Liv
My heart was pounding in my chest, while my facial expression kept a smile on. I couldn’t stop smiling today. I felt so, so excited. I woke up, knowing today was going to be a good day. That for once, I wasn’t looking into the cons of it all. I wanted to believe that for one day, I can be happy. When I got out the shower this morning. I had a text from him.
“Good morning beautiful.
I look forward to spending the day with you. Just a heads up, you may want to bring a set of second clothes. Something light, like workout clothes with comfortable shoes.
I will be at your house at 10 to pick you up for our date.
Ohh this is Travis.”
I can’t lie when I say I had butterflies flying in my belly. It felt nice to look forward to something for once. Goddess knows I haven’t had the great luck in anything. My love life is a place I thought I can avoid for a few more years. But here I am, will I have love in return or just pain all over again?
I got ready for my date with Travis. I wanted to keep it simple and cute. I don’t want him thinking I’m trying too hard. Besides, this may be our only date ever. So I wore some light rip up jeans with a corset red top and pair it with a knitted cardigan. I put on the highest knee boots I had and did my make up. I would love to wear my necklace with the raven feather, but I lost it the day of the attack.
“Okay he said to bring workout like clothes. What were we doing?” I had no idea where Travis was taking me. When we texted last night about it, he just said it was a surprise. I figure he just didn’t know.
Time went on and the bell rang. “Oh God! Don’t tell me he did?” I thought I would have a heart attack. I ran down stairs quick with my stuff, begging it wasn’t him. “Oh no, oh no.” I heard laughter coming from the kitchen and when I enter. I just seen mom and Travis.
“Mom?” Both Travis and mom turn to face me. I just knew she said something to him. And he kept instating on calling me Elizabeth. I mean I like it when he said it but I didn’t want to get too use to it.
“Well I won’t hold you kids up. You go on and have fun.” Mom pat Travis’s shoulder and walk over to me. “He is very cute.” She whispers. I glance at Travis who just stood there smirking at me. I quickly said goodbye. And we left the house before mom talks his ear off more.
I rolled my eyes as I closed the door when she shouts for me to buckle up. Like i’m a child.
“Your mom is very sweet.” I ignore him, already annoy and embarrass.
“You should of just texted me you where here.” I whispered to myself.
Travis sped pass me and open the car door, “m’lady?” He smirk. I looked away and got in. When he got into the car he just sat there with the engine going.
“Are we not going?” I asked him.
“Your mother said to put your seat belt on. And I won’t drive until you do so.” Is he serious right now?
“I’ll be fine, let’s just go before my dad gets home and talks your ear off too. I’m sure my mom already bored you enough.” Travis chuckle and leans over me to buckle me in. “Hey?”
“One thing about me Elizabeth. I take the safety of people I love and care about very seriously.” I puff at him.
I wan’t mad because the slight touch of his fingers had lighting go through me. But I didn’t want to show him that. “Now can we go?”
Travis nod, “of course. You just pick our first location.”
I knew it, he had no clue. Ohh well maybe I can scare him off. That way he won’t want to continue with this mate s**t. I pick my favorite movie theater. They held a lot of international films. And the best horror films. I went ahead to put the gps on for him.
“Ohh okay, seems fun.” He seemed surprise at my location but whatever. Just wait until we get there.
Moments later we arrive. We got inside and I order our tickets while Travis gets us food. “So what kind of movie did you pick?” I let a light chuckle out, thinking he is going to hate it.
“A horror film.” His eyes widen and we continue to walk. We got settle in and shared a popcorn. Travis got us separated drinks. “Thank you Travis, and you look very handsome.” I said while we wait for the movie to play.
“Anything to keep that smile on that beautiful face.” I turn my face quick, only to have him grab my chin. “I told you, don’t hide.” He whispers. I gasped but it felt like I lost air from his touch.
Before I can look more dumbfounded. The room started to get dark and everyone got quiet. We sat back as we watch the movie. It was hilarious to see Travis’s reaction. He even jumped a few times. What a big bad Alpha. At one moment I grab his hand and ask if he wanted to leave. He shook his head no. So he sat there watching the whole movie with me.
