Like someone once said Dear Mom I Get It Now

21 not a bad age to be I can drink legally but I won't I became a good girl after my moms death I changed from the partying 18 year old to the young respectful quit girl who stayed home and got good grades so I could get a good job and be happy and alone I don't want love I'm the girl who became a young woman who took care of her father who fell from his high place after her mother's death and hit rock bottom. He became a shell of himself. My mother always used to say one day you'll know what love is it will be like your never ending loop of happiness and you will look to this person as if they hung the moon they will love you like no other she would quite the Bible verse Corinthians 13:4 Love is patient Love is kind It does not envy It does not boast It is not proud It is not rude It is not self-seeking It is not easily angered Keeps no record of wrongs Does not delight in evil Rejoices with the truth Always protects Always trusts Always hopes Always preserves Love never fails But thats not true I watched it fail my parents I watched as my father slowly died inside as my mother died completely I watched his heart slowly brake and I will not ever go through that or make someone else do it. I Eliza Marybeth McCain will never allow love in my life that is my word.