Chapter 10.2
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I didn’t saw Silas in there so I’m guessing he was also taking a bath. After a few minutes, I saw him walking down the stairs with his black shirt and black shorts, with a towel hanging on his broad shoulders and he's drying his wet hair.
"I ordered Chinese food for dinner, is that okay?" he asked me after sitting next to me in the sofa. I said it's okay then silence filled the room again, thankfully he turns the TV on to ease the awkwardness.
After a few minutes of awkward silence, we heard the doorbell rang. Probably the food already. He stands up to get the food. He quickly came back and fix the food in the center table in front of me. Well, I’d rather eat here than in his massive dining room. We both sat on the floor and started eating.
"How did you know that Chinese food's my favorite?" I asked him while eating my Chow Mein.
He stopped sipping the Wonton Soup and look at me with creased forehead.
"What?"
"Are you stalking me? Do you have a rush on me now?" I continued asking while biting my Kung Pao Chicken.
He clicked his tongue and continued eating. I stopped eating when he handed me the Shrimp Vermicelli. He's looking at me like he’s telling me to shut up and eat.
"You're not a good stalker because you didn’t know that I’m allergic to seafoods especially shrimp”.
"Isn't that proof enough that I’m not a stalker?” he told me with a smirk.
"Hmp, your lost. Stalking me is a blessing you know”.
"Is the rain earlier an acid rain or something because you’re talking nonsense right now”.
"Are you an acid?"
“Is that a pickup line? Fine, why?"
"Nothing. Just curious," I said then he laughed out loud. I can’t stop myself from laughing too because his is infectious.
"I thought you have a pick-up line or something."
"I tried to think of an entry, but I think the rain washed all my brain cells away and I turn into some limbo who can’t think of any jokes”.
"Are you feeling si--"
"All I think about is......."
His worried face slowly turned red which made me laugh again. What I said was so corny, but it looks like he like it so that is probably fine.
We were almost done eating when I saw the last piece of Xialongbao. I tried to quickly pick it up with my chop sticks but we both had our chopstick on it. We looked at each other and no one wants to let go.
"This is my favorite."
"This is my favorite too," he really will not let go even with my murderous eyes staring directly at him.
"Please," I quickly changed my tactics and displayed my pleading face.
"That won’t work on me. You look like a duck," he answered with a smirk which made me more pissed.
"Excuse me! I do not look like a duck. You look like a monkey..."
"Ah so you have a crush on a monkey?"
"Annoying jerk!" I look at him with dagger eyes. He is not just my crush because I already love him! But I won’t say that.
"Where’s the lie though?"
"Okay fine! I was crushing on you before but that stop already because you raised your voice at me a while ago!”
His smile quickly vanished, and he finally let go of the last piece of Xialongbao. I took it and ate it with gusto in front of his stupid face. I was about to tease him again when I see how pained his expression was.
"Hey....it’s just a joke," I said then placed my chopsticks on top of the center table.
"Erina, I'm sorry," he looked at me with apologetic eyes. "I didn't mean what I said earlier. I just did not like the feeling of being doubted. I'm sorry that I raise my voice like that," he added.
"I'm sorry too because I touched your things. I know that I don’t have the right---”
"No! It is okay. I like it when you're curious about me," he said which made me avert my eyes. We were silent again for a few minutes. He sighed heavily then started to talk.
"Her name's Theia," he started to say but I quickly cut him off.
"Silas, you really don’t need to say anything. You don’t have to explain to me”.
"I just wanted you to know about my past, because I didn't want the past interfering with my present......and future," he continued to say while looking into my eyes.
I am happy that he is finally opening up to me. He seems like giving me assurance even when I am not asking for it. Wow, Erina. You are talking about assurance when you are not even together. I heard my conscience, but I shrugged it off. I smiled and nodded for him to continue.
"I've known her since middle school. We became together for three years then she broke up with me three years ago to chase her dreams abroad. I tried to take her back and even beg her to be with me again but then last year, I heard that she became a successful fashion designer in New York," he said while smiling at me.
"I realized that she flew so much higher when I wasn't with her. That the love we had was weighing her down. Just recently, I visited her in New York to attend one of her shows and congratulate her."
She must have been a one hell of a woman to let someone like Silas go. I can clearly see in his eyes that he is sincerely glad about her achievements. She is one hell of a lucky woman.
"We sometimes see each other on international shows but that's just about it," he shrugged his shoulders then started to clean the table.
"Thank you for telling me," I exclaimed while helping him clean the table.
Because were both tired, we both decided to rest early. We said good night to each other before he walks towards the stairs and into his room.
I finally breath evenly when I was lying in my comfortable bed while staring at the ceiling because even though I’m really tired, I can’t sleep. I am bothered with how Silas uttered her name with affection. Even after hearing him say that they are over, I can’t help but to overthink. I am wired this way. Because I can’t find my sleep no matter what I do, I decided to go out of my room and walk upstairs. I was about to knock at his door when I heard him talk. He did not close his door right because it was slightly opened.
"Fucker! You're not helping," I can hear his anger and laugh while talking to with someone in his cellphone.
"I'm using all my strength to stop myself from kissing her."
I was pass stopping myself, so I did not hesitate and just knock at his door. He was so shocked when he saw me standing in the doorway. He immediately ended the call and look at me in the eye.
"Do you need anything?" Yes, you.
"I'm not Theia," his forehead immediately creased after hearing what I said.
"I also have countless of dreams but I'm not Theia."
"Look Erina, I kno---"
"I’ll never let you go."
I was determined to keep my word. I really am. But my love for him was not selfish. My love for him was strong enough to give him up and let him go for the sake of others, because his love taught me that sacrificing was worth it when you do it for the right reasons.
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