I can even cut the mind link, Junus scoops me up and runs back into the house and up to my father’s office. “Alpha, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have fallen asleep. I’ve looked through the area and I can’t sense anything out there. What happened? Why are they here?” Junus rushes out. I raise an eyebrow. Junus sounded like an official Gamma. But when his father steps down, Dominik is set to take over. So, what happens then? And Dominik is for sure going to fight for that position.  My father clears his throat. “Junus, at ease. Aurelia, go to your room please.” I blink and look around. Of course my 2 brothers are here, as well as my mother, the Luna, the Beta, Beta Female, Gamma, Gamma Female, and Arabella, my oldest brother’s mate. “Of course. God help the weak link hear something scary.” I mutter and storm out of the room, slamming the door shut behind me. I hated being the youngest. I hated being the girl of the family. And at times, I hated being an Alpha bloodline. I look across at my room and shake my head and storm back downstairs to the kitchen. “Hello, Aurelia.” Our chef, Cain, greets me on arrival. I try to suppress my groan. “Bloody Alpha” I murmur as I throw myself onto a seat and watch Cain whizz around the kitchen. He fetches me over a tub of mint chocolate ice-cream with a spoon, winks and heads back to cooking. I smile. “Thanks Cain, you’re the best.” He chuckles, stirring whatever is in his pot. “Don’t tell anyone, but you are my favourite.” He calls over to me. It’s my turn to chuckle now. “Food smells good. What are we having?” I love food. It’s another werewolf thing. We’re always on the go, so we burn through way more calories than is normal. But my hunger is another level. Food is life to me. Our pack chef is amazing. He has to cook for all of us who live in this house. And that’s no easy task. You have my father, the Alpha, and my mother, the Luna, with us 3 kids. Plus my brother Caesar’s mate. My mother and father have the entire top floor of the house. The next floor down is for Caesar and Arabella, Felix and then me. The next floor down belongs to the Beta and Gammas. Our Beta is Gallus, and his female is Martina. They only ever had 1 child, which isn’t really that common for werewolves. But their only child is my best girl friend, Lucia. Then there’s our Gamma, Avitus and the Gamma Female, Marcella. They have 2 sons Dominik and Junus. Things were definitely interesting when Lucia and Dominik were mated. But everyone was overjoyed. Cain has to cook for all of these. Plus he’s tasked with cooking for the staff of the house too.  There’s about 400 of us in our wolf pack; The Emerald Moon. The rest live in small cottages around our land. We are the largest pack in Florida. And the 4th largest out of the whole United States. And my father, as Alpha, and his line of fathers before him, have worked tirelessly to gain us a very respectable reputation.  And everyone plays a role, expect me. Being the youngest daughter of the Alpha, means there’s really no role here for me. I guess that was another blow when I didn’t mate with Juno. Because that means if I ever do mate.. It’ll most likely mean I leave this house. And the pack. And that means leaving Juno. And, what about when Juno finds his mate? I don’t think I could handle it.  About 10 minutes later, someone sneaks behind me, picks me up and then settles me back down on their lap. I’d know those hands anywhere. Juno. I scoop up some ice cream in my spoon and offer it behind me, which he gladly eats. “Are you going to tell me what’s going on?” I ask, offering him another spoonful. Juno doesn’t reply. I roll my eyes, scoot down off his lap and give him the spoon. “Knock yourself out.” I say flatly, and walk out of the kitchen. I head up to my bedroom, sit on my bed and pull out my diary. It’s a tradition I’ve had since I was about 13. Everyday I write in it. It helps me get my feelings out on the page. I’m busy writing until I’m disturbed by a knock on the door. One sniff and I know it’s Juno. Before I can move, he just bursts in with a plate of chocolate fudge brownies and vanilla ice-cream. I throw my diary into the corner of the room, but he doesn’t miss it. His eyes wince, glaring at me. “Peace offering?” He asks, walking over with the plate. I eye up the brownies and ice-cream and let out a sigh but nod. He smiles and closes the door behind him. He puts the plate and spoons on the bedside table, climbs under the covers in bed and gestures to me. I crawl under and sit next to him. We put on the cheesiest cartoon we can find and sit and eat together. “Do you think, maybe, we are mates? But it doesn’t feel as powerful because we’ve always