Chapter 5: MessageThe effect of this encounter on him was what in someone else might have been called loss of confidence. In Garner it took the form of combined mortification and intense curiosity. His mind churned over possible implications.
He was bothered by his own loss of self-control, and his intruding on another person in such an intimate and powerful way. Nevertheless, he was also aware that the kid had been an active participant, for there had been a clear feedback loop of s****l arousal—which left out any possibility of non-consensual s*x. Still, it was s*x—with a stranger, and in public. And what made it worse was its intoxicating intensity, the memory of which haunted him even now.
And it was totally different from his single s****l experience with Alonzo. That had been warm,