When we got back to the car, I couldn’t stop laughing. I was mad because he wouldn’t admit he was scared. It was quite cute really. “I was not scared. Every scene just took me by surprise. Won’t you scared? You didn’t flinch once?” He asked me.
I shock my head no with a pout. I buckled myself into the car, knowing if I didn’t he’ll do it himself. “You didn’t have to stay and watch the whole thing. We could of left at anytime.” He shook his head no. Claiming he can handle it. I tease him about it being real. His eyes widen and my joy increase.
“So tell me why you pick the date for us? What does that had to tell me about you.” My body shut down. I started fiddling with my fingers. I forgot he was going to ask me that question.
“Umm, I’ll tell you later. I don’t won’t to ruin a good mood right now.” He looked over and I looked away. I hate myself, I despise my past, I hate mother and father, I hate my coven, and sometimes, I hate being a witch. Travis was going to reject me when I tell him the truth.
And then a warmth feeling came in. I closed my eyes and felt like I was sitting in front of a fireplace. But it was just Travis holding my hand. My mind told me to pull away, but my heart said no. “It’s okay. We don’t have to talk about it.” His smile told me he kinda knew. Not like knew, knew, but like he can sense it bother me to thinking about it.
“So where to next?” I asked. Taking my mind off my past.
“Hiking.” What? Out of all places, he picked hiking. f**k, you can’t get the wolf away from the woods for long.
“Ohh, sounds fun.” I tried to sound thrilled.
“You’ll like it, trust me.” I kinda had to right? Yeah, it’s not like he’s gonna kill me there or something.
After parking up by the entrances, Travis suggested we head to the bathroom and change. So we grabbed our bags and change into something more fitting for this hike. When I got out, Travis was wearing a shirt that shows all his muscles. I felt hot at his sight. Like wow, this is my mate, a big bad, sexy, tall Alpha.
Goddamn!
“You ready?” He asked me.
Honesty no, but there was a reason he wanted to bring me here. So I’m going to suck it up for him. “Yeah, let’s go.” Before we started I asked him one big question first. I grab his arm and he stared at me. “How long is this hike for?”
Travis got close to me and brought his face to my level. “3 hours, but if you get tired. You can wrap your thighs around me.”
I stutter my words, feeling all flustered from him. “Okay. Umm let’s hike.”
3 hours later
Fuck my legs were starting to hurt, but I am very surprise at how long I lasted. I haven’t workout in awhile. And I’m so, out of shape. Maybe I need to start running again.
“You okay?” He called out, hearing me breathing heavily.
“Yeah, all good. Are we almost there?” Oh please Goddess, tell me we’re almost there.
“Yes, just over this hill. Just watch your step, the rocks can be slippy.” I try my best to be careful but then I slip. Before I can fall Travis caught me. “It’s okay, I got you.” His eyes were so pretty. I forgotten how to breathe as his arms wrapped over my back.
“I’m good now, thanks.” I quickly regain my sense. He helped me up, holding my hand to make sure I don’t slip again.
Once we made it over the hill, it was amazing. A huge open field. The sun sat so nice on the other side. And there a sign guiding hikers to a hidden café near by. But this field it was heaven.
“You like it?” I was so stun, I couldn’t speak. It looked like the hike can go on more. There was a bridge from the cliff to another. My legs shock at the idea of walking more. “Come sit.” I turn to see Travis placing down a huge blanket on the ground. Gesturing to me to sit with him.
“How did you find this place?” I bet it’s a wolf answer. Something like, I can smell the woods and moon and stuff.
“I looked it up last night. I thought it be nice for us just to sit and talk.” Ohh, still good answer. “Here, drink this.” Travis pulled out a thermos.
I thought it can be warm broth or something. But when I taste it. It was my favorite tea. “Do you just assume all witches like tea?” I tease him.
“No, I just ask one cute witch’s best friend, what her favorite drink was.” I took another sip and felt the warmth go down my throat. “And some more stuff.” He adds.
I heard Travis pulling more stuff out his bag. I saw all my favorite snacks and more. I can’t believe he went all the trouble to getting my favorites. “Travis?” I gasped.