been close?” I ask him. He turns and breathes in my hair. “Maybe. I know your scent anywhere. I can feel your presence everywhere. When you’re sad, I’m sad...” He trails off. I lift my hand and stroke his face. “Do you love me?” I ask. I have my plan, and I know how I’ll get what I want. “Of course, I’ll always love you” he says. He kisses my cheek, and I climb up, turn around, straddle his lap and look him straight in the eyes. “If you really love me, you’d want to see me happy, right?” I ask him. His eyes and nose wrinkle, eyeing me up suspiciously. “You know I always want you to be happy, Boo..” He trails off while I smile sweetly and nod at him. “So, what was said in the meeting?” “Oh, no, no!” He warns, chuckling and trying to push me back. We may not be mates, but that didn’t stop us doing anything. I had on just a white t-shirt and loose, thin shorts. I knew how to play a man to get what I wanted. I smile at him sweetly and start to rotate my hips, grinding against him. “Oh no, stop, stop, stop!” He warns, trying to push me off. I smile sweetly, and flutter my eyelashes at him. “Do you really want me to stop?” I ask, pushing down hard. “AURELIA!” He shouts and groans at the same time. I grin. “If you want the torture to end.. You could just tell me what I want to know.” I flutter my eyelashes again. He pulls me in for a kiss and I can feel the passion in his mouth. Me and Juno had always gone back and fore here. We’d never had s*x. We just like to play around with each other. But, I’d never be against the idea. He is the man of my dreams. Maybe I’m right with the mating thing.. “This is torture when you know I can’t have you! Please stop.” He whines, closing his eyes and leaning back. He raises his hips against me so that I can feel his bulge, and I know he doesn’t really want me to stop. I lean down and unzip his jeans, sliding them off him, and start to grind again. “Maybe you can have me..” I say. His eyes turn black with lust. I know I’ve got him where I want him. “Why don’t you call Luca to the front?” I ask. Luca is his wolf. But we can have our wolves take over our bodies in human form too. Their personalities are usually a little rougher.. And less civilised. I know I could work Luca around my little finger right now. “Not a chance. Luca would give you anything.” My eyes light up. “Isn’t that what mates are?” I ask. He smiles sweetly, and pulls me in for a gentle kiss, pushing his tongue into my mouth. I let my fingers glide up and down his d**k slowly, and then I push down on him hard. “f**k, Boo. OK!” I grin. “Please.” I beg, batting my eyelashes. He sighs, and tries to pick me up, but I put my arms across my chest and shake my head. He rolls his eyes. “No funny business. You know I can’t deny a direct order from the Alpha. But I can tell you some parts.” I groan, I hate that part of the rule right now. Whatever an Alpha commands, his pack have to follow. “Ok, so, there’s another pack who appeared in the area. The Sapphire Moon pack. They’re a very big pack. They’re the 2nd biggest in the US.. But they aren’t far behind being the 1st. They’ve been coming closer to our land the last few weeks but we aren’t sure why. Today one come much closer. Your father held a meeting and has reached out to the Alpha, so, we will go from there. Nothing to worry about. Your father just didn’t want you out there alone.” He holds my cheeks and looks into my eyes to check how I’m feeling. Ever since we were kids he swore he could tell how I was really feeling by looking into my eyes. “Thank you. I just wanted some truth.” I climb off him, sit next to him and pick up a brownie to eat. “Oh not a chance, Boo!” He laughs as he comes to sit in front of me. He pulls my legs down to make my lay on the bed and rips my t-shirt in 2, then unbuckles my bra and throws it away. He is so hot when he uses his strength. Then, he picks up a spoon of almost melted ice cream and puts it in his mouth, and drips it out of his mouth down my body, all the way to just above my shorts. I squirm under the cold feeling of my body. He pulls down my shorts, and grins up at me. “No underwear, again?” He asks, wiggling his eyebrows. I laugh and wriggle my body against the cool feeling of the ice-cream. He winks, flashes me his tongue and then licks up all the ice-cream off my body, twirling and swirling his tongue, circling my n*****s.  