How Do I Choose?

Today is my first day of true freedom. Today is the day I leave home, if that is what you want to call it. I remember when it was my home, when it was warm and safe. My father though, he is an Alpha, and he had to go to war 10 years ago. I was only nine at the time, now I'm pushing twenty. When he returned he was cold and hollow. He was and still has never been unkind to my brother or myself just not as loving as he once was. The same goes for my mother, however, she took it terribly. Since dad has returned and isn't who he once was she has became mean, abusive. I remember when she started the abuse. It was little things at first, nit picking and little things my brother Liam and I did. Simple things like the way we walked or laughed. It progressed quickly, for every absent word my father had a mean one would be sent our way. Eventually she felt it wasn't enough as she began drinking and for every sip of whiskey Liam and I got the beatings. Liam and I are twins however I am five minutes older which in turn makes me the next to take over our pack, well supposed to. I won't be though, no I am going to the city to make something of myself. Dad will continue to run and once he is gone, Liam can takr over. I will live free of my mother. I should have left years ago, when Liam found his mate and left to live with her across the pack lands. I don't resent him for it, couldn't ask him to stay. We should be able to defend ourselves at this age but... I can't seem to find the strength within me. I will be getting my wolf form soon, I may have the strength then but I won't be here to find out. No more fist fights, no more stick beating, belts, thrown bottles and stitches. No more trash talking and lack of sleep due to terror. Now is my time, I will slip out after curfew and be gone with the wind....