“I just wanted you to be happy. I know food makes any girl happy.” Well he has a point there. Now I feel like a jerk for bring nothing but water.
“You didn’t have to. This view is all I needed.” Looking over our view again.
“I know with us being very different. I thought I take us somewhere that we both feel safe and loved at.” I looked at him, understanding what he meant.
“You adore the woodsy air, while I love to be close to the Earth.” Travis nods his cute head at me. “You won, congrats wolf.” He frown at me.
“What do you mean?” He asked.
“You pick the perfect date. This here, nothing can top it. You just set the bar too high now.” I chuckled.
Travis smirk and graced my fingers with his. “Everything with you can be perfect. If we try Elizabeth, we are mates after all.” I had a shaky smile on. I wanted to believe we can be mates. But I just have this feeling that it’s all gonna end bad. For us both. So I pulled away, feeling guilt.
“So tell me why this place? What’s your story Travis?” His face change quick, sighing softly to himself. I felt a huge ache about to come.
“I guess I pick this place to have a connection for us both. With my wolf side, I love being close to the forest. And for you, I figure being with nature will make you feel comfort.” He smiled a little, and I smiled back. “Being here just feels like another home. One that I can be free. I get to run away from all my thoughts. All the stress and Alpha demands I have. It all goes away. Being an Alpha itself isn’t as great as some makes it out to be.” Travis grabs more stuff out the bag and place it nicely on the blanket.
“Does everyone expect you to be someone you wish you don’t have to?” I know it must be a stupid question but whatever, I already asked. Travis looked at me, like really looked at me. My body started heating up from his glare.
“Yeah, 24/7. But I can’t complain. I was raised to be Alpha one day. And it took a whole other side of me to prove to everyone that I wasn’t playing dress up in father’s clothes. That’s why i’m one of the fearest Alpha alive.” I can see it bother him a bit.
I lay my hand on his, feeling the sparks run through us both. “You don’t seem that scary. A bit annoying but not scary.” We chuckled as the mood brighten up.
“Well nothing scares me.” I rise an eyebrow at him. Teasing him again. He claim he wasn’t scared, just surprise.
“Okay, I believe you. Big bad wolf.” He squeezed my hand. His touch felt so good. I almost wanted to give in.
No. You shouldn’t Liv. You cant.
We took a few minutes to rehydrate ourself. A 3 hour walk took a lot out us both.
“So tell me about you. Doesn’t have to be the reason you chose a horror film for a date. Just something I can hold on to.” He felt safe but it scared me to let him in. It’s just going to all backfire. So I pulled away again, thinking over my memories. “Even if it’s one thing.” He adds.
I closed my eyes trying to stay happy. “Didn’t Mason already told you my story. I’m sure you are just taking pity on me.” I took a sip of my tea, looking away to focus on the view.
“No. Even though for years Mason never stop talking about you. He never told me YOUR story.” I looked at him, trying to see if he lying.
“Why you want to know anyways. It’s just going to make you reject me quicker. I don’t have this happy life you think I have.” My body started to shake. Feeling like the rejection was starting already.
“I wasn’t...” I cut him off. Standing up angry at him for making me relive this feeling I have hid from.
“Not everyone gets that love Travis. People are damage and we can’t be fix! You can’t love us, it’s useless.” He got up and try to reach for my arm but I push him away. “No don’t touch me!”
My thoughts were swallowing me in my past. “f**k why did I agree to this. We’re not going to be mates! We are nothing Travis.” He just stood there letting me yell at him.
“Look at us.” I laughed painfully.
“You’re a wolf and I’m witch. We are made to hate each other. This is a joke.” Again he reach but I push and hit his chest. “I had pain over and over again!” HIT! “It can kill you and we can’t last!” Hit! “Just reject me to end it damn it!” HIT! “Your feelings aren’t real its this bond crap. Its all lies!” I scream in the inside. Hating my memories.
I pull away again, giving us space. “Can’t you just deal with the fact we can’t be together! This bond isn’t real, us as mates can’t be real. All of this, all of it is fake! There’s no happy ending, just pain after pain. f*****g people just crave pain!”