I’m wet. Soaking wet. I want him. And need him, right now. I know the tradition is that we’re supposed to wait for our mate. But, I think he’s my mate and the Moon Goddess is just confused. “Wait, wait. Did you lock the door?” I ask. He looks at me, jumps up, rushes over to lock the door and comes back. The last thing we need is for anyone to catch us. He goes back to circling my n*****s with his tongue as I run my hands through his hair. He smells like a campfire, and I love it. Like when you’re sat toasting marshmallows. I can smell him a mile away. He clamps down his teeth onto my n****e and a moan escapes my lips. Thank Goddess all of these rooms are sound proofed. He proceeds to lick back down my body, and as he gets lower.. He sits back, taking my foot and licking my foot, down my leg, slowly, and just before he reaches between my legs, he stops again. I moan in torture. He does the same to the other leg and I growl. Crimson, my wolf, is pacing around my head. She’s frustrated. She wants to wait for our mate, she’s always torn and she hates that. So do I, because it’s me that she goes in a strop with. “Just, do it!” I breathe out at him. He licks his lips, leans forward, sticks his tongue in my mouth and kisses me, then jumps up off the bed. My mouth falls open. “Where are you going?” “Oh Boo, you can’t keep getting information out of me by teasing me. So, I’m just going to leave you hanging.” I glare at him. “No, no, no, come back. I need you.” He shakes his head, chuckling. “I’ll let you f**k me.” I say. I swear I can see his d**k twitch through his pants and his eyes go dark again. I know this would be music to his ears. He shakes his head, walks back over to the bed and climbs on top of me, his face right in front of mine. “I’ll make you a deal. If you don’t find your mate by your 19th birthday, I promise, I will screw you so hard you can’t walk.” A growl rips through my chest. That is a good deal. “DEAL” I growl at him.  He smiles, lays on his back with his head next to my feet and pulls me on top of him. My mouth ends up right by his d**k that’s straining his pants. This is my favourite part. “I want you SO much!” He says roughly, before throwing his face between my legs. Oh my Goddess, he is amazing with that tongue. I pull his d**k out of his pants and it stands tall. All 9 inches of it. And it’s amazing. I put it into my mouth and start to suck, up and down, while playing with his balls. I can hear his moans, and he thrusts his hips up going deeper into my mouth. I take all of him into my mouth, down my throat and suck, hollowing my cheeks and caressing his balls. He uses his tongue to lick up and down, before sucking my c**t over and over. This sends me into overdrive and my moans are almost impossible to keep quiet. He sticks his tongue inside me and uses the base of his thumb to rub my c**t over and over. The pleasure is out of this world. “c*m for me, Boo. CUM.” He swaps places, sticking 2 of his fingers inside of me, and licking my c**t over and over, sucking it, before forcing a third finger inside me. He pulls them in and out fast and hard and it’s enough to send me over the edge. As he starts to curl his fingers, I c*m, all over him and scream. I squeeze his balls and the bottom of his d**k while I moan and the vibrations are enough to send him over the edge. “f**k!” He moans as he explodes his juices down my throat. I keep swallowing, making sure to lick up all of his juices. I climb off him, turn around, and lay on his chest. “Your mouth is magic!” He breaths, pulling me closer to him. “I swear, I can’t wait to f**k you senseless.” His words are enough to make me wet again. I almost offer round 2 before I get a mind link from my brother, Felix.  Sis, put him down and come to dad’s office. I groan. Felix is the only one who knows what’s going on. And that’s only because he always says he can smell it. Two minutes, let me wash. For f**k’s sake, sis. Seriously?! He wants him here too. I grin. “We need to shower quick, dad wants us both in his office.” “Oh f**k” he says, his face glum. “We’re busted aren’t we?” He asks. I shrug. “We’re not doing anything wrong.” I say, as I head to the bathroom, naked. I turn back to him and wink. “Want to share a shower with me?” I ask. He shakes his head, laughing. “You’ve gotten me in enough trouble already. Hurry up and get my scent off you.” I grin and jump into the shower quick. He jumps in after me while I quickly dry my hair and tie it up into a bun. I head to my walk-in closet and get changed into a summer dress that shows off just enough of my cleavage. I figure I might as well have a bit of fun with him still and I put on a pair of pink high heels that I know he loves. Junus walks out of the bathroom area naked. I hate when he does this to me. Such a tease. “Juno!” I scold him and he laughs. He picks up his clothes from earlier and gets dressed and then we head out of the room and down to my father’s  office. He wraps his arm around my shoulder, like we always walk around and we walk in.