chapter-5 ( maybe wear heart on the sleeves not my self respect)
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Veronica's pov :
Currently, i am in a bus ...if you would ask where this bus is going ? then, Honestly ! I don't know and I don't care either because right now, i have no destination or goal in my life ... I just want peace in my life.
Tears are constantly rolling down from my eyes as today's events are keep replaying in my mind again and again ...
How can she do that ?
I don't care at all about what he has done but my own best friend..
Yes ! My own freaking best friend.... We are friends for almost 15 years.it’s like almost all our life we were friends.
How can she???
Flashback...:-
I m waiting for James behind the staircase as decided.. Today i am going to tell him about my feelings for him.. I m so nervous is an understatement.
What will be his answer ?
What he think about us being together ?
Will he say yes or no ?
There are so many questions running in my mind, But eventually the most important question is why is he taking so much time to come ?
I am pacing back and forth due to nervousness... Waiting for him.
" hey, baby ! What you wanted to talk about ? " he asked from behind directly coming to point and I jumped.
" whoa ... Whoa lady .. Calm down ! Is everything alright ? you seems tense" he asked with concern.
" who ? Me ? I am not tense " i said with a forced smile but in reality i am hell of a nervous and tense.
" then what you want to talk ?" He asked with desperation.
Someone is in hurry....
" ohh .. Yeah.... It's just... James .. you know.. " i stammerd.
Calm down ... Take a deep breath and say it girl ... on the count of three .. He was keep staring at me confusingly... Ok ...1....2.... And it's 3
" James.. I love you " i said finally and closed my eyes as my heart is going to come out anytime soon.
" Is that so ? " he asked.
" yeah" i said slowly as my heartbeat seems to going back to it’s rhythem.
" okayy ... Kiss me" he demanded with a smirk.
A smirk ? What's that ?
" but James umm..i just confessed to you, you don’t want to say anything after that ?" i asked him with a confusion in my voice .
" Do you love me ? you love me,right ? " i asked him and my voice is shaky.
" Do i look stupid ? " he asked me with a stupid smirk on his face.
" what do you mean ?" I mumbled those words out.
" I said, I m not stupid that i will love you,you were nothing but a challenge to me or a new toy to play with , and let me tell you .. you are just so annoying.. Always baby did you eat ? Baby did you sleep well ? So damn annoying.. you should thank me that i bare you for .. I think 9 months,
No boy can love you veronica ... None because you are nothng but a stupid ... Annoying nerd that knows nothing what boys need from girls ! " he spit those words out with hatred lacing into his voice.
I can't believe he is the same James I know....i love....
" okay ! So if i am annoying and stupid then i am going and will never show you my face again " i said with teary eyes, gulping down the pain i am feeling.
If he thinks that i will run behind him then he can go to hell. I may put my heart on the sleeves but not my self-respect.
" And one more thing .. It's 10 months ... 14 days. Goodbye ! " i said without even glancing at him.
As i was about to walking away from him...he held my hand.
" let me go .....you jerk" i said angrily.
" not that easily babe ... I want my kiss .. And may be much more" he barked with a wicked smile on his face.
How i want to punch his face !
" let me go, please " I begged him but he pinned me to the wall behind him and forcing kiss on me.
I m struggling to get away from his hold but he is too strong..
" help... Somebody help .. Please james..... Let me go ... " i cried out loud but nobody heard me.
And then, i kicked his balls and he cried in pain ...you deserve that bastard .
And i was running away from him ... with tears in my eyes !
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flashback continue..... :-
At locker room,
I am watching Becca with some boy as they are talking.... Who is he ? C'mon boy turn around so i can see ur face...
Is Becca seeing someone and didn't tell me ?
And then i saw his face ....
Oh my lord !
He is James... Holy s**t !
What he is doing here ?
No..no..no, Becca stay away from him .. He is not nice person ..
Something is up !
I can say from their body language..
I am just processing all this things in my mind when suddenly Becca started laughing evily and the weird thing is that, She seems different !
She is not my Becca.... she has twin ?
No !
Then,what is all this ... But seriously, i am having headache from all this mess.
I walked near for eavesdropping on their conversation. I am hiding behind bookshelf that is nearest to them so i can hear their talk....
" i did your work , i ditched her when she confessed her feelings.... Now please delete my video " James said with fear in his voice.
He was talking about me ,right ? Yeah it was me ....
He is literally begging to her... What the hell is happening ?
Am I sleeping ?
Am I dreaming ?
" yeah ... Yeah buddy .. I will delete your video and i must say ..you did a great job " she said.
" but Becca... " he was about to say something but she cut him in between.
" it's Rebecca " she corrected angrily.
" yeah but why you want to ruin veronica ? Why you want to hurt her ? Why you want to break her heart ? Isn't she is your best friend ?" he asked her confusingly.
" that is none of your business ,you nutshell.... Now shoo .......before I change my mind about deleting that video" she said with glaring
And with that he literally ran away like a mouse... I was there shocked.
Shocked is such a little word..
My own best friend want to ruin me... Hurt me... My own Becca... My sister.
My hand flew to my mouth from making any noises because of my crying and tears rolling down again ...
Why this all happening to me ? Am i that bad ?
First my love and now ,my best friend....
I m running away from the person again .....whom I trusted fully....
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