I scratch at my temple trying to scrap this thought away. “Love isn’t real for us. It’s false hope! I can’t be your Luna, I can’t give you a heir, I can’t be your mate! You need better, not me. I’m not.. I’m not.” I covered my face, feeling so overworked.
Next thing I know, I couldn’t breathe. It started to get hard and harder. But then Travis pulled me into his arms and I didn’t pull away. I just allowed him to hold me, brushing my hair with his hand. “Sshh it’s okay.” He whispered and I broke.
He felt so good, being in his arms felt so good. I felt like I was melting into his touch. Something I never felt. So I took in his warmth with the scent of his cinnamon take over. I cried until I calm down. That’s what he had over me. I know it’s just this f*****g mate bond but I like it. I like how he just has this power over me. Right when I feel like I was exploding, his touch calms me down.
“You don’t have to tell me anything. We have time. When you are ready, you can tell me.” I let a big sigh out. I stayed in his arms for a bit more.
When I was ready, I looked up at him. “Travis, why do you want to try with me? You know we can’t.”
He wipe away my tears. “Because you feel like trying. And I want to try, I don’t care about anything else or anyone.” Can he really mean what he says. How do I know he won’t just leave after knowing the truth.
“This may break us. And after everything, it may feel like dying in the end.” I felt like I was crying all over again.
He lift my chin and caress my lips with his thumb. Making me stare at his lips, wanting to taste them. “I want to try. Even if you don’t want to anymore, one day. At least I had the pleasure to say I tried with one of the most beautiful witch I ever lay eyes on.” Okay, now I’m really fighting to not kiss him.
Leaning into me. Our nose touch. I breathe heavily and I was on edge from his scent. f**k I want to but I can’t. He makes it too hard. His breath sent overwhelming tingles through my body. “Maybe one taste.” I thought.
His lips part, whispering. “Come sit down.” I got out his embrace. Rearranging my mind that clutter with unwelling thoughts of him touching me.
I sat down and sigh softly. We ate some of the food and he went on to tell me about his past. All the pressure and hate he dealt with. He told me about the biggest secret that makes everything hard right now. His father had an affair with another Luna and got her pregnant. Years later they reconnect and now after his father’s death. His half brother is trying to come after them. He been avoiding them but Mason convince him to just set a meeting to set stuff straight. I ask what his plan? And he say he just has to see how it goes.
We finish our food and I felt like I should tell him something. Maybe not everything to make him want to give up. “Travis?” He hums to me. “Why didn’t you say anything about my mom? I know you can tell?” He swallow fast.
“Ask what? That’s she human?”
“Yeah.” I replied.
“I figure you got the witch part from your father. So with your mother being a mortal, I didn’t question anything. Beside she was very sweet.” He smile, but I know I had to tell him the truth.
“No, I didn’t get it from him.” Travis make a confuse look at me. “They’re my adopted parents and they don’t even know I’m a witch.”
He said nothing, he seem interested to know though. “When I was 7, there was an attack at the coven. Some wolves started killing people. And somehow I just found myself at the orphanage. The last thing I remembered was, my father Caden holding me and I fell asleep in his arms after he blew some powder in my face. He left me a letter but didn’t explain anything. Just that he loved me. I knew it had to be my exile because I couldn’t perform magic. They all shunned me. All of them.”
Travis grabbed my hand. “Your Ancestors are missing out.” I smile and continue.
“f**k them. They never care for me, that’s why I found the Goddess to take me in. I enjoy being under her moon. She took me in as her child and she saved me. She brought me to my real parents. My mom and dad.” I went on to explain why I call them mom and dad. And how with them, they call me Elizabeth. I even told him about Madam Grace.
“I’m sorry your coven and Ancestors never got to see how amazing you are. Because I had just met you. And I can’t imagine why anyone wouldn’t want you in their life.” Travis was being sweet, and I want it to stay like that. Maybe we can stay together. Maybe.
“There’s one more thing Travis. And it’s big.” He played with a piece of my hair. Telling me it’s okay, we can talk about school or anything else if I’m not ready. But f**k that. It’s too big of a secret and IF there’s something here, he has to know.
