Erina's Curse (ENGLISH VERSION)

Chapter 28.2

What he said stinged a lot. It burns but I tried to stay calm. “W-What?” I tried asking because maybe he was just joking but I think he misunderstood my question.

“Oh…... look Ian,” he laughingly looked at the other guy.  “The b***h is curious about what I just said. Are you wondering why I know that?” he said mockingly while looking at me like he wanted to strangle me.

“I have connections. So, am I right?”

I breathed deeply because I can feel that my tears are about to fall. So, they are angry. Of course, Silas is their friend. “N-No. I just want to leave Simba---”

“Oh please! We know that move little lady! You’re using the cat as an excuse!” he shouted angrily.

“N-No. I’m already leaving, and Simba is also Silas’ cat, so I thought---”

“Ha!” he scoffed. “You’re leaving and what? You want Silas to pity you? Stop messing with my friend you cunt! You should be thankful that you’re a girl and I don’t hit a girl. Because I swear to god, if I can, I’ll beat your pretty cunning face into a pulp!”

I felt the fear as I look at Ethan’s burning eyes. The look he’s giving me is like he’s really going to hurt me if I say something wrong. My tears started falling down my cheeks but the three of them are just looking at me like I’m the most disgusting human being they’ve ever encountered.

“What are you doing?”

We all looked at Silas’s direction when he suddenly spoke. I immediately wiped the tears in my cheeks because I saw that he was staring at me. His eyes burned my skin. I think I saw a glint of anger and worry in his eyes but of course, that’s just my imagination. He hates me now. He’s even mad at me.

“I-I’ll leave Simba here,” I said as I placed Simba’s things on the table in front of me. I was stuttering and trembling so bad. I just want to get out of the condo. “Here are his things. Thank you and sorry for disturbing you,” after I said that I started walking towards the door to finally get out.

“Erina wait---”

I heard him calling me, but I started to sob already, and I didn’t want him to see me like this, so I run. Unfortunately, the elevator is taking too long so I went to the emergency stairs. Even though is tarted having difficulty in breathing because of sobbing too much, I did not stop for one second.

Bu the time I reach the parking lot I was already panting, and my face is wet from the tears. I tried wiping my face because I couldn’t see where I’m going. When I finally spotted my car, I quickly run towards it, but I was startled when I saw a figure standing beside the passenger’s door.

It was Silas.

“Hey,” I tried smiling while wiping away the tears. “Did I forget something? I brought all of Simba’s things though,” I said while looking at my shoes. I can’t get myself to look at him because I’m ashamed. He made me promise not to see him again but here I am, disturbing his peace.

“What happened?” he asked.

“What do you mean?”

“A while ago. In the condo. With my friends,” I was startled when he asked that. Because I didn’t know what to say. I didn’t want to tell him what exactly happen because I didn’t want to sound whining, and if he ever believed whatever I say, I don’t want him to have any beef with his friends.

“Nothing. We were just talking,” I answered to be safe.

“So, you were crying for nothing? Seriously?” he asked as he raised his brows. I think he’s starting to get annoyed because of the expression on his face.

“It’s nothing Silas. I was just emotional these past few days. Anyway, I need to go. Thank you for your time,” I said as I slowly walked towards the car door. He was watching my every move and his mouth is opened like he wanted to say something, but he can’t.

“I’ll ask them later. Why don’t you just tell me now?” he finally uttered.

Well, that’s better. If they’re the one who’s going to tell him. If they twist the story, then it’s fine with me. My image is already so broken that I don’t think it can get any worse.

“It’s really nothing. It’s not worth your time,” I smiled while staring at his face. I want to memorize that beautiful perfect face. Because there’s a chance that it would be the last time that I’ll see him.

“Are you okay?” I was startled when he asked me that question. I saw that his face is relax and that he was genuinely curious about my answer.

“I am. And I hope you’re okay too.”

“I will be.”

“Goodbye Silas.”

“Goodbye Erina.”

And with that, I rode my car and drove far away from him. Far away from the love of my life. Away from the person who chose me. Away from my heart.

While driving that day, all I was thinking is for another chance. I was praying for a chance to meet him again. And if that comes true, I hope that he’ll be finally okay. I hope that we both will be okay. And if it’s not too much. Please give us another chance.  

“Are you sure honey? Don’t you want to travel? We can even go with you?”

