Erina's Curse (ENGLISH VERSION)

Chapter 20.1

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“Someone dmed me on i********: asking for another someone…...”

Kesha exclaimed. Her brows are wiggling playfully as she waves her phone in front of my face. We were having a break from rehearsals and we’re all sitting at the side of the studio where we can rest our backs in the wall behind. Because of Kesha’s continuous irritating banters at me, we caught the other girls’ attention.

I’m completely aware that she’s talking about me and Silas whom I haven’t been taking to for five days now. I don’t have the patience to answer any of his text messages or calls. He ignored me for weeks and now just five days and he’s already bombarding my friends? That’s so out of character for him because he’s usually a quiet and reserved person. How dare him ask if I’m okay when he’s the reason of my ugly cries every f*****g night?  

“Just tell him to stop bothering you and give his attention to his co-star,” I failed to restrain myself as I shouted at Kesha because she keeps on suggesting that I should talk to that man.

“Chill,” Kesha put her hands up as a sign of her defeat. Finally.

Eventually, the dance instructor called us to continue our practice. I don’t want to talk generally but most importantly; I don’t want to talk about him.

After the dance rehearsal, we were called to the conference room to watch a presentation for music video concept. The management wanted to release the album together with the music video of the title track. A lot of people have been presenting and talking nonstop, but my f*****g mind is somewhere else. Leina’s pinching me already, maybe she noticed that I wasn’t listening but to no vail. I just want to go home. And sleep.

I’m hurting. And I thought that the comeback would distract me from all the pain but well, I’m still here, stuck and hurt because of a f*****g man.

After the meeting, we immediately go home. I ate quietly not responding every time I was ask random questions by the girls. After taking a bath, I decided to sleep without drying my hair. I won’t die with this, don’t worry. Tiring myself out from practice really helps my sleep. Because I’m tired, I don’t have the time to think about other things and just go straight to bed and knock myself out.

To be honest, there are a lot of good news coming our way these past few days. The collaboration I did with Nathan has been really gaining high ratings and places from music charts. When our comeback was announced, the public response was really good. I’m trying hard to smile and actually be happy for all the success we’re receiving, but it pains me more how one man can ruin everything for me. I should be happy! I should be celebrating! But here I am, drowning in pain. I hate him. And I hate myself more.

I really thought he’s the one. I thought that we are ‘it’. That’s what I thought. I was wrong again.

The next day, Nathan and I recorded the acoustic version of our song. We also recorded the back track for our future live performances. We lost track of time and I wasn’t able to attend to GreyArea’s rehearsal anymore.

“You’re not coming with us? Again?”

Raqi asked when we reached the parking lot. I rode my car when I go to work so I’ll use the same car to go home. And besides, I have another agenda for the day.

“I need to stop by somewhere,” I smiled then we get in in our own cars.

I maneuvered the car towards the entrance of the parking lot. There’s moderate traffic so my driving was really slow. But that gave me time to think so I guess that it’s fine. When I reach Silas’s condo, I wore my sunglasses first before going out of the car. Thankfully, I was alone in the elevator and no one get in for the next floors, so the ride was smooth. I knew his condo’s passcode because I stay here whenever I’m not busy. But even if I’m busy, I really try hard to spare our relationship some time. Why can’t he do the same?

The whole place is quiet and it’s obvious that no one is around. As far as I know, Silas won’t be back until Monday so I’m quite confident to come here and get my guitar which I left the last time I was here. It’s the same guitar that I use in writing songs and I can’t seem to write new songs if I use other guitars. It’s crazy I know, but I’m familiar with this specific guitar so I really need to retrieve it. I went straight to the restroom that I used to use. When I saw the guitar on top of the bed, I immediately got it and went straight out of the bedroom door ready to leave the place at once.

“Erina….”

What the f**k? He’s not supposed to be here.

He was wearing a plain white shirt and jeans. A cardigan was hanging in his shoulders. I tried to restrain myself, but I wasn’t able to avoid staring at his face. He looks weary, his dark circles are visible under his eyes, he looked like he hasn’t sleep for days. His hair is messy, and it looked like it hasn’t been brushed but he still looked like some model.

I fought the urge to hug him tight when I remembered his photos with Suzy.

No.

I immediately averted my gaze and walked my way towards the door. I love him but I’m not stupid enough to tolerate cheating. If he wanted to be with someone else, then he can go. If he wanted to be somewhere else, then I don’t give a f*****g care.

“Hon, wait!”

When he blocked my way, my anger rose again. Hon? Where is that voice when I needed him the most?

“Go away.”

“No.”

“Just go.”