“I have a twin sister, Meredith. Well I call her Mery and she calls me Livy.” Travis’s eyes widen but stop and stared at me. “We got back into contact and it’s nice. But she just told me how my coven thought I was died. And how they want to see me again. But I don’t know how I feel about it.” I looked up at him, squeezing his hand for more comfort.
“You don’t have to do anything you don’t feel like. Don’t put stress on yourself. If you want to see them, even one last time. Go ahead. And if you don’t want to do any of it, then don’t. You have been happy without them for years. You’ll be fine without them again.” His words felt like, like it was just perfect.
“But shouldn’t I try, for Mery at least?” I still didn’t know if I wanted to go to this stupid party they were having.
“It’s your life. Your choice. And if you want. I’ll be here with you.” It felt nice to think I can have him with me, with all this shitstorm. I feel like Travis is the loophole to peace.
“Can I met your wolf?” I ask him out of changing topics. I know it was big and out of nowhere but I feel like I need to know. “I mean he’s my mate too right?” His eyes stare at me and I worry he didn’t want to. He closed his eyes holding my hand and when he open them, they glowed a beautiful color.
“Hello Elizabeth, I’m Malcolm.” My cheeks burn red. I adore the way he said my name.
“Hi. Are you okay with this whole mate thing? Or are you...”
Cutting me off. “I’m more than okay with it. I have been trying to get him to find you for years now.” I giggle a little. His over load of excitement was adorable.
“I just want you to know, we will never make you do anything you don’t want to. We just want you Elizabeth. You don’t have to give us anything beside, this.” He lift my hands. Malcolm’s touch send such a warmth. I blush “As long as you try with us. We will try to keep you.”
Oh God this it too real.
“And if one day, if you’re okay with it. I’ll show you my true form. Give you a ride on my back and lay my head on your lap while you cast spells and more. A life we both can adore and feel free to be us. Because it’s just us, no one else.” It honesty felt good to hope for those days. And knowing he wanted them felt very promising.
But can I trust that high of a promise?
“It would be nice. Thank you Malcolm.” I scratch his ears where his wolf ears would be and he purr a little.
“Can I ask you something? I don’t want you to think I’m overstepping.”
I tilt my head, wondering what he could ask me. “Go ahead, ask.”
He clears his throat. “Have you seen or met Oliver before? And do you have or ever had any feelings for Mason?” I couldn’t help but laugh. But it made since, everyone has asked us that before.
“Yes I have seen Oliver in wolf from. He is very kind and overprotective.” Malcolm growl a little. “Don’t be jealous boys. We never had feelings for each other like that. Mason is an annoying pest of a brother.” I laughed, I hope it ease their mind on him.
“Before you can ask, yes my parents know Mason. They trust him and love him like their own son. They had no problem when Mason slept over that one time.” Again Malcolm growl, he apologies but I laughed. “Not what you’re thinking. Trust me, that’s gross.” Finally he smiled.
Seconds later Travis return and lay his head on my hand. “Come on Elizabeth. Time to return back to the car.” I smile so stupidly, I think I broke my cheeks. So we packed everything up and started our 3 hour walk down.
We stop by a restaurant and pick up some popcorn chicken to share. We spend the whole time talking. It honesty felt so nice to talk to him beside crying and feeling so much hate. We laugh about some crazy things that has happen. Malcolm even surface to tell me a story or two. And for a good minute, I thought this could work. I thought maybe Travis is right. Forget about everyone. This is about us and we can be mates if we just try. It felt so good to hope for the good things. I was so use to the bad. And Travis makes me wanting to see the good. Maybe we should, maybe we can live happily ever.
“Okay here we are.” I thank him for an amazing day. Never would I’ve chosen a 3 hour hike but with him I would.
“Elizabeth I need to ask you one last question.” I nod and waited for him to ask. “Before today, I know I wanted to try for as long as I can. And I still do. But I do need to know if you do?” I met his eyes, looking at me for answers.
I thought for a short second and said, “Yes Travis. I do want to try.” He had the biggest smile on his face. It melted my heart to see it.
“Okay with that being said, I need you to say goodbye and pack your stuff. I need you to live in the pack house with me.”