Her thoughts

Do you ever feel so lonely, yet so crowded? Like you want to cry but the tears only come when they aren’t supposed to? Like there are so many voices shouting yet it’s somehow quiet? Like you want to disappear yet you’re afraid to? Like you want to sleep and never wake up, yet there are so many things you want to do? Like you want some kind of motivation, but in reality, you know it won’t work? You want to be happy, but painful memories remind you constantly you don’t deserve it? You remind yourself to be strong but everyone surrounding you tells you you’re weak? You give yourself a positive view about yourself but society says otherwise? Do you want to fit in but your fear and anxiety prevent you from doing so? You want to let go and be free but you’re afraid of the judging stares and looks? You want to scream for everything to stop but you don’t know what it is that has to stop? Do you want to run away but have nowhere yet everywhere to go? You want to relax but your thoughts constantly tell every reason you shouldn’t? You want to wear whatever you want but you don’t want to be told: “this is what you wanted” as you fight back with everything you’ve got?  -My Thoughts-