Purple Scent

Ch. 14: Use With Lust

Sweat trickled from my face, as I sat there staring at the empty, messy room. There were woods patched at the window, sunlight wasn't even possible to come through. I panted, I was just there, lying. I stared at my hands and feet tied within the corners of the bed.

"Anyone there?", I asked, my voice was hoarse, and my throat was as dry as the desert. The door opened gradually enough for Yul to pop his head a peek inside. "Can I get some water, please?", I asked while my voice cracked but he nodded his head.

I laid back on the bed and looked up at the ceiling with heavy breaths. I closed my eyes and gulped the only saliva I had on my throat. There it goes again. Ugh, I hate this feeling.

When I heard Yul's footsteps near me, I said, "Wait. Stop there. Stay there for a while.", I said and glanced at him and closed my eyes again. Hallucinations has been appearing on my mind right now and I don't want Yul to get hurt if ever.

How long has it been? One week? Two weeks? I don't even remember. All I could ever think was, to think straight, and never let the voices inside of my head devour me. But I don't know how long I could hold it in. I know that Harpy's blood has been running through my system and it's somewhere on my blood brain barrier. If that blood successfully get through it, I'll become one of the Violet Harpies.

It was silent, all I could here is my whimper, and uneasy breathing. The bed creaked, which made me flutter my eyes open, only to see Yul looking at me with concern eyes.

"I told you to stay there.", I said when his scent lingered through my nose. Ugh, it's driving me crazy. He helped me up, and all I could feel is my heart beat beating so fast I thought it had gone immortal. He helped me drink up the water, while I was glaring flames at him. At this moment, if he won't go away, I might become that monster in no time and kill him.

"Yul.", my voice was still hoarse—despite the water that had moisturized my dry throat—and he just looked into my eyes. "I told you to stay there. You don't know what I am thinking about right now. And that thought is driving me crazy it feels like it'll kill me.", I confessed and he was surprised at my words.

I need to control myself, if I wouldn't, there's a possibility I might kill him.

It got more tensed, when he stoke my hair back from falling messily on my face, and checked my temperature by putting his palm on my forehead. That's it, I wasn't able to control myself.

As if I've gone five times stronger, I snapped one of the strap from my foot which they managed to use to tie me up, and in one movement, I hooked one of my legs on his waist to pull him closer. At this time, it was beyond my control.

"Yul.", I called him—that was the very least I could speak—when he gasped, and he was drawn closer to me. The glass had fell over behind me, as I was breathing more heavily than before. I should do something while I can still think straight.

Yul was frozen there, as his hands were pinned on my sides. There's a loud voice inside my head saying I should bite every inch of him and eat him. My hands were shaking, I don't know what to do. While this stupid kid isn't even pushing me away.

Before I could even really eat him, I didn't have the choice but to trick my own mind. I pulled him closer with my legs, and started kissing him. It was rough, and it should be like that. I didn't have the choice, he's not helping either. He didn't even have a plan to run away from me.

Yul was taken aback by my sudden move that I know he didn't expect from me. I need to think of lust, that's all I can do for now. For me to avert my mind on different things. Which is crazy because there's probably different way but all I could do is this.

There was a tickling feeling on my stomach, which I thought was a success since the voice on my head is starting to turn down. What surprised me was when Yul held my cheeks in between his palm and drew me closer for him to kiss me, more deeper.

And it helped, since now all I could think was the kiss, his soft and warm lips on mine. But I never realized that the longer the kiss goes, the more it gets out of hand. It was when Yul's kiss trailed from my lips, down to my neck, and toppled over me. That woke me up.

I kicked Yul with my free foot and he was bewildered by my action. I didn't have the intention to make it go any further. I just did kiss him to save him.

Now that there's no single thought about killing him, the kiss started to fill up my mind. It was embarrassing. Yul looked up at me with confused eyes.

"I'm sorry. Please get out for now.", I stuttered and Yul being embarrassed himself, left the room silently and closed the door. I sighed in relief.

I should probably explain it to him later if I'll get better.

Don't get me wrong, I just really did that to avert my thoughts from killing him to lust. If you don't know, there's a part of our brain that has something to do with our feeling lust. And I used that way to avert my thoughts before I could kill him and become a monster.

I just hope I didn't sound offensive or something.

Somehow, I felt normal. I sat up and yelled, "Hey, anyone there?", and this time it was Younghoon who came inside. There. There's no thought of killing anyone now.

I want to do something to prove this, but I was afraid to risk Younghoon. But there's just one thing to do.

"Younghoon, I need you to do something for me.", I said and he nodded as the others peeked through the doors, too. Right timing.

"What happened to Yul hyung, though? He was really shocked and he's just laughing all by himself. His face was red.", Jaewook innocently asked and I just cleared my throat from embarrassment.

"Forget that. Just do me a favor. I want you to open that door wide for you to easily run outside. Untie me, and run away outside as fast as possible.", I said and Younghoon nodded, obliged.

Hyunki and Doyun decided to help Younghoon by untying the other strings from my wrists, and just like how I instructed them, they ran away outside.

There's nothing I could feel right now but the thirst and hunger, this time it was for food. Real food. I stared into my hands and dazed.

Did I become normal?