Mom excitedly said as she put more food in my plate. Well, I don’t really know what I want for my birthday. I didn’t even think about it and I almost forgot about it if not for my mom who always remind me.

“Do you want to travel mom?” I asked her. Because if she wants to, then we can go. I don’t have any real plans so it would be fine if we can do what my family wants.

“Why are you asking me honey? It’s your birthday! It’s supposed to be your day so it should be you who we should consider,” she smilingly said trying to prove a point. “Oh! If you don’t want to travel, maybe we can just invite your friends here!” she excitedly exclaimed.

Friends…... I miss them so much. But we didn’t exactly parted ways on a good note.

“What? You’re leaving? What do you mean Erina?”

Sassy exclaimed. We were all gathered here in the living area because mom decided to bring Angelo to the mall. He’s starting to get bored because he’s here in the house all day. Uncle Loui attended some business gathering which is also one of the reasons why they decided to stay here longer.

“I’m not an H&H Artist anymore. They decided to cut me off,” I answered.

“They can do that!” Raqi angrily shouted. I can feel their frustrations, but I can’t do anything about it. I’m already decided. I want to leave. Immediately.

“They just did,” I replied coldly. I’m still in the middle of being shock and being emotional so I can’t really tell if I’m speaking normally or if I’m sounding like a total b***h.

“And you agreed? Just like that?” Kesha asked.

“What can I do Kesha? I have nothing! I’m literally no one in the entertainment industry right now! Even if they don’t cut me off, I won’t have a job. I won’t have any projects. And if I participate in any of our group’s activities, I will just bring all of you down!”

“That’s not true!” Leina exclaimed.

“Yes, it is! No matter how much I try to say that I’m okay, I’m obviously not. Everybody hates me! You’re even hurt because of me! If I don’t leave now, if I don’t just disappear, you will go down with me. And I don’t want that! I tried so hard to save you and I wouldn’t let all of my efforts go to waste!”

“What? What did you just say? Save us?” Raqi curiously inquired. s**t! I slipped.

“Nothing. That’s not important,” I tried dodging the question.

“No. answer me Erina---”

She was about to ask more but Sassy interrupted. “what about us Erina? You’ll leave us here? You said we’re all in this together?”

“We are! But I just need to breathe, I just need to get away. I needed to save myself too! Of course, I want to stay with all of you! But if I do that, I will slowly die. I’ll slowly die from the inside. And I don’t want you to be with someone like that. So please, please understand,” we were already crying as we spoke.

It breaks my heart to leave them like this. They’re my best friends. I’ve been with them forever. And a day without them is unimaginable. But I needed to choose. I needed to sacrifice something. And if it means going back as a whole, as someone they can lean to, someone who they can trust, then I’m willing to be apart from them.

“No! you’re being selfish Erina!” I was startled when Sassy said that.

I’m being selfish? Me? Selfish? Is that what they think? That I’m doing this for myself? How could they think that?

“First, you chose your career over Silas! He loved you so much! He was willing to sacrifice his career for you! And you left him! You dropped him like a hot potato! And then what, huh? When the career you chose left you, you’re running away? You’re leaving as in this hell hole? Yes maybe the public hates you but they hate us now too! Every time they see us, they remember you! So because of you! We’re supposed to start again! everything that we worked hard for is gone! All because you’re a liar!”

What? Am I dreaming? Our sweet Sassy is speaking to me this way, so I’m really dreaming right.

But when I felt how deep her words cut into my heart, I confirmed that everything is not just a dream. What is happening? Why is everything crumbling? I thought that after everything, my friends would be the one supporting me until the end. I thought that they would understand. Because I did it for them! I did everything that I did to save them! And this? Is this serious?

“What are you saying Sassy?”

“You want to go? Then f*****g go! Go live your peaceful life!” she walked out after that. I tried talking to the other girls, but they rushed to go after Sassy.

I was left alone. Again.

Everything is falling apart. And all I wanted was to be saved. Because I’m drowning so deeply already. And I don’t know if I’ll ever breath again. The pain is so unbearable, and my heart is already numb that I can’t even cry anymore.

What’s happening to my life? Where did I go wrong?

When I thought I was sinking deeper, I heard my baby brother’s voice.

“Achi! Look, mom and I bought something for you!” he excitedly exclaimed as he showed me a guitar pick.

And by then, I knew. I really need to go some place else.