“Hon! Talk to me please…...I was dead worried for the last week. I contacted your friends and they said that you were fine but why are you not responding to any of my texts?”

I tried to breathe deep. Inhale…exhale……inhale……exhale……

“Talk. I’m giving you five minutes to talk and that starts now,” I looked him straight in the eye with my poker face. I’m trying to be rational here.

“I’m guessing you saw the pictures but that’s just for publicity. The kiss and whatever they release, it was a promotional step love. Please believe me,” he said with pleading eyes.

“Do you think I’m stupid?” I asked tears almost falling down my cheeks. He immediately shook his head in disagreement.  

“Of course, not love…”

“Then why do you think I was mad because of that f*****g kiss?! I perfectly understand your work Silas! I’m not stupid! I know that it’s inevitable for you to have scenes like that but what I can’t understand is why do you have to be with her even after the shoot? You have time for her, but you can’t spare me, your girlfriend even a minute?”

I wasn’t able to stop my tears from falling. I fell down the floor and he kneeled to hug me. I tried to push him, but he was just too strong.

“It’s not what you think love…...”

He was murmuring sweet nothings while caressing my hair.

“A-And do you know how it feels hearing people how good you look together? That you should be together in real life. It sucks that no matter how hurt I am, I can’t even call you to talk. I can’t even ask your colleagues because they didn’t know a thing about us. It sucks to be just your secret girlfriend…...”

I tried to tell him everything I feel but it was hard speaking while crying so hard. It’s hard to speak when you’re hurting. It’s so hard to multitask because at that time, all I wanted was to cry my hearts out.

“I know love, I understand. I want to let the world know how much I’m in love with you too,” he said while drying my tears with his thumb and looking me deeply in the eyes.

I can’t remember what happened but one moment I was crying and then the next we were both naked and he was already carrying me to his room.

“What the f**k did you just do Silas Henry Kim?”

I tried to turn sideways to find my brassiere that he threw away like it was some rock he found in a road, but instead I arched my back when he bit one of my n*****s.

His lips traveled from my breast to my neck while his two hands massaged my mounds. I bit my lower lip to stop myself from moaning, but he was just too good, and I cannot hold it any longer.

“Take me already…...”

I tried to speak clearly but I was breathless, and my voice sounded so slutty. When I spoke, he stopped kissing my neck and look me straight in the eye. My lips are slightly apart as I stared back. I thought that’s it but I squirmed when I felt his fingers caressing me down there.

“Is this okay?”

He asked as he pushed a finger inside. I felt a little pain, but it was bearable. The pleasure’s too much to even notice the pain. When I moaned again, I felt him insert two fingers, effectively stretching me. He pushed his fingers in and out while he sucked my breasts again.

“I’m coming…...”

My eyes are tightly shut because of what he’s making me feel but what he did next made me opened my eyes.

“Omg, what are you doing?!”

He kneeled on the bed while holding both my thighs. He kissed my legs, my inner thighs then I squirmed when I felt his tongue down there. I use my elbows to ush myself up and see what he’s doing to me. Omg……it felt so good.

“Ah….” I slumped on the bed again when he inserted his finger, mirroring the movements of his tongue. I groped his hair while he fondled me down there until I reached oblivion.

I felt my first release and I closed my eyes because it was so tiring. I felt him hovering on top of me then he kissed my forehead as I open my eyes.

“This is going to hurt….”

He said while putting condom on his thing. I pushed myself up using my elbows to see what he was doing. Oh…...it’s big. I will be totally wreck after this.

“I know, I studied biology and anatomy. I think…...”

He leaned towards me then led me to encircle my legs around his hips. His one hand on the side of my head while the other one started to fondle me again.

“Will you stop with your fingers? I want you already!”

He chuckled sexily before kissing me on the lips again. He removed his fingers then I felt his thing poking me.

I thought I was ready for the pain but when it finally happened, I couldn’t stop my tears.

“Shhh……I’m sorry love,” he kissed me deeply to distract me from the pain.

He was so still, and I can feel that he was trying not to move until I was ready. But I am. So, I held his waist to pull him down. It hurts more because he’s stalling. I feel like I was being stab down there. He looked at me and I nodded signaling him that it was okay for him to move.

He slowly pulled his shaft then pushed again. He was staring at me probably to observe my reactions. He was so gentle and I’m feeling impatient already. My hunger must have been reflected in my eyes because when he looked at me, his pace changed.

He was ramming himself in and out of me and the pain was slowly replaced by pleasure.

“f**k….”

He held my waist in place and f****d me hard and deep. I can see how his sweat run down the side of his face to his shoulders and chest. It was so sexy.

“I’m coming….” Again.

“I love you….”