WAITING UNTIL MARRIAGE
CASSIDY'S POV
Wheew! It's Thursday today how I wish that it was Friday. I have been working my ass off the whole week. It seems like it doesn't want to end, and I'm tired.
" Hey Cassie, have you decided what you're doing this weekend?". Nathan asked.
Nate is my boyfriend, and yes, I'm still a young woman. Why shouldn't I get myself a boyfriend when he was available and hot as hell?
I was new in a strange city, with no familiar faces. He was the only one with a friendly face that I wanted to look at every day.
Nate is every girl's crush. He's tall and skinny with a gorgeous smile, and he has short blonde hair and blue eyes that captivated my soul the first time I met him at one of the work events. I don't know what he was doing there but I'm glad he came. I knew that day that I liked him. I wanted to get to know him. It turns out he was thinking the same, we started going out, and one thing led to another, and now we have been dating for five years; I think I love him. I could see my future with him with our little blonde kids and a massive house, ohh s**t! I love him.
" No, I'm not sure," I answered, smiling at him.
" Great! you should come home with me." He said, grinning. Ohh, meeting the parents? that's new; he never introduced me to his parents, but then I didn't mind since I never introduced him to mine, and I would never, not now anyway. Maybe I could wait another five or more years to introduce him. I'm not ready.
" I'm sorry, babe, but I still have to work. I can't go with you," I answered with a small smile, and he just frowned.
" I have been telling you to stop working, and I will take care of everything you need."
As much as I like the sound of that, I would like to be treated like a queen, and his father is wealthy. When he gives Nate his monthly allowance, it's like he's buying a two-story house. I almost fainted when I saw a bank notification while I was playing candy crush on his cellphone, I didn't even care that a 28-year-old man was still getting an allowance, I just focused on the numbers that were on the screen.
Just thinking about it, I could feel my hands sweating. If I could get an amount of money like that, I would go store to store buying everything I like but don't even need, but then I couldn't do that to him.
"Haha, I like having something to do so that I won't start nagging you when I have nothing else to do. As much as I love being with you, I'm afraid I can't stop working". I answered, smiling warmly at him.
" Okay, then, can you at least promise you will visit me on weekends?". He asked as his eyes lit up with excitement.
" Mm, I promise," I answered, grinning at him, but I was panicking inside. What if his parents are also Christians like him? He's a little better, but when it comes to parents, they are doing the most, like being deep. I should look for places that sell Bibles. Where will I even start looking for them? do churches sell Bibles? Well they need money, so they might be selling them, ohh no I can look for the bible app. Nate has it on his phone, I can download it then I will memorize a few chapters no not chapters, verses or just quotes, no titles will be better when his parents start asking me questions that I don't know, I will just answer with a little, I'm a committed girlfriend, I don't need anyone to tell me that.
" Okay then, so that you know, my parents are also Christians, but don't worry, they won't judge you or say anything bad about you not being a believer as long as you just show them your awesome self". He said like he was just reading my thoughts, even though he said that I'm memorizing a whole chapter, so at least they won't be disappointed in their son's choice.
" Okay, then let's go?". He said, smiling.
" What this weekend? Let's make it next weekend, please. " I answered I had a lot of laundry to do and I needed to at least look like a mature woman who could take care of herself, right now I didn't even want to think about how I looked. also I hadn't washed my hair. The whole week, it doesn't look bad though, but if I'm planning on meeting his parents, I should look presentable.
" Okay, no problem, see you next weekend then." He answered, hugging me and kissing me on the lips, but it was only just a peck before going to his car.
That's the only thing that has happened between us for the past five years: hugging and kissing on the forehead. Sometimes he kisses me on the cheek when he sleeps over. Oh, ohh sometimes it's a peck on the lips when he is excited about something, just like right now. He reminds me of what my mom used to do to my little brothers, and it always angered them. They would wipe the spot she kissed, which is precisely what I feel like doing. I mean, why bother adding items to the cart when you won't pay for them?
I know I sound like I'm complaining, but no, I'm not. It's like watching my celebrity crush on the television and just fantasizing about him while knowing nothing will ever happen, but then I like spooning with Jeff when my hormone levels are high, especially around the time when my periods are close, ohh and the time when I'm ovulating.
Fuck! We would spoon the whole night like a fucken virgin. Well he is a virgin.
One night I had enough so I just talked to him, well I asked if was there anything wrong with me but then he just said he was waiting until marriage, it's been five years now, I don't know when this marriage will happen.
To say nothing but the truth, I'm not working on weekends, and it's just that I'm tired of spooning. I just want to stay in my place, alone, and enjoy my comfort zone.
I'm now thinking about my comfort zone. I can buy an engagement ring for Nate and just propose to him. It's the 21st century now. Everything is possible. He loves me, and I love him, so I don't see anything wrong with that.